I'm tired of cycles. I don't know what I'm trying for. Or if I'm even trying. I just turned 22 recently, and all I can think is "one more year of nothing". I have nothin to look forward to. I don't have many friends. Really all I have is one. And honestly, I feel so unmotivated I don't feel like hanging with him anymore.
I believe in Jesus. I'm just a usesless vessel.
I'm still living with my parents, and I just wanna get out of this house and live my own life away from my family.
Like disappear. Off the grid.
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YosefHayim, yours is not the tale untold. Some such as my pastor became angry with God different times and he said that he had quit preaching several times, but he was still preaching four different messages a week at ninety-four years of age to a sizeable congregation. You are God work in progress, and He isn’t finished with you yet. Jesus learned obedience by the things He suffered; you will too.
Heb 5:8 Though he (Jesus) were a Son, yet learned he obedience by the things which he suffered
Jesus
Joh 7:5 For neither did his brethren believe in him.
Mar 6:4 But Jesus said unto them, A prophet is not without honour, but in his own country, and among his own kin, and in his own house.
Mat 8:20 And Jesus saith unto him, The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air
have nests; but the Son of man hath not where to lay
his head.
Elijah
1 Ki 19:4 But he himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and
he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O LORD, take away my life; for I
am not better than my fathers.
1 Ki 19:10 And he said, I have been very jealous for the LORD God of hosts: for the children of Israel have forsaken thy covenant, thrown down thine altars, and slain thy prophets with the sword; and
I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.
1 Ki 19:11 And he said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD;
but the LORD
was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake;
but the LORD
was not in the earthquake:
1 Ki 19:12 And after the earthquake a fire;
but the LORD
was not in the fire: and after the fire
a still small voice.
Job
Job 3:3
Let the day perish wherein I was born, and the night
in which it was said, There is a man child conceived.
Moses
Num 11:14 I am not able to bear all this people alone, because
it is too heavy for me.