A Believer's Transgression

[manichunter]

What is the transgression that so easy gets your goat, ensnares and causes you to fall into iniquity?

Heb 12:1 - Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,
A great many of people who did good service towards God have had to deal with and overcome so hugh addictions to please God. Like David, who had the same problem I had.

Sexual lust was mine transgression that plagued me. I have to watch what I entertainment myself with on television. If I put it before my eyes on a movie, it gets into my mind, and then the thoughts start. I have to stop watching the movie. I was addicted to pornography since my childhood. My father use to collect VCR movies and magazines of pornagraphy. I would often look at these things and get caught by my father who would not punish me in return.

I had to go years in the faith fighting and seeking deliverance from this vice. I would go months doing good, then without conscious that pornography would come accross my path from an outside source like my college roommate, army barracks roommate, living with my parents again (after I turned 18, my father stopped hiding them and place them in plain view), and ex wife (she later tried to turn me into a swinger, and yes this marriage ended in divorce after she committed adultery), and others to include saints.

The same thing would happen every time. I would get reintroduce to pornography and then have to fight it off. It would cloud my thoughts and emotions. I would find myself drawn to it. Eventually the Holy Spirit would rescue me from this vice again and again. Now deliverance is a real thing.

Now I go on to next vice that I am addicted to, pride. It must fall as well if I am to be the man God called me to be.


What vice and addictive transgression causes you to stumble?

 

[lovely]

For a long time I struggled with my thoughts...

Negativity, depression, fear, and the like. The Lord helped me take every thought captive, and healed me of this self-centered, and self-righteous, sin. I couldn't have overcome it on my own, but the Word helped me. The past few years, with grief for my late husband, and sadness over disease in my own life, I have had to be more vigilant, because the self-pity and despair have tried to creep back in to my life. They haven't, though some days I have been tempted, and in need of encouragement...the Lord always provides it just when I think I can be stretched any more. While God has chosen to teach me with Sorrow, and with trial, I have been able to lay my thoughts before Him, with His grace, and to take joy in all that I am learning about Him through it. My praise is that my health is on the upswing now, and the climb is tougher than I ever thougt it would be, but I am so thankful to finally be climbing! Thank you Lord!

The one I struggle with currently is holy fear before God. Knowing that the Lord is prompting me to not do, or say, something, and then doing it anyway because I want to give in to my flesh above serving Him in that moment. This applies to so many things I do, and think, that to boil it down would be impossible. Some things would be, modesty issues, submitting to my husband with the right spirit, being consistent with teaching and training my children, doing my work joyfully and not feeling lazy, taking medicine without despising it, being in responsible in what, and how, I eat, forgiving right away, and sincerely, when others offend, etc. I hate this sin, and I desire that God would just create in me a clean heart, and that I would never feed the flesh, ever.


The Lord bless you.