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Hello all, my name is Alex. I am a 27 year old male, living in orange county california. Since moving here from Ohio, I have been unable to find a church I truly liked, and as such, my attendance has fallen off. God has been working with me though, I know there is a call on my life. I've even figured out what it is now. For year's I was lost, it wasn't the Army, it wasn't ministry, random people would just approach me and tell me that God had a plan for me though, it was very frustrating to say the least :P .
A recent incident with my girlfriend of two year's shed all the light I needed on the subject when it turned violent. She threw a can of soda at me, I pulled her hair and busted a windshield. Unacceptable, I should have never gone that far, I should have never let the incident go that far. I prayed for several day's afterward's, I looked for help, but there was none, beyond court ordered classes, (which have a failure rate of nearly 90%). This brought me to the conclusion, as ugly as it is, that first of all I need to humble myself, ask for forgiveness, and ask for direction. And secondly begin to take whatever step's are needed to get such a program rolling. Not that I'm all hunky dory myself, but I've never felt so drawn to something in my life. As unsavory as it is, I feel the call of God to seek out other men like me and help them get the the root cause of their behavior.
Anyhow, I didn't mean to take up so much of your time, I don't really know what the point of telling you all of it was, but it does feel good to get it out, thanks for your time, and looking forward to your fellowship!
A recent incident with my girlfriend of two year's shed all the light I needed on the subject when it turned violent. She threw a can of soda at me, I pulled her hair and busted a windshield. Unacceptable, I should have never gone that far, I should have never let the incident go that far. I prayed for several day's afterward's, I looked for help, but there was none, beyond court ordered classes, (which have a failure rate of nearly 90%). This brought me to the conclusion, as ugly as it is, that first of all I need to humble myself, ask for forgiveness, and ask for direction. And secondly begin to take whatever step's are needed to get such a program rolling. Not that I'm all hunky dory myself, but I've never felt so drawn to something in my life. As unsavory as it is, I feel the call of God to seek out other men like me and help them get the the root cause of their behavior.
Anyhow, I didn't mean to take up so much of your time, I don't really know what the point of telling you all of it was, but it does feel good to get it out, thanks for your time, and looking forward to your fellowship!
