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Gulp, hope you don't mind this one lol

fallentoa

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I really hope there's some christians who are willing to listen out there, who don't judge me first without getting to know me first.

I'm going to drop myself in the deep end and hope you lot are understanding enough to see that I'm only human like the rest of you.

I'm not a christian anymore as I'm into the occult, I'm not here to recruit anyone or anything as I've got a few questions which has been puzzling me for years and I'm sure that someone out there will be able to answer them.

Anyway, I come from a history of Martial Arts, Karate, Mauy Thia and tai chi with a few added extras.
I did this for years until I stopped for a while when I used to torment a local evangelist who got to know me quite well and I then became a christian out on the streets right next to a bank lol, I'll never forget it lol.
Anyway since I was very little I always had problems with seeing stuff what would happen in the future, this is a very big deal when your not told anything about it as it was just something what was normal. I never knew it was something really bad until I started seeing accidents and death, It really freaked me out. After that I got into the occult for a while until I met John (the evangelist who I still see and yes he's upset with me but he doesn't judge). He is praying for me which I don't have a problem with as it's done with a loving heart, I just need to follow this path and where it takes me.
I did go to church and found that I was never really happy cos I kept getting tormented with seeing stuff what would happen, I did have prayer for it, even deliverance, even with someone connected with the great Smith wigglesworth, who was a English preacher. Thing is nothing worked, I've tried for years to get rid of this but nothing has worked.
I have finally given in to it and I've got into doing holistic therapies to which I do massage, reflexology, aromatherapy and a few other area's which I know for certain you won't afgree with. At the present I'm pagan, I don't have any problem with any christian and still have some friends I still see from the church I used to go too. I don't let them see what I get upto as I don't want to put their faith into any problems. I do have a lot of respect for their faith and they can't understand why I've gone back into what I came from. I suppose no one will lol, I've just given in as it's easier to cope with rather than having to live with seeing people I know come to harm.
Anyway less of me now, if you have any questions then I'd be more than happy to answer them.
much blessings to you.
lisa.
 
Hello and welcome. I will be praying for you and perhaps over time we can unpack your 'problem,' and perhaps I may be some assistance.
 
Thank you,

See everyone, I'm not that bad am I lol. :angel:

I've been talking about this place with my family as we are a mixed bunch lol, Mum accepted Jesus 10 yrs ago when she lost my dad to cancer, He did too before he died ( a very good friend came to see his before he died, it was very moving at the time). My sister and brother are on the way to the occult path but I'm trying to persuade them not to follow as I know what's out there and you've got to be prepared to lose a lot of friends and everything else, it does cost a great deal, I promise you. My brother is getting interested in the pagan path as he's trying to find what is out there, at least he's seeking something even though it's the wrong path for him to travel and I can't make him do anything, I can only advice the rest is upto him. I don't take this lightly as I'm questioning myself if I'm honest about it, I just don't know where this is going to lead, just please don't try and force me to turn away at this present moment as I can't. I might in the future as I know what's got to happen and I'm not ready for anything as major yet.
I am battling with everything as part of me wants to return to the christian side and the other is fighting to keep me, I just don't know which is stronger. I know that I need to sort myself out in every way as you see I've been psychic since I was very little and this is the only break I've had from it as it's got me stronger in a lot of ways.

I do know some very good people where I live and I even used to belong to a prayer group in the UK, hope you don't mind me saying which one as they don't know I've gone back to the craft. Intersessors for Britian, I met one of the leaders at a session of talks he did on the New age, Stewart Dool, he's a very good speaker and he knows his stuff about the occult, I have a lot of respect for him as he knows how to get underneath the barriers and see through any problems.
I know it's crazy all of this but this is where I am at the moment, I do accept the prayer which is being offered and also the help maybe I'll be able to talk to everyone more over time.
Blessings to you all,
Lisa.
 
mmmhmm..

Hello Lisa,

Pleased to make your aquaintence. :)

You're not alone, but not all have gone back.
Many have chosen to stay the course on the path that Jesus has laid out before us.

Bro Mark
 
Hi Bro Mark, it's really good to meet you and it's weird as I asked for a sign earlier tonight and I've just checked if anyone has put a reply and hay presto, I see your reply, crazy or what lol.
I've just checked out your page and there is a lot of good stuff on there, a few questions have been answered, yes I've signed up there so time will tell lol.
Thanks for putting this one here as it's helped a great deal and you don't know how much.
once again thanks.
lisa
 
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