Only1Balto
Member
Hello all! I'm a pretty big car enthusiast so I learned to use the forums a lot to find info an ideas on how to make a car better/faster. Eventually I grew up a bit and wanted to take my spiritual life a little more seriously- and what better way I thought to take it to a forums where I can network with my brothers and sisters in Christ. Unfortunately, when I searched "Christian Forums" the first one to pop up seemed a little dead. I figured since Christianity was one of the largest (If no THE largest) religions in the world the forums would be well packed and well sponsored along with an easy to use interface- however this was not the case. I decided to search again and ended up choosing this site to try out. I just want a place that's easy to navigate, keeps all my subscriptions in order, and has a lot of believers to help others like me along the way.
I'm a 25 year old male in the US Navy, I've got a wife and three kids and I've made a lot of mistakes and regrets in my life. I still make a few every once in a while, more than I'd like to. I live in California now- but I'll be moving back home to Georgia in 341 days (and counting
) I've always been a dreamer- a scientific person by nature, and therefore at times because I cannot always see/feel God- my mind will begin to wonder and I sometimes have to question... which if in my heart I did truly believe, I would not have any doubts. My mind is my worse enemy at times. God has blessed me in more ways than I can count- sometimes right in front of my face! And yet when I'm depressed I become "Blind" I hope that these forums will help me to sharpen my mind and strengthen my walk with God~ because it is Him would I truly want to side with.
I'd also like to post this rant I ended up having a few months back- that maybe I could get some guidance with as well. Now- please remember that I'm young, and had very little when I was growing up. So although I DO know material things are not to be longed for- I still believe a man, a good man should still have his "toys".
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I guess I’m posting here looking for a little insight on life, maybe a few answers, or some guidance. This is a long read about me- so please, forgive me. I’d like answers from those who’ve read every word I’ve said and can feel what I’ve felt and offer some type of comfort or guidance to my soul.
First let me say that I’m 25 years old, in my last tour of the military getting ready to head out back into the civilian world with nothing really to show for it. My nationality is Thai (from Thailand), but I was born in the US and raised in all parts of this great nation. My father was military- and raised me as such. I’m married- have 3 little ones who I raise in almost the same environment that I was raised in. It has both pros and cons but I feel as if the pros greatly outweigh the cons.
Here’s the deal- I’m not the perfect guy, but I’ve got great morals when compared to every other person I’ve met. I’ve never been drunk, never ever tried drugs, never slept around, and always treated elders with respect even at a very young age, kept to myself within my own boundaries making sure that I wouldn’t bother anyone else. I’m self reliant and sort of a jack of all trades being master at none (which is also VERY frustrating). I am who others normally go to when they need help, weather mechanical or otherwise, I help without preconceived thoughts of payback or rewards. I don’t lie, steal, or cheat. I don’t want many things in life- but the things I do what, I want the absolute best of. I FEEL in my heart that I deserve these things, but I’m not able to obtain them do to financial reasons. When I look around at others, they seem to have everything I want and yet have “different†morals than my own. They drive the car I want, have a more “attractive†woman by their side who seem to love them much more than my own, yet steal, commit adultery, get wasted and brag about it, and seem to just ENJOY life so much more than I do. I work hard each and every single day- always brining my best to the table and many times on numerous occasions picking up the slack that the others leave behind. Again many times without asking for anything in return. Yet at the end of the day- I come home to a car that doesn’t work, a wife who doesn’t take care of her appearance, financial woes, and no sign that anything will change.
So my question is this- honestly, what am I working so hard for? I’d be willing to bet that if I could go back in time to my late teens- I could get wasted on alcohol and drugs and sleep around with so many women and I would probably come out MORE successful and joyful in life than I am today. I’d probably have the car I want, the women I want, the life I want. I never skipped school. My parents left me on my own at the age of 15. I worked and went to school paying for everything including housing, car, insurance, gas and food. I graduated (no where near the top of my class) with nothing to show for all my hard work. I would’ve like to attend college but seeing as how I had no way to sustain myself financially I went into the military. I see others younger than I with less experience in life living the lifestyle I would want to be apart in! I ask them how they do it and they say “My uncle owns a business†or “my dad knows a good friend who gave me thisâ€. Everyone seems to have some type of connection to help them out in life. A foot in the door if you will. Well I ask- WHERE IS MINE?!
