In need of answers

[alex101]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity. There was a time when I wanted nothing more then to be a Biblical scholar, a prayer warrior, and proverbs 31 woman. I had gotten out of a relationship with a Satanist and I was heavily demonized. I turned to prayer, fasting, and Chris Lasala's ministry BDS for deliverance. Unfortunately after being set free I could not break my addiction to sex and a few years later my ex and I, although physically separated, continued to be sexually intimate in the spirit (I think he accomplishes this through astral projection). He knows that I don't condone sex outside of marriage or multiple partners but he doesnt care. Our relationship started with date rape and I have not cultivated the ability or the willpower to deny him when I feel these strong energies take over. Even when I was delivered and working out my salvation with fear and trembling my enthusiasm for Jesus was heavily dampened by a toxic and abusive family situation. I was usually passive and graduated college to make my family proud but as I grew up I began processing my true feelings and started acting rebellious. I assaulted someone (twice), I smoked, I masturbated, I took shrooms, and smoked Marijuana. Luckily despite all my behaviors I did not get redemonized. After getting out of jail, despite every honest attempt to get my life together, I ended up on the streets for the first time in my life. I went to Path of Life Ministries shelter and I couldn't believe my eyes. It seemed like a path of death. Trash, encampments, pollution, prostitution, drug use. I had to learn after many days camped out on the sidewalk in extreme weather that I was not even allowed to rest my head for a night because I was not a registered local. I don't know whether to consider myself fortunate or not because at the moments when I felt pushed to my limits and scared for my life I was rescued by three strangers on separate occasions. One allowed me to sleep in his car. Another allowed me to sleep in his tent for a few days (and helped me get clean clothes). The other spent the night with me under blankets on the streets to keep me safe. We bonded as friends and it was understood that sex would be involved. I felt I had no choice because when you are on the streets alone as a female you are at risk for so much worse then casual sex with a male friend. It was more kindness then my own family extended to me during my desperate time of need. I was able to get a ride to a much better shelter and of course nothing is simple. Despite being sober I have been getting symptoms of heavy drug use (or withdrawal?) as well as this dark energy that makes me feel sick all over. Heavy nausea, unexplained migraines, emotional turbulence. I suspect it could be that I am "one flesh" after these casual and regretful interactions. Meaning, I am bound to more then one man spiritually and physically. BDS said they would not pray for me again if I continued to sin. I know in the Bible it says if you sin after being set free there is no more mercy left. As it is its a crowded shelter and I can barely get any alone time with God. I am also dealing with viscous attacks from the enemy each time I pray. So I told God I give up. I gave it a good shot but I just think being a disciplined Christian from a decent background is a luxury I never had in life. I'm just tired of feeling judged. I am tired of the guilt. I don't think humans should live without morals but I just think if I can't get a second chance then who needs God then. Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

 

[Fastfredy0]

Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

Matthew 7:13-14 Narrow is the gate that leads to life and few that find it ... which shows few people make it to heaven. The evidence that someone may make it is that they follow His commands.

Test For Salvation (Marks Of A Born Again Christian)
1. Believing in Christ (Faith)
2. Repentance - Who Loves God will Obey God.
3. The Believer’s Salvation from the Love of Sin.
4. No Habitual Sinning, Strive to enter through the narrow gate.
5. Material possessions have little value and human issues are not particularly upsetting.
6. Humility.
7. Lose our own life to follow Him...
8. Press Forward unto Perfection, Love the Brethren.
9. Internal Testimony Of The Spirit Overcoming the World.
10. Spiritual Growth.
11. Peace.
12. Perseverance.

 

[PopaSodinski]

No, you're not doomed. As long as you're still alive you can still follow the Lord, in spite of your past and your circumstances. You'll still sin, everyone does, but you can learn to resist it. It all comes down to what path you choose to take.

