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A father dressed one morning. Ate breakfast, and went to work.
The mother did her usual household chores, the children were all out of the house gone to school.
As evening came, the children came home. Dad did not always eat with the family since his work kept him late sometimes. That evening noone ever suspected that the man of the house would never return.
Night came, the children asked where is daddy, the mother said. He has not come home yet. The night wore on and it became rather late. No sign of the father. The children went to bed.
Deep in her heart the mother knew something was wrong. Midnight came, then the early hours of the morning came and he did not come. Tears begin to fill her eyes and deep in her heart she knew that that was the end.
THAT MOTHER WAS ME.
As I recount this incident, I realise that each of us here on this site has a story to tell. We all have our own wilderness experience.
I remember that day as if it were yesterday. That morning when I realise that my husband was gone for good....I cried as though my heart would break. The other time I cried like that was when my mother died. I cried because I had lost the love of my life, I cried because my three sons had no father in the home. My whole body felt sick. I ended up with pains in my chest and legs.
I felt rejected and abandoned like a child with no parent.
I knew there were problems in my marriage as a result of my husband's adultery, but I hoped beyond hope that he would one day see the error of his way. I could have left years before when the second boy was two years old..BUT I opted tor remain.
As I talked to my three sons that morning, I could see the pain in their eyes. Then the tears started again. I explained to them that despite the fact that their father had left, he was still their father. My neighbours missed my husband's car and they realised he was not living at home anymore. I felt embarrassed, I wasa married woman but not any longer.
I am not sure what people were saying. After being a stay at home mom, I had gone back to work...so at least there was my job to keep me occupied during the day. The pain became unbearable as he passed me in the car like a total stranger. None of us can ever say for sure what our wilderness experience will be like. My ex was gone for ten years and then he filed for divorced. When I realise what was happening this brought added grief and pain. When two people are separated, there is the possibility that they may get back together again...I knew at this time that this was the final thing.
My sons were so distraught. The last son was still in high school and his grades dropped. He was a bright boy, but the emotional turmoil had affected his school work. Thankfully he was able to regain his composure and resume his studies.
During this time I prayed as never before, I told God I needed help with the three boys. I never thought that I would have been a single parent. I never thought that I would be divorced. Each day as I prayed the tears came. I knew I was a Christian, but nothing prepared me for this.
I am not perfect but deep in my heart I knew I was a good wife and mother. This whole experience caused me to have a deeper relationship with God. I began to study and read my bible more. My favourite scriptures during this difficult time were;
Isaiah 54.5 For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.
Jeremiah 29.11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
The years have past, and time has gone on, but one thing I know that no matter what comes our way..our God is a loving and caring God, he is able and has promised never to leave or forsake us.
I had plans of writing this, when I came here on this site, but hesitated. The internet is a public forum and I felt it was too personal. But as I read the things that some have written here I said, the people here have opened up their lives, and I have seen how they have have allowed other to see their hurts and their pain. I decided that I would open up too.
As a Christian community we all need the prayers of each other. When difficulties come we should know that we can rely on the prayers and encouragement of our Christian brethren.
The mother did her usual household chores, the children were all out of the house gone to school.
As evening came, the children came home. Dad did not always eat with the family since his work kept him late sometimes. That evening noone ever suspected that the man of the house would never return.
Night came, the children asked where is daddy, the mother said. He has not come home yet. The night wore on and it became rather late. No sign of the father. The children went to bed.
Deep in her heart the mother knew something was wrong. Midnight came, then the early hours of the morning came and he did not come. Tears begin to fill her eyes and deep in her heart she knew that that was the end.
THAT MOTHER WAS ME.
As I recount this incident, I realise that each of us here on this site has a story to tell. We all have our own wilderness experience.
I remember that day as if it were yesterday. That morning when I realise that my husband was gone for good....I cried as though my heart would break. The other time I cried like that was when my mother died. I cried because I had lost the love of my life, I cried because my three sons had no father in the home. My whole body felt sick. I ended up with pains in my chest and legs.
I felt rejected and abandoned like a child with no parent.
I knew there were problems in my marriage as a result of my husband's adultery, but I hoped beyond hope that he would one day see the error of his way. I could have left years before when the second boy was two years old..BUT I opted tor remain.
As I talked to my three sons that morning, I could see the pain in their eyes. Then the tears started again. I explained to them that despite the fact that their father had left, he was still their father. My neighbours missed my husband's car and they realised he was not living at home anymore. I felt embarrassed, I wasa married woman but not any longer.
I am not sure what people were saying. After being a stay at home mom, I had gone back to work...so at least there was my job to keep me occupied during the day. The pain became unbearable as he passed me in the car like a total stranger. None of us can ever say for sure what our wilderness experience will be like. My ex was gone for ten years and then he filed for divorced. When I realise what was happening this brought added grief and pain. When two people are separated, there is the possibility that they may get back together again...I knew at this time that this was the final thing.
My sons were so distraught. The last son was still in high school and his grades dropped. He was a bright boy, but the emotional turmoil had affected his school work. Thankfully he was able to regain his composure and resume his studies.
During this time I prayed as never before, I told God I needed help with the three boys. I never thought that I would have been a single parent. I never thought that I would be divorced. Each day as I prayed the tears came. I knew I was a Christian, but nothing prepared me for this.
I am not perfect but deep in my heart I knew I was a good wife and mother. This whole experience caused me to have a deeper relationship with God. I began to study and read my bible more. My favourite scriptures during this difficult time were;
Isaiah 54.5 For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.
Jeremiah 29.11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
The years have past, and time has gone on, but one thing I know that no matter what comes our way..our God is a loving and caring God, he is able and has promised never to leave or forsake us.
I had plans of writing this, when I came here on this site, but hesitated. The internet is a public forum and I felt it was too personal. But as I read the things that some have written here I said, the people here have opened up their lives, and I have seen how they have have allowed other to see their hurts and their pain. I decided that I would open up too.
As a Christian community we all need the prayers of each other. When difficulties come we should know that we can rely on the prayers and encouragement of our Christian brethren.
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