Spentanhourmakingthisname
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Hello, I need some serious help, I am addicted to the computer like crack, I am addicted to playing video games too and I am addicted to porn.
I might as well be on drugs because I feel so stoned and messed up, I don't have any friends and I get depressed and suicidal all the time but I am too shy to even tell anybody so I post it here.
I am 19 right now and I had never even been on a date or anything and I sin all the time even though I try to be a Christian, I am really bad at it and then it makes me feel even worse about myself because then I feel like I let God down because I am not good enough.
I do work but I do not even get paid for because it is just volunteer but I am going to start working part time soon though but I have to stop jacking my life up by wasting my time and sinning.
So if you are reading this please pray for me! I will pray for you too.
Also I am really bad at reading the Bible even though I keep trying to read it, if you read the Bible please tell me where to start to learn about the Bible.
I know this is akward, I bring shame to myself. It is like I cannot do what I want, instead I do the opposite of what I want!
The reason I am a Christian in the first place is because I want to make God happy and try to be what I was made to be instead of just bringing shame!
I hope I can post here everyday and then I can log if I did anything stupid that day or if I did not.
I might as well be on drugs because I feel so stoned and messed up, I don't have any friends and I get depressed and suicidal all the time but I am too shy to even tell anybody so I post it here.
I am 19 right now and I had never even been on a date or anything and I sin all the time even though I try to be a Christian, I am really bad at it and then it makes me feel even worse about myself because then I feel like I let God down because I am not good enough.
I do work but I do not even get paid for because it is just volunteer but I am going to start working part time soon though but I have to stop jacking my life up by wasting my time and sinning.
So if you are reading this please pray for me! I will pray for you too.
Also I am really bad at reading the Bible even though I keep trying to read it, if you read the Bible please tell me where to start to learn about the Bible.
I know this is akward, I bring shame to myself. It is like I cannot do what I want, instead I do the opposite of what I want!
The reason I am a Christian in the first place is because I want to make God happy and try to be what I was made to be instead of just bringing shame!
I hope I can post here everyday and then I can log if I did anything stupid that day or if I did not.