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3 CRUCIAL EARLY CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES:

(1) I was born and raised in the first Pentecostal church in Canada. I was born with congenital glaucoma in my right eye. My distraught parents were impressed by a famous faith healer named William Branham, who held healing crusades around North America. What set him apart was his clairvoyance. Before he laid hands on people, he accurately described one of their recent past experiences in awesome detail and he did the same for my parents. Mom and Dad were poor, but they spent their savings on a trip to Elgin, Illinois to bring me to a Branham crusade there. When I (age 3) finally made it onto the stage, Branham looked at my introductory note that said, "blind in the right eye," and shouted, "This boy is blind!" He then laid hands on my eyes and waved them in front of me. When I blinked, he yelled, "This little boy has been cured of blindness!" The huge crowd went wild but my parents were sick. Of course I blinked because I could see out of my good eye. This fraud devastated and disillusioned my parents. All this attention to getting me healed made me feel like they regretted my birth and ultimately created a deep desire in me to justify being born! It also sowed the seeds of a lifelong determination to discover whether miracles and divine healing were ever real and whether the Bible was trustworthy. God used those events to shape my calling in life.

(2) By the time I was 6 I had learned to hate church. There was no children's church or Sunday school for my age and Church bored me because I couldn't relate to much of the 1 1/2 hour services, especially the sermons. So I squirmed and protested in our pew and made myself a nuisance to my parents. My parents were weekly attenders, but one Sunday they stayed home for reasons I never understood. I suspect the nightmare of dealing with my hissyfits was part of the reason! I was so glad to escape church that sunny and clear July morning! God was the furthest thing from my mind. To celebrate I zoomed up and own the sidewalk to the ends of our block on my little tricycle.

Then I noticed the big new blue Chevy with huge tailfins parked behind the Jewish shoe store salesman's building. Evidently he had just waxed and polished it and it just glistened as it reflected the brilliant sunlight. To me it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen; so I constantly road back to it to stare in wonder. Once, when I returned, I had my first life-changing God moment. For some strange reason, my attention was directed to a patch of blue near the sun. As I gazed at it, wave after wave of liquid love surged through my being. Suddenly I became acutely aware of the presence of a God who loved me and I just basked in that love!

I told my parents about my experience, but they didn't seem very interested. That all changed a few days later when neighbors came over to tell my parents how impressed they were that I was excitedly sharing my embryonic new faith with my playmates. I knew little about God and the Bible and I have always wondered what I was saying about God and my experience to my little playmates.

This experience didn't make me want to sit through church, though. Now Dad sang in the choir and my parents now let me sit by myself. This was fortunate because it allowed me to I sneak out of church to buy lifesavers at the little grocery store across the streets from the church. As I ate them, I browsed the comic books on the store shelves. The owner eventually got annoyed by my regular presence and shooed me out his store. So I ate my lifesavers outside and began to meditate on the meaning of my life.

(3) At age 11, I realized that I should be baptized to please my parents and obey the Gospel. I had to attend a few preparatory catechetical classes and I was the only child among about 11 adult male candidates. The classes appalled me because the lecturer used poorly explained jargon like justification, propitiation, and sanctification which produceded excruciation in the mind of this young boy who couldn't grasp the meaning of these big words. Quoting Colossians 2:11 , the lecturer informed us that we needed to be "circumcised in spirit." That might have been helpful if I knew what physical circumcision was and if he explained this jargon.

I would be the last of the 12 to be baptized by immersion in a large tank behind the platform before a crowd of about 1,400 people. I was petrified because I learned I was expected to share a personal testimony in front of that huge crowd and because, blush, the bottom of my baptismal robe seemed to float up, exposing my nakedness! All the men gave a formulaic personal testimony that I can recite even today. Then I nervously waded out to the pastor and he asked me, "Donny, would you like to share a word for the Lord Jesus?" I shook my head in the negative. So the pastor continued, "OK, let me ask you some faith questions." I felt publicly humiliated as the only one not to share a testimony and at that point I just wanted to get this ordeal over with to please my parents.