I’m at a loss when it comes to life. I don’t know where to go or what to do- I honestly thought hard work, paying attention, being someone reliable and competent, would get me somewhere. I guess that’s what my father had taught me before he bailed out on me. It just seems like it’s ALL who you know now or just BLIND luck. Both of which I have none of. If someone knows what I’m talking about please- let me know what I should do. I work hard here on earth and I’m not asking for much at all. A good paying job that I can be proud of, a nice looking car that I can toy around with, and a skill that I can bring to the Church. But I guess that's asking too much these days eh?
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Thanks all- I hope for future blessings with you all
I'm a 25 year old male in the US Navy, I've got a wife and three kids and I've made a lot of mistakes and regrets in my life. I still make a few every once in a while, more than I'd like to. I live in California now- but I'll be moving back home to Georgia in 341 days (and counting
) I've always been a dreamer- a scientific person by nature, and therefore at times because I cannot always see/feel God- my mind will begin to wonder and I sometimes have to question... which if in my heart I did truly believe, I would not have any doubts. My mind is my worse enemy at times. God has blessed me in more ways than I can count- sometimes right in front of my face! And yet when I'm depressed I become "Blind" I hope that these forums will help me to sharpen my mind and strengthen my walk with God~ because it is Him would I truly want to side with. I'd also like to post this rant I ended up having a few months back- that maybe I could get some guidance with as well. Now- please remember that I'm young, and had very little when I was growing up. So although I DO know material things are not to be longed for- I still believe a man, a good man should still have his "toys".
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I guess I’m posting here looking for a little insight on life, maybe a few answers, or some guidance. This is a long read about me- so please, forgive me. I’d like answers from those who’ve read every word I’ve said and can feel what I’ve felt and offer some type of comfort or guidance to my soul.
First let me say that I’m 25 years old, in my last tour of the military getting ready to head out back into the civilian world with nothing really to show for it. My nationality is Thai (from Thailand), but I was born in the US and raised in all parts of this great nation. My father was military- and raised me as such. I’m married- have 3 little ones who I raise in almost the same environment that I was raised in. It has both pros and cons but I feel as if the pros greatly outweigh the cons.
Here’s the deal- I’m not the perfect guy, but I’ve got great morals when compared to every other person I’ve met. I’ve never been drunk, never ever tried drugs, never slept around, and always treated elders with respect even at a very young age, kept to myself within my own boundaries making sure that I wouldn’t bother anyone else. I’m self reliant and sort of a jack of all trades being master at none (which is also VERY frustrating). I am who others normally go to when they need help, weather mechanical or otherwise, I help without preconceived thoughts of payback or rewards. I don’t lie, steal, or cheat. I don’t want many things in life- but the things I do what, I want the absolute best of. I FEEL in my heart that I deserve these things, but I’m not able to obtain them do to financial reasons. When I look around at others, they seem to have everything I want and yet have “different†morals than my own. They drive the car I want, have a more “attractive†woman by their side who seem to love them much more than my own, yet steal, commit adultery, get wasted and brag about it, and seem to just ENJOY life so much more than I do. I work hard each and every single day- always brining my best to the table and many times on numerous occasions picking up the slack that the others leave behind. Again many times without asking for anything in return. Yet at the end of the day- I come home to a car that doesn’t work, a wife who doesn’t take care of her appearance, financial woes, and no sign that anything will change.
So my question is this- honestly, what am I working so hard for? I’d be willing to bet that if I could go back in time to my late teens- I could get wasted on alcohol and drugs and sleep around with so many women and I would probably come out MORE successful and joyful in life than I am today. I’d probably have the car I want, the women I want, the life I want. I never skipped school. My parents left me on my own at the age of 15. I worked and went to school paying for everything including housing, car, insurance, gas and food. I graduated (no where near the top of my class) with nothing to show for all my hard work. I would’ve like to attend college but seeing as how I had no way to sustain myself financially I went into the military. I see others younger than I with less experience in life living the lifestyle I would want to be apart in! I ask them how they do it and they say “My uncle owns a business†or “my dad knows a good friend who gave me thisâ€. Everyone seems to have some type of connection to help them out in life. A foot in the door if you will. Well I ask- WHERE IS MINE?!
I’m at a loss when it comes to life. I don’t know where to go or what to do- I honestly thought hard work, paying attention, being someone reliable and competent, would get me somewhere. I guess that’s what my father had taught me before he bailed out on me. It just seems like it’s ALL who you know now or just BLIND luck. Both of which I have none of. If someone knows what I’m talking about please- let me know what I should do. I work hard here on earth and I’m not asking for much at all. A good paying job that I can be proud of, a nice looking car that I can toy around with, and a skill that I can bring to the Church. But I guess that's asking too much these days eh?
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Thanks all- I hope for future blessings with you all