 

[Hidden In Him]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity. There was a time when I wanted nothing more then to be a Biblical scholar, a prayer warrior, and proverbs 31 woman. I had gotten out of a relationship with a Satanist and I was heavily demonized. I turned to prayer, fasting, and Chris Lasala's ministry BDS for deliverance. Unfortunately after being set free I could not break my addiction to sex and a few years later my ex and I, although physically separated, continued to be sexually intimate in the spirit (I think he accomplishes this through astral projection). He knows that I don't condone sex outside of marriage or multiple partners but he doesnt care. Our relationship started with date rape and I have not cultivated the ability or the willpower to deny him when I feel these strong energies take over. Even when I was delivered and working out my salvation with fear and trembling my enthusiasm for Jesus was heavily dampened by a toxic and abusive family situation. I was usually passive and graduated college to make my family proud but as I grew up I began processing my true feelings and started acting rebellious. I assaulted someone (twice), I smoked, I masturbated, I took shrooms, and smoked Marijuana. Luckily despite all my behaviors I did not get redemonized. After getting out of jail, despite every honest attempt to get my life together, I ended up on the streets for the first time in my life. I went to Path of Life Ministries shelter and I couldn't believe my eyes. It seemed like a path of death. Trash, encampments, pollution, prostitution, drug use. I had to learn after many days camped out on the sidewalk in extreme weather that I was not even allowed to rest my head for a night because I was not a registered local. I don't know whether to consider myself fortunate or not because at the moments when I felt pushed to my limits and scared for my life I was rescued by three strangers on separate occasions. One allowed me to sleep in his car. Another allowed me to sleep in his tent for a few days (and helped me get clean clothes). The other spent the night with me under blankets on the streets to keep me safe. We bonded as friends and it was understood that sex would be involved. I felt I had no choice because when you are on the streets alone as a female you are at risk for so much worse then casual sex with a male friend. It was more kindness then my own family extended to me during my desperate time of need. I was able to get a ride to a much better shelter and of course nothing is simple. Despite being sober I have been getting symptoms of heavy drug use (or withdrawal?) as well as this dark energy that makes me feel sick all over. Heavy nausea, unexplained migraines, emotional turbulence. I suspect it could be that I am "one flesh" after these casual and regretful interactions. Meaning, I am bound to more then one man spiritually and physically. BDS said they would not pray for me again if I continued to sin. I know in the Bible it says if you sin after being set free there is no more mercy left. As it is its a crowded shelter and I can barely get any alone time with God. I am also dealing with viscous attacks from the enemy each time I pray. So I told God I give up. I gave it a good shot but I just think being a disciplined Christian from a decent background is a luxury I never had in life. I'm just tired of feeling judged. I am tired of the guilt. I don't think humans should live without morals but I just think if I can't get a second chance then who needs God then. Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

He will not turn you away, and sorry about not seeing this post until now. And no, you should not give up on Him because He has not given up on you. All the Christians you see that you think are leading spotless clean lives and have no problems, they're not. Everyone has sins they are dealing with, and yet He is gracious to us all.

So NO. By no means are you "doomed." That's a ridiculous thought. Scripture teaches that each man must bear his own burden, and that means that you are not responsible for the hand someone else was dealt, you are responsible for the hand you were, and He knows how severe your life has been. What He wants from you is to keep seeking Him, and to keep pressing in. To keep trying with all your heart to do just a little better for Him every day, and keep praying for His empowerment. Don't look on the things you are doing wrong, look on the things you are doing right, and keep praying and believing until there are increasingly more things in your life you are doing right than wrong.

I will be praying for you, Alex. Blessings in Christ, and thanks for joining our community.
Hidden In Him

 

