My wife wants me to be more of a spiritual leader in our home, but considering I didn't have one growing up I have no clue what a spiritual leader even looks like let alone what one does.
I have asked our pastor what it is to be a spiritual leader, but he really couldn't answer beyond saying read what Jesus did. I have read what Jesus did, many times, but it's not giving me a step-by-step explanation which is what I'm looking for.
I also find it hard to find time to read the Bible with my wife. My job (Americorps) keeps me out of the home 13 hours a day, 4 days a week. I work 10 hour shifts and my drive is 1 1/2 hours each way. When I get home I have about 4 hours before I head to bed, many times it's earlier than that because I am just so exhausted from working outside in the Florida heat all day. Many times when I get home I am also having to cook dinner for the both of us. My wife has MS, so it's hard for her to do many household things. So I do them for the both of us. This includes cleaning, washing dishes, doing the laundry and so forth.
Saturdays she works all day, but while she's at work I am generally doing the housework. When she comes home she's generally tired and heads to bed. Sundays are church in the morning and more housework for me.
The hours I work are because we can not afford for me to drive to work 5 days a week. My drive is over 80 miles round trip and my car is old and guzzles gas. With her working maybe 10 hours a week total (She can only work a maximum of 15 hours a week because of getting SSDI, plus her illness keeps her from working more than about 10-12) we don't have much in the way of income.
We don't have kids, so it's just my wife and I. I know that I do the best that I can, but to me it seems she's just not happy with what I'm doing.
I have asked our pastor what it is to be a spiritual leader, but he really couldn't answer beyond saying read what Jesus did. I have read what Jesus did, many times, but it's not giving me a step-by-step explanation which is what I'm looking for.
I also find it hard to find time to read the Bible with my wife. My job (Americorps) keeps me out of the home 13 hours a day, 4 days a week. I work 10 hour shifts and my drive is 1 1/2 hours each way. When I get home I have about 4 hours before I head to bed, many times it's earlier than that because I am just so exhausted from working outside in the Florida heat all day. Many times when I get home I am also having to cook dinner for the both of us. My wife has MS, so it's hard for her to do many household things. So I do them for the both of us. This includes cleaning, washing dishes, doing the laundry and so forth.
Saturdays she works all day, but while she's at work I am generally doing the housework. When she comes home she's generally tired and heads to bed. Sundays are church in the morning and more housework for me.
The hours I work are because we can not afford for me to drive to work 5 days a week. My drive is over 80 miles round trip and my car is old and guzzles gas. With her working maybe 10 hours a week total (She can only work a maximum of 15 hours a week because of getting SSDI, plus her illness keeps her from working more than about 10-12) we don't have much in the way of income.
We don't have kids, so it's just my wife and I. I know that I do the best that I can, but to me it seems she's just not happy with what I'm doing.
