Akirasovan
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- Nov 17, 2015
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Hello.
I'm at a breaking point. I am 27 years old and I've been trying to work this disgusting medical system since age 18, when I initially injured my back.
I don't want to ramble, because I could fill a book with my woes so far.
At 18 I injured myself, went on workers comp. It took more than 2 years just to get a proper diagnosis, and the time in-between was spent heavily addicted to pain killers. The only things these crooked workers comp doctors wanted to do, throw pills at me.
While on pain killers, I though I was fine, so I continued working as a lead cook full-time on my injury for those two years.
Once I finally got my MRIs, Xrays, etc. The doctors laid out my conditions and just how compounded my intial injury became. What started as lower back and muscle problems, shot up into my neck and leggs. The pain was bad at age 20, but now seven years later it is unbearable.
Pain killers, thinners, antidepressants. No, still pain. As I sit, am in the library with tears in my eyes. I am trying to attend part time at college, and MY GOD it is a test. Daily my mind is riddled with a desire to simply call it quits.
My family has been very supportive, but they can only do so much and they are getting older. Siblings moved out, parents aging, and here I am a worthless sack of flesh with nothing to offer.
I walk around daily, and in this era social interaction is just horrid. Everyone is on their phone, nobody cares for each other anymore. Every is literally disconnecting from life while connecting to their comfy virtual world.
My pain is in my low spine, low back muscles, upper shoulders, upper legs and severe muscle tension in my entire neck. I have spent the last 8-9 years going to doctors, but medical care in this conuntry is about masking, not curing. Pills, pills, pills and more pills!
No matter where I turn, my mind is completely locked out of this world. Because, I don't care to interact with these robots, concerned only about themselves and their stupid new phones or whatever technological device. Twitter this, facebook that, but everyone is so fake.
And with that, I've had plenty of time to diagnose the world around me and my declining health. They simply don't go together and I am sick and tired of even getting out of bed in the morning. Funny that i feel the need to reach out on the internet, people i cannot even see. Do they care? Is this just a chore for them, to read through people problems as terrible eventslike the Paris shootings take place.
That sums it up, what do I do?
I'm at a breaking point. I am 27 years old and I've been trying to work this disgusting medical system since age 18, when I initially injured my back.
I don't want to ramble, because I could fill a book with my woes so far.
At 18 I injured myself, went on workers comp. It took more than 2 years just to get a proper diagnosis, and the time in-between was spent heavily addicted to pain killers. The only things these crooked workers comp doctors wanted to do, throw pills at me.
While on pain killers, I though I was fine, so I continued working as a lead cook full-time on my injury for those two years.
Once I finally got my MRIs, Xrays, etc. The doctors laid out my conditions and just how compounded my intial injury became. What started as lower back and muscle problems, shot up into my neck and leggs. The pain was bad at age 20, but now seven years later it is unbearable.
Pain killers, thinners, antidepressants. No, still pain. As I sit, am in the library with tears in my eyes. I am trying to attend part time at college, and MY GOD it is a test. Daily my mind is riddled with a desire to simply call it quits.
My family has been very supportive, but they can only do so much and they are getting older. Siblings moved out, parents aging, and here I am a worthless sack of flesh with nothing to offer.
I walk around daily, and in this era social interaction is just horrid. Everyone is on their phone, nobody cares for each other anymore. Every is literally disconnecting from life while connecting to their comfy virtual world.
My pain is in my low spine, low back muscles, upper shoulders, upper legs and severe muscle tension in my entire neck. I have spent the last 8-9 years going to doctors, but medical care in this conuntry is about masking, not curing. Pills, pills, pills and more pills!
No matter where I turn, my mind is completely locked out of this world. Because, I don't care to interact with these robots, concerned only about themselves and their stupid new phones or whatever technological device. Twitter this, facebook that, but everyone is so fake.
And with that, I've had plenty of time to diagnose the world around me and my declining health. They simply don't go together and I am sick and tired of even getting out of bed in the morning. Funny that i feel the need to reach out on the internet, people i cannot even see. Do they care? Is this just a chore for them, to read through people problems as terrible eventslike the Paris shootings take place.
That sums it up, what do I do?
