AIR
Member
Hi,
I'd like to share my testimony because I don't want to hide anything anymore and it's always interesting write and read testimonies. At first I apologize my english level, it's not the highest but I think you can read it well
Actually I've always believed in God because I come from a Christian household and I was taught to pray a night prayer every night and I really have prayed every night (almost) since my childhood. I've recently turned 18 and to be honest, I've become a born again Christian in 2013. I don't know why but my progress has been very slow but better go slow and clearly :shades.
My teenager years from 15 to 17 has been most anguished years for me, I really were in the bottom even I tried to crawl from the bottom to top, I failed all the time. When I was 15 years old, I started to drink alcohol along with friends. It was "cool" and I kept drinking every weekend, going to different parties just for fun. Alcohol became a big part of my life and later in my years I started to suffer from anxiety disorder and I used to "heal" it by being drunk.
Well, alcohol has been a big problem for many but for me, I really wasn't in the bottom because of alcohol. The reason why I fell in to the hole was because I started to live a Rock N' Roll life. I set up a band when I was 15, we were playing Heavy Metal, drinking alcohol and few times smoked some pot. ( I still believed in God but I really didn't care what I was doing, maybe I didn't put my trust in God )
Life were "cool" at the time and I enjoyed "sinning" all I wanted was to get laid and drunk. Everything were normal until our band status changed a lot, at that time I started to feel something like what I'm doing but I ingored this. Our band started to mock Christianity by its songs. I wasn't involved in the songs that were mocking Christianity, either I didn't like those songs but I really didn't care much. I kept playing along with friends because I liked playing in a band.
It was pretty much the same for months, drunk, parties, band, gigs, being idiot. I don't know why, but I just wanted to do that all. My band kept going on to a worse side in my situation. It started to create more songs that mocked Christianity and glorify evilness. Well, I didn't like the songs but I wanted to play along so I played along but I still felt that I shouldn't do this. I didn't have courage to quit that band because I somehow wanted to be in. Time went, same stuff until I finally faced the lowest point in that hole. I so deep that I couldn't climb up anymore without someones help.
As I was drinking every weekends and going around metal people, once I did a huge mistake but it was something like a call for me. I went to a house with a friend that you can't imagine how anxious I was at there. The owner of that house was a satanist with crosses upside down on the walls, demon pictures on the wall and the whole house smelt like a meth. Well, I didn't leave because maybe the force was dragging me to the route to hell. Well, the night was over and on the morning I went to home, I was so anxious all the time and finally when I got home I just fell asleep. Hours later my mother came to my room, shouting at me that were I smoked meth or something drug. I was like, what's happening? I didn't understand anything as I was still a bit drunk and sleepy, well my mother started cry and left my room. I started to sleep again because I didn't understand really what happened. Two hours later, my mother were crying in the living room and I asked what's wrong, she said can't you smell all the house is smelling like a meth drug. I didn't smell anything because I already got used to that smell in the house. I tried to explain my mother with lies where I was and what happened.
I didn't have any contacts with my mother anymore until I started to realise that I really need to get away from this hole. I prayed and I asked forgiveness to solve everything. Nothing really happened for a while until in few days I solved things with my mom by doing a drug test. However, my mother didn't have a trust on me anymore and I really was so depressed at that time. I can't remember did I keep drinking but I remember that in a week or two, I encouraged myself to confess everything to my mother.
It took a while to encourage myself until I one night went to my moms room and I said, let's talk. I've got something to tell you, I confessed all my drinking, lying and the satanist house. I had a long discussion with my mom and I saw that she was so happy that I confessed. I was happy as well because that bothered alot of me. Later that night (if I remember right) I felt a presence of Holy Spirit.
I felt that Holy Spirit were there but I really didn't understand a lot what was it. I felt warm and clear and I knew that I was climbed out from the hole. Well, little bit later I left my band after last gig and I promised myself to become a better person and starting to believe in God. Well, somehow I didn't know what to do and I started to fell to the bottom again because I fell in to alcohol again, it took me deep again but it didn't take me that deep it did before, now I had even a little bit control of it and I really tried to tell myself that drinking is acceptable.
well, I still kept drinking until in the beginning of this year I really realized that I'm going again to that hole where I don't want to go. I don't know what happened, I just turned to God and I stopped sinning, started to find a church and to find a balance to my life. I really become a born again in January this year, because I wanted to change myself stop all the sinning and stay away from the hole!!
My past life has been very rough and still when I think about it, I feel very bad. I don't want to think about my past, I want to get rid of that. My past life made me think that did I blashpheme the holy spirit because I had a lot of chances and I did a lot of wrong stuff.
I've realized now that all I have to do is put all my trust in Jesus Christ. I really want to know Him better and learn a lot more. Please, Jesus. Don't let me fall into that hole anymore because I feel like that I won't be taken away from the hole if I start failing now. I really believe in Jesus and I wan't to trust Him.
This was my testimony, hope you enjoyed. I really can't remember all the dates and everything 100% so, that's everything I can remember. This testimony isn't so different, but this is something.
