Hello sister. I have pain in my life also. I seldomly talk to my family. They have different fervent beliefs. I study sound doctrine and repent every day. I can't compromise my values and beliefs. Unfortunately, I keep distance from them. 1 Corinthians chapter 5. I wrote you not to associate with anyone so called brother if he is immoral person, or covetness, or idolater, or revilier or drunkards or swindler. Philippians 4:7. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. We have Jesus to fill that void in our lives. We know Jesus is merciful God and loves us. All peace comes from God. I hope this helps you. Peace.