im 22 year old guy, everyone my whole life has said i could be a model, and im simply looking for a nice sweet girl but have been extremly unsuccessful. the girls of fmy past......i seriously wouldnt even consider them real GF's because it didnt last even a week sometimes. its not that im a bad guy or violent or mean, obviously if i was i wouldnt be on this site asking this. but i am a Christian and a strong one all my life, sure ive got my problems but seriously i dont see what is wrong with me. sometimes i may come off as a bit anti-social simply because i look like i am. some days, i probably look like i have a chip on my shoulder but thats prolly cuz i DO, lol. its like, today for instance, im drvin around and i pass through this small busy town and i see girls with guys guys with girls, there all over the place and it just makes my heart sink, like i get that hopeless feeling like it will be forever till i find the "right" girl for me, if shes even out there. i ask God to help me through this and to continue my life without being so depressed about my situation.
i also discovered something. you know, being a kid was sooo much easier, more innocent, at least it was for me. i remember haveing little crushes on girls at times, and girls were more innocent too, they didnt know those dirty things you know when you get older, and it was so much sweeter that way. and happiness for me was getting a new toy, or getting ice cream, or going to the beach and in the waves and haveing fun with friends you made at school, even if they werent great, lifelong friends you still invited them over and had fun and you didnt care as much about things cept throwin a ball till you were pooped out.
today, its completely different. many other worries, many many worries, especially now that me and my family are in the process of moving and all the hassles with that. but when you get older, your wants and desires change. that "toy" just wont do it anymore, be it a "adult" toy or the like. ice cream isnt simple cuz you got to worry about those love handles and sugar intake (if you work out and want to look good). and going anywhere different and new, you simply see the same things you always see and are still depressed. so im just wondering, what should i do and how can i go to God to help me with this?
i also discovered something. you know, being a kid was sooo much easier, more innocent, at least it was for me. i remember haveing little crushes on girls at times, and girls were more innocent too, they didnt know those dirty things you know when you get older, and it was so much sweeter that way. and happiness for me was getting a new toy, or getting ice cream, or going to the beach and in the waves and haveing fun with friends you made at school, even if they werent great, lifelong friends you still invited them over and had fun and you didnt care as much about things cept throwin a ball till you were pooped out.
today, its completely different. many other worries, many many worries, especially now that me and my family are in the process of moving and all the hassles with that. but when you get older, your wants and desires change. that "toy" just wont do it anymore, be it a "adult" toy or the like. ice cream isnt simple cuz you got to worry about those love handles and sugar intake (if you work out and want to look good). and going anywhere different and new, you simply see the same things you always see and are still depressed. so im just wondering, what should i do and how can i go to God to help me with this?