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Hi all! My name is Jasmine, I'm eighteen years old from New Zealand.
About three weeks ago, I met someone at the beach, we got talking and he mentioned that he is a Christian, and I who have always been interested in learning more, just never met the right people, asked him more about it and he explained to me in a way that I finally understood what it's about.
The night before I met this man, I was literally on the edge of harming myself seriously, I was thinking about all these different ways I could kill myself, and make it seem like an accident, or just not as worse as it really is deep down. I had been in the worst mental state I had ever been in.
Turning 18, being pressured into finding a job, pressured by society to lose my virginity, trying to move out of home with no income.... the list goes on, as it does for a teenager walking out into this brand new world of endless responsibilities.
Then the next day, I decided I needed to go clear my head, so off to the one place I love. The beach.
Where I met this amazing person. He shared his testimony with me and it really made me think.
Maybe it doesn't need to be so difficult?
Well, we exchanged numbers and began txting eachother, and hanging out where he would witness to me everytime, I was so... what's the word, intrigued but suspicious at the same time, like I wanted this to be real, but the doubts always over-powered any kind of positive thoughts I had about it.
He would tell me wonderful things about the Holy Spirit, and speaking in Tongues (which I understand not everyone does) and so I tried, I went into my room at night, shut off all the lights, sat on my bed and just asked God to give this to me, he promised me he would, and that I will recieve if I seek it.
Well I prayed for a good... 15 minutes or so, ended up just saying Hallelujah until my tounge couldn't say it anymore, and just started blurting out random words which lasted at least 3-5 minutes.
I'm still not convinced though... I've prayed with other people, with the Pastor, (although I'm incredibly shy, and found it difficult to speak other than to myself) but nothing really came out of it. But yet they still tell me it will happen, and they are so sure, so sure that I just believe them, and I imagine what it will be like to witness miracles as well as a personal relationship with God, by speaking to him in this pure language of Tongues.
I was baptized on Sunday, but I have still yet to recieve it, but I remain hopeful that change will come!
Anyway that's me, rambled on for quite a bit.
Thanks for listening.
About three weeks ago, I met someone at the beach, we got talking and he mentioned that he is a Christian, and I who have always been interested in learning more, just never met the right people, asked him more about it and he explained to me in a way that I finally understood what it's about.
The night before I met this man, I was literally on the edge of harming myself seriously, I was thinking about all these different ways I could kill myself, and make it seem like an accident, or just not as worse as it really is deep down. I had been in the worst mental state I had ever been in.
Turning 18, being pressured into finding a job, pressured by society to lose my virginity, trying to move out of home with no income.... the list goes on, as it does for a teenager walking out into this brand new world of endless responsibilities.
Then the next day, I decided I needed to go clear my head, so off to the one place I love. The beach.
Where I met this amazing person. He shared his testimony with me and it really made me think.
Maybe it doesn't need to be so difficult?
Well, we exchanged numbers and began txting eachother, and hanging out where he would witness to me everytime, I was so... what's the word, intrigued but suspicious at the same time, like I wanted this to be real, but the doubts always over-powered any kind of positive thoughts I had about it.
He would tell me wonderful things about the Holy Spirit, and speaking in Tongues (which I understand not everyone does) and so I tried, I went into my room at night, shut off all the lights, sat on my bed and just asked God to give this to me, he promised me he would, and that I will recieve if I seek it.
Well I prayed for a good... 15 minutes or so, ended up just saying Hallelujah until my tounge couldn't say it anymore, and just started blurting out random words which lasted at least 3-5 minutes.
I'm still not convinced though... I've prayed with other people, with the Pastor, (although I'm incredibly shy, and found it difficult to speak other than to myself) but nothing really came out of it. But yet they still tell me it will happen, and they are so sure, so sure that I just believe them, and I imagine what it will be like to witness miracles as well as a personal relationship with God, by speaking to him in this pure language of Tongues.
I was baptized on Sunday, but I have still yet to recieve it, but I remain hopeful that change will come!
Anyway that's me, rambled on for quite a bit.
Thanks for listening.
