Christ_empowered
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dad's going to pay me some $$$ to help him for several hours tomorrow. im happy ($$$! YES!), but also...nervous. im not strong. i may have had cancer (true story...kinda odd, but...just try to 'suspend your disbelief,' and know that God is good...), plus other -physical- health problems. i -was- once, not so long ago, easily fatigued, plus the obvious brain damage, and...
actually, now that i think about it...anywhere but the bible belt, id probably be in a state hospital. true story. anyway...
i need to do my work as unto the lord, not unto man. and...along the way...get out of my own mind, get into the groove of doing things for $$$, working alone and with others, under supervision, etc., and...
-ugh- i just get nervous. i do better on abilify than on 0 tranquilizer or even on any other 'atypical' tranquilizer, but -all- the tranquilizers kinda dampen concentration, motivation, etc. my dose is a tad bit lower (usually...i go up a bit when 'noia hits...), so I guess that gives me a lil more dopamine action (?), but...
im happy, but my dad can be a real task master and he's -paying- me, and...and...id like to do well, i really would. father+son time (at long last....did I mention that God is good?!?!), some much needed maturation, time out of my (rather nice, albeit simple) apartment, and...
thanks for praying. seriously.
actually, now that i think about it...anywhere but the bible belt, id probably be in a state hospital. true story. anyway...
i need to do my work as unto the lord, not unto man. and...along the way...get out of my own mind, get into the groove of doing things for $$$, working alone and with others, under supervision, etc., and...
-ugh- i just get nervous. i do better on abilify than on 0 tranquilizer or even on any other 'atypical' tranquilizer, but -all- the tranquilizers kinda dampen concentration, motivation, etc. my dose is a tad bit lower (usually...i go up a bit when 'noia hits...), so I guess that gives me a lil more dopamine action (?), but...
im happy, but my dad can be a real task master and he's -paying- me, and...and...id like to do well, i really would. father+son time (at long last....did I mention that God is good?!?!), some much needed maturation, time out of my (rather nice, albeit simple) apartment, and...
thanks for praying. seriously.