[NewLifeInChrist]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity. There was a time when I wanted nothing more then to be a Biblical scholar, a prayer warrior, and proverbs 31 woman. I had gotten out of a relationship with a Satanist and I was heavily demonized. I turned to prayer, fasting, and Chris Lasala's ministry BDS for deliverance. Unfortunately after being set free I could not break my addiction to sex and a few years later my ex and I, although physically separated, continued to be sexually intimate in the spirit (I think he accomplishes this through astral projection). He knows that I don't condone sex outside of marriage or multiple partners but he doesnt care. Our relationship started with date rape and I have not cultivated the ability or the willpower to deny him when I feel these strong energies take over. Even when I was delivered and working out my salvation with fear and trembling my enthusiasm for Jesus was heavily dampened by a toxic and abusive family situation. I was usually passive and graduated college to make my family proud but as I grew up I began processing my true feelings and started acting rebellious. I assaulted someone (twice), I smoked, I masturbated, I took shrooms, and smoked Marijuana. Luckily despite all my behaviors I did not get redemonized. After getting out of jail, despite every honest attempt to get my life together, I ended up on the streets for the first time in my life. I went to Path of Life Ministries shelter and I couldn't believe my eyes. It seemed like a path of death. Trash, encampments, pollution, prostitution, drug use. I had to learn after many days camped out on the sidewalk in extreme weather that I was not even allowed to rest my head for a night because I was not a registered local. I don't know whether to consider myself fortunate or not because at the moments when I felt pushed to my limits and scared for my life I was rescued by three strangers on separate occasions. One allowed me to sleep in his car. Another allowed me to sleep in his tent for a few days (and helped me get clean clothes). The other spent the night with me under blankets on the streets to keep me safe. We bonded as friends and it was understood that sex would be involved. I felt I had no choice because when you are on the streets alone as a female you are at risk for so much worse then casual sex with a male friend. It was more kindness then my own family extended to me during my desperate time of need. I was able to get a ride to a much better shelter and of course nothing is simple. Despite being sober I have been getting symptoms of heavy drug use (or withdrawal?) as well as this dark energy that makes me feel sick all over. Heavy nausea, unexplained migraines, emotional turbulence. I suspect it could be that I am "one flesh" after these casual and regretful interactions. Meaning, I am bound to more then one man spiritually and physically. BDS said they would not pray for me again if I continued to sin. I know in the Bible it says if you sin after being set free there is no more mercy left. As it is its a crowded shelter and I can barely get any alone time with God. I am also dealing with viscous attacks from the enemy each time I pray. So I told God I give up. I gave it a good shot but I just think being a disciplined Christian from a decent background is a luxury I never had in life. I'm just tired of feeling judged. I am tired of the guilt. I don't think humans should live without morals but I just think if I can't get a second chance then who needs God then. Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

I am so sorry you are going through all this. I would just say that there are a lot of judgemental "Christians" out there, but there are none without sin.

But God is without sin. He can't even look upon sin because He is too holy. And because of His love for the people of this world, including you, He gave His Son Jesus Christ the mission to bear our sins so that believing in Him we would not perish because of our sins, but instead have eternal life. On the cross, God laid on Him all our iniquities.

He died with our sins on His shoulders. But death could not hold Him. He rose from the dead after 3 days, and now sits in heaven at the right Hand of the Father waiting to come back again. In the meantime, He promises those who would receive Him to come to live in their hearts. If you have received Him, He will never abandon you. If you have not received Him, He stands at the door of your heart and knocks. Open the door of your heart and let Him in.

 

[D2255]

No. Jesus does forgive sins. Luke chapter 17. A notortious sinner in the city hears Jesus is sitting at a pharsiree home. She came to the fest of Jesus with alabaster, jar of perfume, wiping sway his feet in tears. Jesus did forgive her sins. Repent and be doer of God's word, James chapter 1. This is seperate from you. There are few Reprobates on this forum. Romans chapter 1, and Titus 1:16. If Christian goes against there traditions,or correct them, these fake Christian will turn on you, or falsey accuse you of gnosticism or heresy. There are one Indiscriminate member who's in position of authority on this forum. Self righteous, and think there morally Superior. Won't accept correction, or will turn on you if you speak against there traditions. And falsey accuse of you heresy or being gnosticism. The fake religious leaders in Jesus time, plotted against him. They were self righteous and hypocritical. One Christian was excommunicated by the pharsiree. He was healed by Jesus. They couldn't stand the truth. And there envy or jealousy showed toward Jesus and the former blind man who was healed. The fake religious leaders were Indiscriminate. Reprobates don't have holy Spirit. And they are envious of those who have Holy Spirit. They can't ascertain deep truth of Gods word, 1 Corinthians chapter 2. They have Spirit of error. Indiscriminate has no place in body of Christ. We are to edify body of Christ. Sister, I hope light at end of the tunnel is bright. I wish you the best. Peace.

 

[LOOKING]

Something worth considering is that Jesus never condemned sinners; He always forgave them and had kind words for them. On the other hand, His harshest words were directed at the so-called teachers of the law and the priests...