But after the pastor dunked me, something amazing happened as I emerged from the water. I suddenly had a vision of Jesus, smiling at me, radiating love and conveying the feeling that He found my predicament rather amusing. I sensed His empathy for my confusion over all the poorly explained catechetical jargon and my groundless fear about my nakedness being exposed by the floating bottom of my robe. And years later when I became a theology professor, I reflected that Jesus must have found it amusing that a motormouth like me would be utterly tongue-tied at my youthful baptism. My first and only vision in my life transformed an unpleasant baptismal ordeal into one of the most sacred and treasured memories of my life.[/QUOTE]
 
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(4) My Pentecostal pastor was well respected, but was criticized for never preaching sermons on the gifts of the Spirit, including speaking in tongues, during my 21 years of attending that church. Words of prophecy, messages in tongues, and interpretation of tongues generally occurred once a month during our Communion service after the sermon. Some of these interpretations from the Risen Lord were powerful general critiques of the spiritual condition of many congregants in a manner reminiscent of the prophetic letters to the 7 churches in Revelation 2-3. From the moment they began, these messages typically moved me to tears because of the glorious sense of Christ's presence in the sanctuary. But in most of the messages, the Risen Lord delivered general exhortations that often seemed like a pastiche of various Gospel phrases and texts. From the moment these messages began, I would typically freeze as if confronted by a cobra! My dramatically opposite reactions to these messages began when I was about 13 and continued throughout my teen years. In retrospect, I now recognize my opposite reactions as the gift of spiritual discernment in action. From the time of my baptismal vision, I was so very hungry for a fresh word from the Lord to guide my spiritual journey. So the fact that most of my instantaneous reactions were negative greatly disturbed me and after one of the infrequent interpretation of tongues that thrilled me to the core and spoke powerfully to me, I asked an elder why these messages were not recorded for later reflection on how to apply them to our lives. His response affected my attitude to garden variety Pentecostalism with devastating clarity: he replied: "Look, these messages aren't Holy Scripture. So don't take them so seriously! The messages just add a sacred tone and some inspiration to our Communion service." My reaction to his comments? "Either the source of these messages is the Risen Lord as they allege or they are of the flesh. If they are of the flesh, these messages should be banned. But if they come from the Risen Lord, they deserve to be recorded for later reflection, so that they can be obeyed."

The general refusal of Pentecostals to subject their charismatic messages from Christ to spiritual discernment is precisely the reason why most of these messages are of the flesh. To accept negative discernment would be a most humbling experience, a real disincentive to risk unwanted censure, especially for pastors. In the Azusa Street Revival that sparked global Pentecostalism, William Seymour routinely exercised such discernment. So did Oral Roberts during his meetings. In the early 200s AD, Tertullian reports that elders would meet after the services to discern the legitimacy and practical application of their services' charismatic manifestations in compliance with 1 Corinthians 12:10 and 14:29. To refuse to permit such discernment is to value leadership authority more highly than modern guidance of the Holy Spirit apart from Scripture. As a boy, my doubts about these manifestations slowly morphed into doubts about biblical authority in general, especially when I was exposed to evolutionary theory and claims that the Bible was an error-filled book. Despite my earlier mystical experiences, I might have lost my faith, were it not for the experience I will recount in my next planned post, the most important and influential experience of my life.
 
As a boy, my doubts about these manifestations slowly morphed into doubts about biblical authority in general, especially when I was exposed to evolutionary theory and claims that the Bible was an error-filled book. Despite my earlier mystical experiences, I might have lost my faith, were it not for the experience I will recount in my next planned post, the most important and influential experience of my life.


Awesome.


Can’t wait to hear about this experience.





JLB
 
Great testimony. You have lived the very experiencesnthat brings us closer to Christ when we sort out that which is from Him or from man. It's when we receive knowledge of trut through the Holy Spirit is when we can start to Spiritually discern that of what we hear being taught by others, 1 John 4:1-6.
 
