Christ_empowered
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it was so weird. im living a new (to me) place. not lavish, but...quite nice, safe, comfortable. so...
6.30, 6.45, i hear a female yelling towards my apt./condo, stuff about me. i actually dealt with it OK...I mean, I was safe in the condo, doors locked, about to cook up a meal...so I did OK with it. it went on for a little while, and...
-ugh- its what happens, I think, when stigmatized people 'don't know their place.' in the 60s and 70s, as more states moved people out of the state hospitals and into (hostile) communities, stuff like this happened, only a lot more intense. that's just the social aspect.
the spiritual aspect...im starting to grasp. God's work in this world is always met with opposition. I was an outcast when I came to believe upon Him, 6 years ago, and now...
? I'm not the same person, Praise God (!!!). New way of being/personality, healthy, i don't have the weight of my own sins and things done to me written all over me....my parents are kind and supportive, but they also expect more from me (because I think they see more capability), and...
"...in the world, but not of it." stuff like this...I guess now that The Lord has moved in my life and my parents' lives so that my tormentors have no -real power- over me (long, long story...)...
what they have is petty cruelty and yelling and...blah blah blah. ugh.
anyway...in a somewhat unusual change from my (many, many) other posts, I ask that pray for whoever it is that was taunting me, and the people who live around me. funny thing...im beginning to suspect that im better off as a "Schizophrenic, from a good family" than I ever was as a "loser, from a rinky dink middle class family." weird, huh? or maybe...not so weird...I dunno...
anyway, i also ask that if you feel like it, you pray to rebuke satan, on my behalf. i do it myself, during prayer, but...the more the merrier, am I right? right.
6.30, 6.45, i hear a female yelling towards my apt./condo, stuff about me. i actually dealt with it OK...I mean, I was safe in the condo, doors locked, about to cook up a meal...so I did OK with it. it went on for a little while, and...
-ugh- its what happens, I think, when stigmatized people 'don't know their place.' in the 60s and 70s, as more states moved people out of the state hospitals and into (hostile) communities, stuff like this happened, only a lot more intense. that's just the social aspect.
the spiritual aspect...im starting to grasp. God's work in this world is always met with opposition. I was an outcast when I came to believe upon Him, 6 years ago, and now...
? I'm not the same person, Praise God (!!!). New way of being/personality, healthy, i don't have the weight of my own sins and things done to me written all over me....my parents are kind and supportive, but they also expect more from me (because I think they see more capability), and...
"...in the world, but not of it." stuff like this...I guess now that The Lord has moved in my life and my parents' lives so that my tormentors have no -real power- over me (long, long story...)...
what they have is petty cruelty and yelling and...blah blah blah. ugh.
anyway...in a somewhat unusual change from my (many, many) other posts, I ask that pray for whoever it is that was taunting me, and the people who live around me. funny thing...im beginning to suspect that im better off as a "Schizophrenic, from a good family" than I ever was as a "loser, from a rinky dink middle class family." weird, huh? or maybe...not so weird...I dunno...
anyway, i also ask that if you feel like it, you pray to rebuke satan, on my behalf. i do it myself, during prayer, but...the more the merrier, am I right? right.