I have always been a christian. I am not 17 years old and turning to 18 soon and my faith has grown up more and more, I know that God and Jesus exists but it's sometimes hard to accept. However, I've fell in a depression also I don't really know what should I do. Do you know the feeling that you should do in example an essay for the next week but you don't want to because it's boring and your too lazy also it makes you very anxious. Well I've got same feeling but in a difference section. I am talking about Heaven and Hell. I think I've never been in this anxious before, I'm already gone far away from the edge that I am not anymore anxious because I feel that Hell is waiting and nothing can do about it. I've already got an anxious disorder but still I've never been this anxious before, I can't live my life anymore.
I've been reading an articles of the mark of the beast. It's the scariest thing in earth I know, however when the mark of the beast will be given by a RFID chip or any chip I will refuse to take it. Anyways, I read an article that H1n1 Swine flu vaccination would have included a mark of the beast. Of course I took it because my mother forced me to take it ( She's true christian ) well I took it because I heard that you could get couple free days from the school because you might get sick. I was young and never read the bible before neither knew of the beasts numbers and stuff. After I had taken it I've seen warning that 'You will go to hell if you take H1n1 swin flu vaccination' well since then I've been anxious because I know what is hell about and I am so scared. I feel like God hasn't even answered my prayers anymore, I'm just scared to death that if I jumped from the bridge, I'd go to hell if anyways get there, at least I wouldn't have pain in this life, only in hell.
Don't worry I am not going to jump from the bridge because I still believe that I might have at least 0.1% possibility to get in Heaven. What you think about this?
Thank you for spending time by reading this.
Ben
I've been reading an articles of the mark of the beast. It's the scariest thing in earth I know, however when the mark of the beast will be given by a RFID chip or any chip I will refuse to take it. Anyways, I read an article that H1n1 Swine flu vaccination would have included a mark of the beast. Of course I took it because my mother forced me to take it ( She's true christian ) well I took it because I heard that you could get couple free days from the school because you might get sick. I was young and never read the bible before neither knew of the beasts numbers and stuff. After I had taken it I've seen warning that 'You will go to hell if you take H1n1 swin flu vaccination' well since then I've been anxious because I know what is hell about and I am so scared. I feel like God hasn't even answered my prayers anymore, I'm just scared to death that if I jumped from the bridge, I'd go to hell if anyways get there, at least I wouldn't have pain in this life, only in hell.
Don't worry I am not going to jump from the bridge because I still believe that I might have at least 0.1% possibility to get in Heaven. What you think about this?
Thank you for spending time by reading this.
Ben