Brother Ben, to me it is not stupid to wish for something; God has a way of taking what we want and turning it to His glory. We read in Heb 11:1 that faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. That is believing you have what you asked for having not seen it yet, but allow it to be for the right purposes.
James 4:3. Ye ask, and receive not, because ye ask amiss, that ye may consume it upon your lusts.
1 John 5:14. And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask anything ACCORDING TO HIS WILL, he heareth us.
1 John 5:15. And if we know that he hear us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.
Blessings in Jesus.