This September day

[humble soul]

5.00am in the morning and I've got the heater on. It's about 7 degrees Celsius here.
When I started my teaching career, I had a feeling reinforced of being inferior. Not just as a teacher. But I remember some "cool" colleagues mocking my social awkwardness. I made a comment slightly gossiping. One colleague came down hard on me, as he was a close friend of that person. Guess I had no idea of making appropriate conversation. Also I shared my plan once of going on a passenger liner cruise for vacation. One guy ridiculed my chances of getting some "action" with a female. A female colleague was present. Which made it worse.
I remember very embarassing scenarios. When I was humiliated. Maybe I never forgive. I certainly don't forget. I'm hyper touchy. And I hold grudges. And these days I live in the past. Always have to some extent.

 

[humble soul]

Memories. So many. This is why people write books. There is so much material. Raw material.
I could write a book about teaching English in Japan. Late eightees and early ninetees. Pre Internet. Mobiles and cell phones didn't exist. So long ago now. Pre history. Dinosaurs who needed landlines and public phones. I remember buying phone cards. One railway station had about 50 public phones near the entrance.
I was incredibly fortunate. Able to travel to a country like Japan. Australia had become a bit dull then, in recession and gloomy forecasts.

 

[humble soul]

My life phase in Japan was decidedly atheistic.
God was well and truly left on the backburner while I pursued false gods. I was "special". I was "awesome". I had become a narcissist. It was all about me. How can you make me feel even more special?
Hedonistic lifestyle. I was a chain smoker. Oh the thought . I cough just thinking of it now.
I turned my teaching career into some kind of client pleasing sales pitch. Self promotion. Popularity. I didn't care if they learnt anything. As long my worshipper list grew.

 

[Tessa]

I think you should write that book Humble.
It would make good reading.

 

[humble soul]

I think you should write that book Humble.
It would make good reading.

Why should my story be any more interesting than yours Tessa?
You tend to stay a little mysterious, possibly hoping not to burden others. I for one, would be interested.

 

[humble soul]

Last Sunday's Mass reading was:
Sirach 27;30 to 28:7.
I might get into Sirach because it is full of commonsense psychological help.

 

[Tessa]

Why should my story be any more interesting than yours Tessa?
You tend to stay a little mysterious, possibly hoping not to burden others. I for one, would be interested.

One day I majy

 

[Tessa]

Last Sunday's Mass reading was:
Sirach 27;30 to 28:7.
I might get into Sirach because it is full of commonsense psychological help.

What is Sinach?

 

[humble soul]

What is Sinach?

Ecclesiastes

 

[Tessa]

Thanks Humble. I like it too.