(5) The major turning point in my life that I'm about to share is also by far the spiritual and emotional high point in my life. Such was my growing skepticism that I doubt that I'd even be a Christian today, despite my prior spiritual experiences. Even now, decades later, I constantly draw spiritual nourishment from the very memory of that fateful day I was "ambushed" by an experience of glossolalia at Manhattan Beach Camp in Manitoba. I was 16 at the time and felt I had lost my faith. I was determined to give it my best shot to find God real, but not to succumb to wishful thinking and emotionalism. That fateful, Tuesday, I went on a 7 mile walk towards Ninette, Manitoba, pleading with God to make Himself real to me and promising to dedicate my life to His service if He would grant my request. That evening, I did something I'd never done before. I fasted for dinner and put my dinner money in the offering plate. After the service, I stayed at the altar and prayed to be filled with the Spirit as I had previously done in vain. After almost everyone (about 1,000) left the amphitheater, my heart still felt like stone as I tarried in prayer. Then suddenly I felt a warm breeze, but it wasn't the wind from nearby Pelican Lake; it was the Holy Spirit first warming me and then morphing into an indescribably awesome blissful sweetness as the Spirit gently took possession of me. Despite my shyness, I felt compelled to speak in tongues at the top of my voice. More importantly, wave after wave of liquid love surged through my being with ever increasing intensity until I feared it might kill me! My ego seemed on the verge of collapse into God's mind. Oh, the indescribable sweetness of those moments, more sacred than the birth of your first child! I can only metaphorically testify that that experience was a hundred times sweeter, more powerful, and more intimate than any of my experiences of love before or since!

When it was over, a Lutheran pastor who had observed me, unseen, quietly came and knelt beside me. He told me he didn't believe in speaking in tongues and had only come to the camp meeting as an interested observer. But he added he could tell God was doing a special work in me and he asked me to pray for him. I didn't pray for him; I just touched him gently on the foreheand, and the moment I did so, it was as if I had electrocuted him! Overcome by the Spirit, he exploded into tongues! Another lady was sitting in the now darkened amphitheater and just staring at me. Self-conscious, I asked her why. She replied, "Don't you know? Your face is glowing in the dark!"

When it was all over, I realized that God had said to me clearly: "Son, you long for answers to burning questions. But answers aren't good for you right now. They will make you live in your head, and I want to live in your heart. I want you to live your questions until they lead you to the center of my heart." That is the reason for my long educational pilgrimage from BA (U. of Winnipeg) to MDiv (Princeton) to doctorate in New Testament, Judaism, and Greco-Roman Backgrounds (Harvard). Interestingly, the experience made me a much better student than I had been. And like marijuana, that experience of glossolalia seems to have functioned like a gateway spiritual drug that soon led to other gripping experiences of other spiritual gifts, especially "the word of knowledge" (1 Corinthians 12:8-10).

(6) Previously, I had not been a stellar student in school and was insecure about God's plans for my future. But shortly after the experience, I suddenly knew that I'd receive the highest GPA in Manitoba in my senior year. Decades later, my cousin, a psychiatrist, reminded me that I had shared "this word of knowledge" with him when I recounted my tongues experience. That experience evidently dramatically improved my mental capacity. When Premier Duff Roblyn publicly acknowledged that achievement at my graduation and scholarships were awarded as a result, I felt that my somewhat awkward attempts at Christian witnessing were rendered more effective and I became more confident in a calling to an academic life.

Paul instructs us to "strive for spiritual gifts" (1 Corinthians 14:1), but does not tell us how. I have concluded from my next 2 experiences of "the word of knowledge" that part of this striving requires a willingness to make mistakes and learn by trial and error. My next 2 premonitions were as puzzling and disturbing as they were riveting and I now second guess my responses to both. More on that in my next 2 planned posts.









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Berserk we would rather have you reply here in this forum and not direct us to another forum we have to sign up for in order to read your reply. We have no idea what forum that is without taking the time to go investigate it and then find your replies.

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Berserk we would rather have you reply here in this forum and not direct us to another forum we have to sign up for in order to read your reply. We have no idea what forum that is without taking the time to go investigate it and then find your replies.

My bad! Here's what happened. I gave parts of this testimony on another site, where I received hostile reactions. So I reposted it here and want to continue to develop it because my experiences are the key to understand my spiritual orientation. I thought I had edited out the reactions from posters on that other thread, but I now see that I carelessly failed to do so. I will correct that mistake and pick up where I left off on that other site. Sorry for this oversight!
 
My bad! Here's what happened. I gave parts of this testimony on another site, where I received hostile reactions. So I reposted it here and want to continue to develop it because my experiences are the key to understand my spiritual orientation. I thought I had edited out the reactions from posters on that other thread, but I now see that I carelessly failed to do so. I will correct that mistake and pick up where I left off on that other site. Sorry for this oversight!

Please do continue writing your testimony here. We would only see the reactions of others only if we became members of that site.
 
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