I have no other alternative. I am lonely. I am angry. I want to stop this way of life. I am a coward. Can God help me get through the day? If I stop doing bad things, will this anger leave me? I'm lashing out at everyone for the smallest things. It's destroying me. What do I do? Do I need to stop listening to negative music, negative media? Not that movies and music are a big part of my life but I think these negative influences are bad for me. I've recently lost a lot of weight through discipline and healthy eating but even that is being threatened to be lost to undisciplined behavior. So if I stop doing bad things and start living positively, will the loneliness stop? Also, I'm sometimes in a lot of pain because of an incurable illness. I recently this last week, had a lot of pain everyday, 24 hours a day and I only get to sleep by falling asleep in a chair. I can't even sleep in a bed anymore because of panic attacks. I never liked reading the Bible and I'm not sure I can do that but maybe I need some kind of guidance.
Also, I'm not a real man. I'm a child in a man's body. I'm unable to grow up and be a fully functioning man. So people tend to bully me wherever I go. If I do these things, will I mature ? Because I feel like it's all related. My fear of death, my lack of confidence, my lack of self-esteem, and my immaturity.
Also, I'm not a real man. I'm a child in a man's body. I'm unable to grow up and be a fully functioning man. So people tend to bully me wherever I go. If I do these things, will I mature ? Because I feel like it's all related. My fear of death, my lack of confidence, my lack of self-esteem, and my immaturity.