Hi Jeff,
I read this yesterday, and did not have time to respond. So yesterday afternoon, I went looking for my copy to be able to articulate my thoughts to you, and when I did there in the book was my favorite picture of Shaun that I thought was lost for good! I was using it as a book mark, because this was one of the books I decided to read right after his death. I am so happy to have it again, and so are the children...we have a picture frame with a verse that has been waiting for us to find it!
Anyway, the part that impacted me the most was the chapter called, "Divine Goodness", though I admit I was fascinated by all of it. Mr. Lewis' intelligence coupled with Godly Wisdom is impressive to me anyway, but especially about pain because I was dealing with it so much during that time. Perhaps the book was just a word aptly spoken in a season that I needed it, but while looking it over again last night I was once again caught up...so maybe not.
Think about this for a second...
I have just lost my husband, and the pain is overwhelming...I don't even know how to deal with it, you know? People are giving me 'permission' to question God, to even be angry with God, but I am clinging to the hope of not falling into these thoughts...not heading down these roads of doubt, where I had been before due to other pain. Anyway, imagine reading this...
"...But creatures are not thus separate from their Creator, nor can He misunderstand them. The place for which He designs them in His scheme of things is the place they are made for. When they reach it their nature is fulfilled and their happiness attained: a broken bone in the universe has been set, the anguish is over. When we want to be something other than the thing God wants us to be, we must be wanting what, in fact, will not make us happy. Those Divine demands which sound to our natural ears most like those of a despot and least like those of a lover, in fact, marshal us where we should want to go if we knew what we wanted. He demands our worship, our obedience, our prostration. Do we suppose that they can do Him any good, or fear, like the chorus in Milton, that the human irreverence can bring about 'His glory's diminution'? A man can no more diminsh God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word 'darkness' on the walls of his cell. But God wills our good, and our good is to love Him (with that responsive love proper to creatures) and to love Him we must know Him: and if we know Him, we shall in fact fall on our faces. If we do not , that only shows what we are trying to love is not yet God-though it may be the nearest approximation to God which our thought and fantasy can attain. Yet the call is not only to prostration and awe; is is to a reflection of the Divine life, a creaturely participation in the Divine attributes which is far beyond our present desires. We are bidden to 'put on Christ', to become like God. That is, whether we like it or not, God intends to give us what we need, not what we now think we want. Once more, we are embarrassed by the intolerable compliment, but too much love, not too little." Clive Staples Lewis, "The Problem of Pain"
The Lord bless you.