AIR
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I used to date this one girl about 4-5 years ago, when I was only 14. I was still a child and the relationship didn't last long, maybe 2 months but it was one of the most valuable time in my life. I did enjoy to take care of someone, I did have feelings to her and actually I ... loved her? I do not know can you say that it was love because we were young and we knew it wouldn't last. :chokedup
After her parents did not accept me as his date, we broke up and I took it very seriously. I tried to convince her that we could be together forever, only if we wanted that. It didn't take long until she started to avoid me and somehow hate me, maybe because she just couldn't let me be in her life as her parents were controlling her space.
To be honest, my life started rolling down the hill after this relationship. I cared so much about her that I couldn't be normal anymore. I started to drink, dedicating to heavy metal life and I started to do all the stuff that led me into the deep hole. I still would be in there if Jesus didn't pick me up. Wow, I never thought of this until now and I realize now where I have been in my life and why. :o
No, I am not blaming her, this was just my one second thoughts, when my life flashed before my eyes. Weird, I'm going
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Okay back to the topic. I did love this girl and in these 4-5 years I haven't had any relationship even I always wanted to. I am feeling "lonely" and I wish I met my wife now and I could start taking care of someone. I really miss to take care of someone, I wouldn't mind if next girl I met wasn't my wife, I just want to take care of someone because it strengths human.
blessings,
ben
After her parents did not accept me as his date, we broke up and I took it very seriously. I tried to convince her that we could be together forever, only if we wanted that. It didn't take long until she started to avoid me and somehow hate me, maybe because she just couldn't let me be in her life as her parents were controlling her space.
To be honest, my life started rolling down the hill after this relationship. I cared so much about her that I couldn't be normal anymore. I started to drink, dedicating to heavy metal life and I started to do all the stuff that led me into the deep hole. I still would be in there if Jesus didn't pick me up. Wow, I never thought of this until now and I realize now where I have been in my life and why. :o
No, I am not blaming her, this was just my one second thoughts, when my life flashed before my eyes. Weird, I'm going
.Okay back to the topic. I did love this girl and in these 4-5 years I haven't had any relationship even I always wanted to. I am feeling "lonely" and I wish I met my wife now and I could start taking care of someone. I really miss to take care of someone, I wouldn't mind if next girl I met wasn't my wife, I just want to take care of someone because it strengths human.
blessings,
ben