Yours,
Air
I'd like to share my testimony because I don't want to hide anything anymore and it's always interesting write and read testimonies. At first I apologize my english level, it's not the highest but I think you can read it well
Actually I've always believed in God because I come from a Christian household and I was taught to pray a night prayer every night and I really have prayed every night (almost) since my childhood. I've recently turned 18 and to be honest, I've become a born again Christian in 2013. I don't know why but my progress has been very slow but better go slow and clearly :shades.
My teenager years from 15 to 17 has been most anguished years for me, I really were in the bottom even I tried to crawl from the bottom to top, I failed all the time. When I was 15 years old, I started to drink alcohol along with friends. It was "cool" and I kept drinking every weekend, going to different parties just for fun. Alcohol became a big part of my life and later in my years I started to suffer from anxiety disorder and I used to "heal" it by being drunk.
Well, alcohol has been a big problem for many but for me, I really wasn't in the bottom because of alcohol. The reason why I fell in to the hole was because I started to live a Rock N' Roll life. I set up a band when I was 15, we were playing Heavy Metal, drinking alcohol and few times smoked some pot. ( I still believed in God but I really didn't care what I was doing, maybe I didn't put my trust in God )
Life were "cool" at the time and I enjoyed "sinning" all I wanted was to get laid and drunk. Everything were normal until our band status changed a lot, at that time I started to feel something like what I'm doing but I ingored this. Our band started to mock Christianity by its songs. I wasn't involved in the songs that were mocking Christianity, either I didn't like those songs but I really didn't care much. I kept playing along with friends because I liked playing in a band.
It was pretty much the same for months, drunk, parties, band, gigs, being idiot. I don't know why, but I just wanted to do that all. My band kept going on to a worse side in my situation. It started to create more songs that mocked Christianity and glorify evilness. Well, I didn't like the songs but I wanted to play along so I played along but I still felt that I shouldn't do this. I didn't have courage to quit that band because I somehow wanted to be in. Time went, same stuff until I finally faced the lowest point in that hole. I so deep that I couldn't climb up anymore without someones help.
As I was drinking every weekends and going around metal people, once I did a huge mistake but it was something like a call for me. I went to a house with a friend that you can't imagine how anxious I was at there. The owner of that house was a satanist with crosses upside down on the walls, demon pictures on the wall and the whole house smelt like a meth. Well, I didn't leave because maybe the force was dragging me to the route to hell. Well, the night was over and on the morning I went to home, I was so anxious all the time and finally when I got home I just fell asleep. Hours later my mother came to my room, shouting at me that were I smoked meth or something drug. I was like, what's happening? I didn't understand anything as I was still a bit drunk and sleepy, well my mother started cry and left my room. I started to sleep again because I didn't understand really what happened. Two hours later, my mother were crying in the living room and I asked what's wrong, she said can't you smell all the house is smelling like a meth drug. I didn't smell anything because I already got used to that smell in the house. I tried to explain my mother with lies where I was and what happened.
I didn't have any contacts with my mother anymore until I started to realise that I really need to get away from this hole. I prayed and I asked forgiveness to solve everything. Nothing really happened for a while until in few days I solved things with my mom by doing a drug test. However, my mother didn't have a trust on me anymore and I really was so depressed at that time. I can't remember did I keep drinking but I remember that in a week or two, I encouraged myself to confess everything to my mother.
It took a while to encourage myself until I one night went to my moms room and I said, let's talk. I've got something to tell you, I confessed all my drinking, lying and the satanist house. I had a long discussion with my mom and I saw that she was so happy that I confessed. I was happy as well because that bothered alot of me. Later that night (if I remember right) I felt a presence of Holy Spirit.
I felt that Holy Spirit were there but I really didn't understand a lot what was it. I felt warm and clear and I knew that I was climbed out from the hole. Well, little bit later I left my band after last gig and I promised myself to become a better person and starting to believe in God. Well, somehow I didn't know what to do and I started to fell to the bottom again because I fell in to alcohol again, it took me deep again but it didn't take me that deep it did before, now I had even a little bit control of it and I really tried to tell myself that drinking is acceptable.
well, I still kept drinking until in the beginning of this year I really realized that I'm going again to that hole where I don't want to go. I don't know what happened, I just turned to God and I stopped sinning, started to find a church and to find a balance to my life. I really become a born again in January this year, because I wanted to change myself stop all the sinning and stay away from the hole!!
My past life has been very rough and still when I think about it, I feel very bad. I don't want to think about my past, I want to get rid of that. My past life made me think that did I blashpheme the holy spirit because I had a lot of chances and I did a lot of wrong stuff.
I've realized now that all I have to do is put all my trust in Jesus Christ. I really want to know Him better and learn a lot more. Please, Jesus. Don't let me fall into that hole anymore because I feel like that I won't be taken away from the hole if I start failing now. I really believe in Jesus and I wan't to trust Him.
This was my testimony, hope you enjoyed. I really can't remember all the dates and everything 100% so, that's everything I can remember. This testimony isn't so different, but this is something.
Yours,
Air