There is nothing in life that Jesus will not pardon, except blasphemy against the Spirit. This is not your case because you are sincere in writing this.

In the precise moment you honestly want your mistakes to be erased, they are erased. You must believe it, because this is exactly how it is. This is LITERALLY true.

You can start again every morning as a new day and leave your entire past behind. Have no fear; say NO to all those feelings that attack you. Try your best, because that is exactly what is expected of you.

If you truly don’t want to be doomed, the first step is not to let yourself fall. The second step is to act accordingly: focus on everything good and let all the things that lead nowhere simply fade away. That’s it.

 

[Tenchi]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity.

This is what often happens when you don't really know God.

There was a time when I wanted nothing more then to be a Biblical scholar, a prayer warrior, and proverbs 31 woman.

And God? What about knowing, loving and enjoying Him? Did you ever want these things? Did you ever want to live in daily submission to His will and way, dying to yourself so that the life of Christ might be revealed in you?

I had gotten out of a relationship with a Satanist and I was heavily demonized. I turned to prayer, fasting, and Chris Lasala's ministry BDS for deliverance.

I don't know anything about Chris Lasala and BDS but I do know of the long and God-blessed work of Dr. Neil T. Anderson: Freedom In Christ Ministries. He has helped many like yourself to know and walk with God and live in the spiritual freedom that is theirs in Jesus Christ. I recommend you check out the following link:

Freedom in Christ Ministries, USA

www.ficm.org

Unfortunately after being set free I could not break my addiction to sex

Then you weren't set free, were you? "If the Son shall make you free, you shall be free indeed" Jesus said (John 8:36). Does this sound like the freedom you experienced? Not to me.

He knows that I don't condone sex outside of marriage or multiple partners but he doesnt care. Our relationship started with date rape and I have not cultivated the ability or the willpower to deny him when I feel these strong energies take over.

It's... interesting how you put the blame for your sin with this guy on him, not you. This won't wash with God. You won't be able, at the Final Judgment, to dump the responsibility for your sinful choices on someone else.

Even when I was delivered and working out my salvation with fear and trembling my enthusiasm for Jesus was heavily dampened by a toxic and abusive family situation.

You've quoted part of Philippians 2:12 here. Do you know what the very next verse says? Do you know what it means? Your story reveals that you don't. And this is why, in part, you've met with such catastrophe in your life as a Christian.

I assaulted someone (twice), I smoked, I masturbated, I took shrooms, and smoked Marijuana. Luckily despite all my behaviors I did not get redemonized.

But you did get destructively selfish, which is, really, all the devil wants. He knows that if he can make you as selfish as you've described here, you're well on your way to destruction.

After getting out of jail, despite every honest attempt to get my life together, I ended up on the streets for the first time in my life.

And God? How did He figure into your "honest attempts to get your life together"? Did you live in daily submission to His will and way? Were you constantly "walking in the Spirit"? Do you even know what this is and how to do it?

We bonded as friends and it was understood that sex would be involved.

He was no friend. Yuck.

I felt I had no choice because when you are on the streets alone as a female you are at risk for so much worse then casual sex with a male friend.

And God? How did He figure into your thinking here?

Despite being sober I have been getting symptoms of heavy drug use (or withdrawal?) as well as this dark energy that makes me feel sick all over. Heavy nausea, unexplained migraines, emotional turbulence. I suspect it could be that I am "one flesh" after these casual and regretful interactions.

Maybe. You've certainly thrown wide the doors of your life to the devil. But God can still truly free you, if you'll walk with Him in the way He's commanded you to. Not by self-effort, not by forcing yourself to "just do it," but by "walking in the Spirit" all the time and being transformed by him.

I know in the Bible it says if you sin after being set free there is no more mercy left.

No, what it says is that when you sin willfully, you cut yourself off from the benefit of the sacrifice of Jesus for your sin and from the "way of escape" from sin that God has made for all of His children. Think of it this way: If you're in a burning building and the exit is across the room from you but you won't take it, whose fault is it if you burn to death? Yours. You've refused to take the only exit that there is.

