Failing as a mom

[LaMexicana]

Mike, I think you're right. I'm really hoping that kindergarten is different. Honestly, I would have transferred her out of her pre-k class if I had the option but she is the only teacher. But I will update once we start regular school! I'm glad your son went back to normal. I think good teachers work with all types of children. I think my daughter's teacher wants her to be "normal" and fit in with the rest and I think my daughter requires something different and the teacher doesn't want to take the time to do that. It's really sad because I think it makes my daughter feel bad inside. I think that's why she bites her fingernails and her bottomlip until it's raw because she feels so anxious about being different. Sigh. It breaks my heart.

I'Chante, I try not to think about my situation. Trust me, I have my crazy moments but I think in general I'm very aware that I need to remain stable and deal with it. I guess I feel like I have to prove myself because I was such a screw up when I was younger and that's why I don't really ask for help. I want my parents to be proud of me and stop thinking I'm still that idiot child from 6+ years ago. Speaking of monster children...I was one of them. And to me this is normal. I've been alone from the moment I found out I was pregnant, I don't know what it's like to have someone around so I can't miss something I never had. I'm wondering what it feels like to actually have someone around?? Weird. Maybe one day...but thanks for the encouragement!