Christ_empowered
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I’m 40. I get bullied a lot. I live in a decent neighborhood now which is something of a miracle in my situation…
So this is 100x better than what would be happening in a group home subsidized housing or whatever is left of the state hospital
. I thank God for His mercy and my parents for their generosity.
The flip side of that I think
is that people act not only as if I don’t belong here but as if they have a right to drive me out.
More taunts at 3 am. I was actually already up so I found it obnoxious but not troubling. At 6:30ish I’d managed to get some sleep
while doing laundry and that woke me up. And…
I tried to put a positive spin on it. It’s getting close to 7 get up! lol
so not a big deal.
But there’s this sinister undertone. People have yelled you’ll be homeless when we’re through with you! And said ridiculous things about my parents and…
It’s frustrating. I’m 40 and this is like high school
or middle school again but it’s more intense and it’s seemingly impossible to escape.
I tried volunteering but it was bad and I was in a basement room with no escape and I tried talking to my parents about it and my counselor and I was basically told to take my medication
which…
Is an understandable but frustrating and dehumanizing response.
I’m labeled with schizophrenia. I’m not 110 percent complaining…everyone has labels
in today’s world 
and mine is partly because of past sins…
But it’s frustrating because I don’t hear voices often and I can distinguish between my thoughts
getting intense and becoming voices and what is around me. Side note: each person is different but my low stress lifestyle and getting adequate sleep seem to be the key 
factors towards overall stability.
People say now…loudly openly…that I need to be evicted. My parents paid cash for this place 6 years ago which was a huge blessing for all of us.
I don’t get it. People also say they want me committed. I’m able to find the free county database that shows that my parents own it how much they paid and when they bought it. I can use this same database to see who owns other units in my complex tax information etc….
But people are literally saying I have upper class pretensions and delusional for thinking that my parents own it?
I’m not trying to hear what people say either. These ap/condos aren’t luxurious but they’re well built and designed to maximize quiet and privacy. If I hear
people they’re either outside or talking deliberately loudly enough for me to hear .
So I’m frustrated. And there was the time I had random gauze pads come out of one ear…and I didn’t put them there. That was not fun but the lord saw me through.
Ugh
sorry to ramble. I’m not big on tv 
so I can’t really drown out noises too easily.
I’m frustrated with the situation.
So this is 100x better than what would be happening in a group home subsidized housing or whatever is left of the state hospital
. I thank God for His mercy and my parents for their generosity.The flip side of that I think
is that people act not only as if I don’t belong here but as if they have a right to drive me out. More taunts at 3 am. I was actually already up so I found it obnoxious but not troubling. At 6:30ish I’d managed to get some sleep
while doing laundry and that woke me up. And…I tried to put a positive spin on it. It’s getting close to 7 get up! lol
so not a big deal.But there’s this sinister undertone. People have yelled you’ll be homeless when we’re through with you! And said ridiculous things about my parents and…
It’s frustrating. I’m 40 and this is like high school
or middle school again but it’s more intense and it’s seemingly impossible to escape.I tried volunteering but it was bad and I was in a basement room with no escape and I tried talking to my parents about it and my counselor and I was basically told to take my medication
which…Is an understandable but frustrating and dehumanizing response.
I’m labeled with schizophrenia. I’m not 110 percent complaining…everyone has labels
in today’s world and mine is partly because of past sins…But it’s frustrating because I don’t hear voices often and I can distinguish between my thoughts
getting intense and becoming voices and what is around me. Side note: each person is different but my low stress lifestyle and getting adequate sleep seem to be the key factors towards overall stability.People say now…loudly openly…that I need to be evicted. My parents paid cash for this place 6 years ago which was a huge blessing for all of us.
I don’t get it. People also say they want me committed. I’m able to find the free county database that shows that my parents own it how much they paid and when they bought it. I can use this same database to see who owns other units in my complex tax information etc….
But people are literally saying I have upper class pretensions and delusional for thinking that my parents own it?
I’m not trying to hear what people say either. These ap/condos aren’t luxurious but they’re well built and designed to maximize quiet and privacy. If I hear
people they’re either outside or talking deliberately loudly enough for me to hear .So I’m frustrated. And there was the time I had random gauze pads come out of one ear…and I didn’t put them there. That was not fun but the lord saw me through.
Ugh
sorry to ramble. I’m not big on tv so I can’t really drown out noises too easily. I’m frustrated with the situation.