When you sin willfully, you do the same thing with the sacrifice Jesus made for you on the cross of Calvary that the person in the burning building has done with the exit. Through Christ's sacrifice, you can have peace and acceptance with God and joyful, holy life in the Spirit. There is no other way to these things except through what Jesus did on the cross. Your willful choice to sin, however, is a rejection of what Jesus did for you; it is an act of deep rebellion and pride that sets your will and way above God's and in so doing "treads underfoot the Son of God and does despite to the Spirit of grace" (Hebrews 10:26-31). This is a very awful and dangerous path to walk! But it is your choice to walk it that has cut you off from the benefits of the sacrifice of Jesus for your sin.

As it is its a crowded shelter and I can barely get any alone time with God.

You will get alone with God if you really want to.

I am also dealing with viscous attacks from the enemy each time I pray.

Well, of course you are. You can't make the choices you have and not find yourself in the jaws of the "roaring lion who seeks whom he may devour." (1 Peter 5:8) If you want freedom from his terrible teeth, do as God has commanded:

Repent of (truly change your mind about) your sinful living (James 4:6-10).
Confess (admit) your sin to God (1 John 1:9).
Submit yourself throughout every day to God's will and way (Romans 6:13; Romans 12:1; James 4:7).

So I told God I give up. I gave it a good shot but I just think being a disciplined Christian from a decent background is a luxury I never had in life.

I don't know what this BDS fellow told you, but it is plain as day that you don't know how to walk with God really at all. And so, here you are, ready to chuck it all in. Well, I can't blame you. You've not really understood what it is to be a child of God and how the Christian life actually works. This can change, though, if you want it to.

I'm just tired of feeling judged. I am tired of the guilt. I don't think humans should live without morals but I just think if I can't get a second chance then who needs God then. Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

Guilt and shame are exhausting. But sin is soul-destroying. If you'll learn to walk rightly with God, the burden of guilt can be relieved and the destruction your life is suffering can cease. Jesus offers to us peace and rest, not constant shame and endless wrestling with sin; he invites us into joyful, holy fellowship with himself, not the staggering, sin-fouled life you've described.

Matthew 11:28-30
28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

Psalm 16:11
11 You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

Revelation 3:20
20 Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.

 

[miamited]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity.

Hi alex101

Ok, so don't be a christian. God loves you and wants you to live as He has asked you to live, but I think the Scriptures are quite clear that most of us won't. You can be a part of that group. Honestly, with the question that you're asking, I would question whether you ever were a part of the righteous group.

But... if you want to live a life of satisfaction in who you are in Jesus. If you want to live a life that honors your Creator and thereby take hold of the covenant that He makes with all of those who love Him and honor the work and sacrifice of His Son, then you've got to change your life. That's all there is to it. It's simple in the words, but can be very, very tough in the living out. Especially for those who are caught by the sin which so easily entangles all of us, given the opportunity.

God's word says that we should renew ourselves by the washing of our minds with His word. I suggest starting with the gospel accounts. Really taking hold of who Jesus is and what he has done for you. He died!! He willingly gave his life in the place of yours that you might have eternal life. But yes, it's a life long commitment that at times can be tough to will ourselves to do the right thing. This, I believe, is why the Scriptures tell us to renew our minds with the washing of God's word. When you are tempted to follow some evil, take out your Scriptures and read all about what Jesus has done for you that you might have eternal life.

 

[Tenchi]

alex101, be very wary of any Christian who paints a picture of walking with God that is full of effort, and struggle, and trying really hard. They don't understand how to actually walk with God. Life is difficult, yes, it has many lumps and bumps that it'll give to us. But the business of actually walking with God and living His way by His power is not strenuous but joyful and powerful! Instead of the tough and arduous road some believers think is Christian living, here's what God offers to us in our fellowship with Him:

Psalm 36:7-9
7 How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God! And the children of men take refuge in the shadow of Your wings.
8 They drink their fill of the abundance of Your house; And You give them to drink of the river of Your delights.
9 For with You is the fountain of life; In Your light we see light.

Psalm 16:11
11 You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forever.

Isaiah 40:28-31
28 Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable.
29 He gives strength to the weary, And to him who lacks might He increases power.
30 Though youths grow weary and tired, And vigorous young men stumble badly,
31 Yet those who wait for the LORD Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles, They will run and not get tired, They will walk and not become weary.

