I was horribly and hopelessly addicted to pornography for 7 years of my life. I tried many, many times to stop, because it was destroying me. I had no idea what integrity was, or strength. Every single woman I saw I thought horrible dirty thoughts about, and undressed with my eyes. I thought I had a depression issue, and thought that it was some kind of mental disorder, when in reality I was just a disgusting pervert suffering the natural consequence of my perversion. So they put me on drugs that destroyed me further. I abused them of course, and mixed them with other prescription and recreational drugs to see how high I could get. I tried to make drugs and mix and match them so I could formulate the perfect high. I was a disgusting pathetic worm not worthy of stepping on. I was hopelessly enslaved to my sin, and no matter how hard I tried or what I did I couldn't free myself. I ended up getting arrested after I assaulted a female security guard at a high school football game when I was plastered on vodka and various pills. I ended up dropping out of school because my grades were dropping so bad, and for a period of about two months I sat at my house doing literally absolutely nothing. My dad knew I was just sitting around doing nothing, so he took away all of the electrical enterainment and I literally sat there like a worthless piece of trash. I eventually got a job at a restaraunt.
One day I saw a book called "Jesus Among Other Gods". I picked it up and started reading it. After that I started reading the Bible a little bit. One day when my dad who is a Christian noticed that I was reading my Bible, he introduced me to a ministry called The Way of the Master. They witness the Gospel on the streets to strangers. They talk a lot about the Ten Commandments and use them to bring the knowledge of sin. When I heard the Ten Commandments, I realized by the grace of God that I had broken every single one of them. I had dishonored God, created a false god in my mind who I thought I belonged to because three times I asked him into my heart, and he never changed me. I used God's name in worse ways than I used curse words. I horribly dishonored my parents to the point of getting extremely violent with them and even ramming my dad's head into the wall. I didn't kill anyone, but I had desired to. I was filled with hatred, which is murder in God's eyes. I was horribly and disgustingly sexually immoral, I was a perverted little sewer rat. I lied regularly, sometimes just for the fun of it. I desired other people's things all the time as well. Then by the grace of the One true omnipotent God, I began to believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, repent, and follow Him. I began to hate the evil I once indulged in, and began to love the righteousness I once hated. He put His Spirit within me and caused me to walk in His statutes and be careful to observe His ordinances. He put His fear within me for my own good so that I wouldn't turn away from Him. He has been conforming me to the image of Christ. He has been causing me to keep His commandments. He has cleansed me of all my filthiness and all my idols, and He continues to do so to this day. He has regenerated a filthy sewer rat into a follower of Christ and son of Almighty God, and nothing anybody could possibly think, say, or do, could ever possibly change that, because He keeps me, and the Father has commanded the Son not to lose any whom He has given to Him, and the omnipotent Lord Jesus is more than capable of accomplishing His Father's will. Glory to my Lord Jesus Christ, who makes filthy sewer rat's into His little brothers. Glory to Jesus, my God and Savior, who is the King of kings and Lord of lords. Glory to the Lord of all, my God Jesus Christ. Praise His awesome name forever. Honor and glory to His name forever and ever. His blood has cleansed me, and He has drank the wrath of God that I deserved. There is none left. He drank it all on the cross. Glory to Christ, who drank the wrath of God for every man and rose again. He lives in me, and I in Him, forevermore. He keeps me in the shadow of His glorious wings. Praise Him. Oh praise Him forever and ever. Glory to the Lord God Almighty, Jesus Christ. Wisdom, and honor, and blessing, and power, and all that is good, to God forever and ever. So be it.