Hi everyone,
I've not been here for quite a few months and I think this thread is the best place to explain why. Well I've stopped going to church, altogether now and it's almost a year, how time flies when your having fun lol. Anyway I was told some of the people in church were afraid of me just in case I put curses and so forth on them. Don't they realise how hard it was to keep away from the temptation of everything, and my time was spent on keeping away from these things rather than doing stuff to christians lol. I was also told from the leaders of the church that I was still within the craft even though I wasn't but they wouldn't listen, they just listened to their friends who wanted me out but it's their karma they have to live with not mine.
Since leaving the church, I have now started up with my friends again, oh and by the way I kept away from them while I was going and didn't enter into anything that they were doing, even though I was invited to many things. I did find it really hard but the church has really let me down and now I'm not sure if I really believed in everything anyway, so here I am questioning everything again. Maybe it's the hurt I've gone through and everything else with the lack of trust and also the little groups that the church has, where people accuse you without evidence, I don't know. This has really destroyed my trust in christians here where I live and I've told them I'll never return as they have done too much damage now and it can't be reversed.
I have been watching something which in on the tv here in the UK Big Brother though, there is a evengelist within the house and yes he's driven me up the wall lol. I'm not against him, he's just getting under my skin and I'm now watching it to see what he's going to say to the housemates next. His name is Stephen Baldwin and I do think he's a ok guy with a heart for the young but he's also quite funny with it. I hope he does last til the end as I'm enjoying the debates he's having and also the talks he's having so it's something I didn't expect even from this guy.
I'm also not against and christian it's just that I've took time to think things through on what I think I believe and I've still not come to any real decission yet and I thought I'd say hello again.
I'll be seeing you in here every so often.
Lisa