Matthew 11:28-30
28 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”

 

[tdidymas]

So this morning I told God I give up on Christianity. There was a time when I wanted nothing more then to be a Biblical scholar, a prayer warrior, and proverbs 31 woman. I had gotten out of a relationship with a Satanist and I was heavily demonized. I turned to prayer, fasting, and Chris Lasala's ministry BDS for deliverance. Unfortunately after being set free I could not break my addiction to sex and a few years later my ex and I, although physically separated, continued to be sexually intimate in the spirit (I think he accomplishes this through astral projection). He knows that I don't condone sex outside of marriage or multiple partners but he doesnt care. Our relationship started with date rape and I have not cultivated the ability or the willpower to deny him when I feel these strong energies take over. Even when I was delivered and working out my salvation with fear and trembling my enthusiasm for Jesus was heavily dampened by a toxic and abusive family situation. I was usually passive and graduated college to make my family proud but as I grew up I began processing my true feelings and started acting rebellious. I assaulted someone (twice), I smoked, I masturbated, I took shrooms, and smoked Marijuana. Luckily despite all my behaviors I did not get redemonized. After getting out of jail, despite every honest attempt to get my life together, I ended up on the streets for the first time in my life. I went to Path of Life Ministries shelter and I couldn't believe my eyes. It seemed like a path of death. Trash, encampments, pollution, prostitution, drug use. I had to learn after many days camped out on the sidewalk in extreme weather that I was not even allowed to rest my head for a night because I was not a registered local. I don't know whether to consider myself fortunate or not because at the moments when I felt pushed to my limits and scared for my life I was rescued by three strangers on separate occasions. One allowed me to sleep in his car. Another allowed me to sleep in his tent for a few days (and helped me get clean clothes). The other spent the night with me under blankets on the streets to keep me safe. We bonded as friends and it was understood that sex would be involved. I felt I had no choice because when you are on the streets alone as a female you are at risk for so much worse then casual sex with a male friend. It was more kindness then my own family extended to me during my desperate time of need. I was able to get a ride to a much better shelter and of course nothing is simple. Despite being sober I have been getting symptoms of heavy drug use (or withdrawal?) as well as this dark energy that makes me feel sick all over. Heavy nausea, unexplained migraines, emotional turbulence. I suspect it could be that I am "one flesh" after these casual and regretful interactions. Meaning, I am bound to more then one man spiritually and physically. BDS said they would not pray for me again if I continued to sin. I know in the Bible it says if you sin after being set free there is no more mercy left. As it is its a crowded shelter and I can barely get any alone time with God. I am also dealing with viscous attacks from the enemy each time I pray. So I told God I give up. I gave it a good shot but I just think being a disciplined Christian from a decent background is a luxury I never had in life. I'm just tired of feeling judged. I am tired of the guilt. I don't think humans should live without morals but I just think if I can't get a second chance then who needs God then. Can you guys tell me if I am doomed?

We all have struggles, but in my view the greatest struggle is to believe in Christ. Believing God and the words of Jesus is the foundation of relationship with God, and it's not an instant fix. You need a long-term vision of life, always moving toward God first in thoughts and then actions.

The angel said to Joseph about the Christ child: "you shall call His name Jesus, for He shall save His people from their sins." Notice it says "He shall save..." - it is Jesus who saves us. We don't save ourselves. This doesn't mean we don't struggle to overcome sin, because we do. "This is what overcomes the world, even our faith" (in 1 John 5). So the greatest aim we have is to believe in Jesus.

1 Pet. 2:25 says, "[Jesus] bore our sins in His body on the cross, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness, for by His wounds we are healed." So here again, the main aim is to trust that Jesus takes our sin away. Then we must love other people as Jesus commanded, as we believe He enables us to love others. Love comes from God, so we have to believe in His love so we can share it with others. This is the behavior that fulfills the law and shows that we are righteous with God.

Therefore, you have to assume that you are already righteous of spirit because of Jesus, even though many of your thoughts need transformation to believe in Jesus. Prov. 3:5-6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths." It's a matter of trusting God to guide you through your life.

Therefore, get rid of the doubt and unbelief of telling God you're through. Just be through with trying to save yourself, and start looking to God for guidance and power to live for Him.