[__ Prayer __] more neighborhood mischief

[Christ_empowered]

OK. So, there was a break for me there for a week or so...the neighbors left me alone.

They're back at it. "Federal warrants!," all that. I have a good attorney, so I kinda think if there were federal charges, I'd be in jail and/or notified by now.

I heard one dude next door say "He's gonna kill himself when we get through with him."

I got my ex-shrinks in trouble. This is why this is happening. That and Jesus has seen fit to do wonderful things in my life, and that makes people around here mad. I used to think it was the men, but no...its pretty much all the people around here who despised me, which would be...everybody, lol.

To complicate things, they'll find me if I move. I have to stay in-county for probation and to stay close to my parents. Despite the HIPPAA laws, its easy to target people, especially with mental health stuff. Now, people in my neighborhood have me info, and they'll definitely spread my information. They "keep tabs" on me, you know?

I know this sounds paranoid, but trust me: I was labeled a "trouble maker" and treated accordingly. I was given heavy, involuntary ECT at 20 and 23. My eyes went dead at 20 from the torment and I was given high dose antidepressants. At 23, I tried to go back to school. I was driven mad and given more ECT.

Trouble maker. I was a 20 year old Rx amphetamines and Rx downers addict who mouthed off to my shrink. I was given access to so many sleeping pills (Restoril) that I OD'd and wet the bed. I should have been sent to a hospital, but they just let me wallow in my filth. That same shrink has been after me ever since.

Trouble maker. I know this sounds crazy, but sometimes I suspect more than ECT. My symptoms until recently line up a little too perfectly with "post-lobotomy syndrome." Childish, apathetic, inertia, lack of social skills. For a good 2.5 years there, I didn't even dream at night. Could just be really, really heavy ECT...

Anyway, pray for me and my family, please

 

[Eugene]

Praying for you brother. Not dreaming resembles schizophrenic symptoms. I would suggest that until you're sure of purposeful and malicious behavior backed up by audio and recorded, make sure your parents are aware of your analysis and agree with you. Our past can taunt us endlessly, and your's seem to have that effect; don't allow them to daunt your hopes for a new beginning.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Thanks, Eugene. I'm trying hard to put the past behind me. Part of the problem is that I have too much time on my hands. Classes for me don't start until the 18th. Microeconomics, here I come!

I've written a couple short stories. Depressing. Short stories lend themselves well to melancholy, for some reason.

Thanks again for your insight.

 

[GrannyJ]

Apparently Vit B6 deficiency can also cause lack of dreams, and various mental health symptoms. And stress can cause Vit b6 deficiency. Is it worth being checked out by a holistic doctor?

You are always in my prayers. You have come so far, and I'm sure God has an awesome plan for your life. Just hold on to the fact that if He loved you enough to die for you, He is certainly not going to fail you, ever. You will get through it. Just as King David was surrounded by enemies and treacherous people, yet won through to fulfill God's purpose, so will you.

 

[Eugene]

Thanks, Eugene. I'm trying hard to put the past behind me. Part of the problem is that I have too much time on my hands. Classes for me don't start until the 18th. Microeconomics, here I come!

I've written a couple short stories. Depressing. Short stories lend themselves well to melancholy, for some reason.

Thanks again for your insight.

That's great. Becoming involved will establish a pattern toward a healthy mind. There is an old cliché: "An idle mind is the devils playground." Take a look sometime at older people that are retired, have absolutely nothing to do, and they go around mumbling to themselves. Well, not all the time; some that I think have gone off the deep end are actually talking on a cell phone.

 

[Angel]

I wish I could give your harassers a big kick in the pants!!! Satan see's God's work in you and he is trying hard to take you down. Your sins are forgiven! You are a new creature! You are born again! Death over you has no sting. The devil roams around like a lion, trying to break you. But God is for you. God is fighting for you. (Even if you don't see it) We are praying over you,and I am positive that it is warfare- God blessing and protecting you. You have a special place in my heart, Christ_empowered. I will always keep you in my prayers. Keep us updated on how you are doing so we can keep current with your prayer requests.
Love,
Angel.

 

[Edward]

Want to really make them mad? When they say you have a federal warrant, or some such, say...and yet, here I am walking around! and laugh at them.

Or act depressed and walk up to them and ask if you can borrow some rope, lol. Pretty soon no one in the neighborhood will own rope, you'll have it all!

So you're despised by the entire neighborhood. So what? Scripture says you will be, because they despised Jesus first. Rejoice in that brother, you'll have your day when the Lord comes. Keep praying.

 

[Christ_empowered]

Yeah...I just gotta brush it off...I'm trying, lol. When I'm out on the front porch (yes, I'm *STILL* smoking, ugh) I use my MP3 player.

 

[Edward]

Yea, if you start laughing at them, having brushed it off, it wont be fun for them anymore to pick on you. They're just trying to get a rise out of you. There's a huge amount of freedom which comes to you, when you take nothing personally. :wink