Hey Rez;
You are just a regular fountain of blossoming sunshine, aren't you?
Josie had the right answer when she admitted she didn't have the answers, or at least not all of them. But she was able to freely offer the one thing she did have: prayer.
Please allow me to declare right here that where T A R is at is where God has stated emphatically that He dwells.
I dwell in a high and lofty place, with him who is of a broken and contrite spirit.
Not only that, but I believe that it is God's joy to honor Josie's and Aimee's humble intercession.
What's more, Jesus said: Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of Heaven. And right now, TAR is definitely poor in spirit. What an honor to be in such a place!
But let's go just a bit further. We know that there are times when out of the depths of our spirit, a cry rings out from our hearts:
My God, My God, why hast thou forsaken me?
And His ready answer is ever:
I have not forsaken you, but in fact I have engraved you on the palms of My hands. How could I forsake you? A hen may forsake her chicks. And a mother may forsake her child, but I will never forsake you. I have loved you with an everlasting love.
There are many prayers going up on your behalf, TAR, and they are taking the form of the smoke of incense in the inner courts of Heaven. The Father finds the aroma to be pleasant in His nostrils.
Don't lose hope. He is by no means finished with you nor has He given up on you. Believe it or not, but we are corrected by our backslidings. In that one point, they serve their purpose. Let it serve it's purpose this time. Learn the lesson and go on to the knowledge of Him.