[__ Prayer __] "laughing stock of ()!"

[Christ_empowered]

yeah..still being taunted. I'm getting better at dealing with it, honestly. God is Love.

its just...strange. 7 years into my (imperfect) walk with Christ, I've been made: healthy, normal, bright, etc...this -following- repentance, which I think was (and is) a blessing from God...its one reason I lean towards calvinism (I acknowledge that I'm just basing it on my own salvation experience, so...yeah...there's that...). Anyway...

i was a sickly, weird tween and teen, graduated HS at the tail end of 16, messed up --mightily-- , ended up on the receiving end of some serious (involuntary) shock treatments, psych labels, etc...

(predictable) downward spiral, and...now...

I'm 1 year into living in a modest, yet comfortable place, on good terms with my -amazing- parents, etc., and...

'haha! he's the Laughing stock of (former zip code)," etc. its odd because no one talks -to- or -with- me about the taunting, bullying, etc., which just adds to this strange sense of...is it a dream, of sorts? its not, because I remember neighbors -yelling- at me..... here where I live now, somebody left doggy excrement out front (I'm not anywhere near where people walk their dogs, btw), and there have been times in the past when people would dress me down in public, etc., so...

real. it is real. but the counselor and the psych act like its not, or I "misunderstand things," etc. blah. so, I don't talk about it. and its strange, to be a "laughing stock" when I don't live there, now, and I don't live in bondage, oppression, misery, etc. now, either...because of The Lord's work in my life. and so...

yeah. yeah. just a bizarre situation, kinda feels like a psychiatric experiment, which is not funny because....a lot of this happened and is still happening because I'm regarded as an 'uppity mental patient,' blah blah blah...I just wanted some basic human dignity and freedoms, that's all...

blah. oh, and sometimes, when people taunt me, they'll say 'we'll find you -wherever you go- ,' which sounds like paranoid schizophrenia talk, but...no, i can tell my thoughts looping vs people taunting, talking...its real. blah. :-(


just...think of me, in prayer. thanks.

 

[Luminous_Rose]

Sorry to hear. Will keep you in prayer =)

 

[HeIsRisen2018]

Done. Lots of prayers, hugs, and Christian love headed your way,... incoming!

 

[Christ_empowered]

thanks

i just get...frustrated. blah.

 

[HeIsRisen2018]

thanks

i just get...frustrated. blah.

Don't we all? But when things start getting out of place it always helps to just put a smile on your face. Like this.

 

[daninthelionsden]

Things I have learned about disability and what was done to me in Texas. I learned about what bumping a lock is and that over 90% of the locks on doors are very vulnerable to being bumped. Also bumping a lock repeatedly, damages the locks tumblers. I learned to avoid restaurants because it places you at the mercy of the staff. I learned to only order the EXACT items my wife ordered or we order family sizes meals to reduce the chances of food tampering. I learned how to tell if a base phone with multiple handsets was tapped. I learned what a keystroke recorder is. I learned what DDOSSing a computer is. I learned to watch people closely and study behavior patterns that are out of normal. I learned to never answer my phone unless I know who it is. (Since living here in Hawai'i I have blocked over 60 different numbers who have tried calling me. I have learned what a switch number is. I don't answer even the door unless I have a good idea who it is. In Houston, I never answered the door towards the end of our time there. The pscho-babblers call anyone catching on to the psyche-war being waged on them to be suffering from "Truman Show Syndrome. This is an effort to get you to doubt your own perceptions of reality.

 

[Christ_empowered]

wow. i guess it really is 'nothing personal,' which is what some bullies/mockers/taunters would say...

ugh. what great fun. lol. maybe one day i'll be more independent and such...

and i'll be able to --move-- , this time permanently.

 

[daninthelionsden]

wow. i guess it really is 'nothing personal,' which is what some bullies/mockers/taunters would say...

ugh. what great fun. lol. maybe one day i'll be more independent and such...

and i'll be able to --move-- , this time permanently.

Did you know that YOU were the inspiration for me to continue writing my Christmas fantasy story? I had incredible writer's block unto I read of all the progress you made. It was such an inspiring thing to hear how far you've come that I just kept pushing until the story flowed and now I'm just a few days from finishing this chapter. So thank you CE for sharing with us your incredible story. I do think you have a gift of helping others.

 

[Christ_empowered]

that means a lot to me.

i do think ive made a lot of progress, in Christ. its just...sometimes, the mental health, inc. people seem to actively work against me, which...i don't understand, at all.

glad to know God's work in my life uplifts and encourages you.