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[__ Prayer __] My Health

DarkWalker

DarkWalker

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I have struggled recently with side effects from my medication, as well as the inefficacy of my medication. It feels as though I'm forced to deal with an upset stomach for little or no benefit. Additionally, I have been suffering hallucinations and paranoia that I am only able to combat with God-given logic. My emotions have been all over the place, and my mind wanders where it should not--especially in regard to lust. I want to go back to school for a class this August, but in my current condition, I'd be constantly absent because of my sour stomach, and on the days when I could attend, my attention would be sporadic at best.

I need:
* a church home to keep me spiritually grounded.
* a doctor who knows what they're doing when it comes to my medication.
* Christian Brothers I can relate to and speak to in person.
* better health to focus on my ambitions.
* wisdom in a friendship I have begun with a woman, so that I will not expect more than friendship, and so I will respect her as my Sister in Christ.
 
DarkWalker said:
I have struggled recently with side effects from my medication, as well as the inefficacy of my medication. It feels as though I'm forced to deal with an upset stomach for little or no benefit. Additionally, I have been suffering hallucinations and paranoia that I am only able to combat with God-given logic. My emotions have been all over the place, and my mind wanders where it should not--especially in regard to lust. I want to go back to school for a class this August, but in my current condition, I'd be constantly absent because of my sour stomach, and on the days when I could attend, my attention would be sporadic at best.

I need:
* a church home to keep me spiritually grounded.
* a doctor who knows what they're doing when it comes to my medication.
* Christian Brothers I can relate to and speak to in person.
* better health to focus on my ambitions.
* wisdom in a friendship I have begun with a woman, so that I will not expect more than friendship, and so I will respect her as my Sister in Christ.
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Have you ever been diagnosed with a mental illness?
 
DarkWalker said:
I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder and PTSD. I also have spina bifida (a birth defect) and executive function disorder (a learning disability).
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You say you have been "diagnosed".Then you have a doctor?I don't know what kind of insurance you have but have you seen a psychiatrist?You have to make sure that you are on the right medications and the right dosages for you.
 
Kathi said:
You say you have been "diagnosed".Then you have a doctor?I don't know what kind of insurance you have but have you seen a psychiatrist?You have to make sure that you are on the right medications and the right dosages for you.
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I do have insurance, and a doctor, and a therapist, and a psychiatrist. I do not trust my current psychiatrist, but the paperwork involved in transferring to a new psychiatrist makes the process slow. I am currently on what is apparently the wrong dosage and/or medication. My appointment is in about two weeks; I can't get appointments that are any closer than a month apart, sometimes.
 
DarkWalker said:
I do have insurance, and a doctor, and a therapist, and a psychiatrist. I do not trust my current psychiatrist, but the paperwork involved in transferring to a new psychiatrist makes the process slow. I am currently on what is apparently the wrong dosage and/or medication. My appointment is in about two weeks; I can't get appointments that are any closer than a month apart, sometimes.
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Well,that is good that you have medical people who are following you.
 
Kathi said:
Well,that is good that you have medical people who are following you.
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I am blessed in that my therapist is a Christian (a happy coincidence coordinated by the Almighty). I do not know about my doctor or psychiatrist, but they are more focused on symptoms, whereas my therapist wants to know my heart and thoughts. It is much easier to talk to a Christian about such things than it is a non-Christian; my therapist when I was hospitalized in May was not a Christian, but tried to give me dating advice for my social life. I spent 90% of the time thinking, "I don't do that. I won't do that. Only with my wife. Nope, not happening. I don't get drunk anymore."
 
Dear Father, You alone know the problems, and the cure for this dear brother in Christ. Please meet his need with the grace he needs to walk in wellness and praise all the days of his life. I ask this in the blessed name of our Savior Jesus. Amen.
 
Praying for you.
Maybe it helps knowing you are not alone: I recently got on anti-depressants to help me with my extreme mood swings and aggression (Borderline Personality Disorder) that were causing huge amounts of stress to me and people around me. I'd been taking the same meds a few years ago and they used to help me without causing too many side effects, so I felt okay with asking my primary care doctor for a prescription without consulting a psychiatrist. This time, about five weeks ago, everything seemed to go well again. Within two weeks I turned into an emotionally stable, confident, people loving happy energetic person, only issue I had was an increased need for sleep. It was amazing, I finally felt like being myself!!
But then, two weeks ago, I suddenly started having an upset stomach and diarrhea. I couldn't eat, and what I did eat didn't get digested. So I've basically been living of glucose candy and electrolyte solution for two weeks and predictably my work performance and overall well-being got worse with every day. My boss sent my home on wednesday because he noticed I couldn't handle my work. Thursday I couldn't even walk 100 meters without feeling dizzy and having to sit down and rest.
I consulted my doctor and had to bring her samples of ... uhm.. you don't wanna know..., still waiting for results. But on internet research I figured out that my symptoms don't match the most common causes (infections, food poisoning, food intolerances and so on) of those problems, so the most likely cause are my anti-depressants. So I got off of them cold turkey, thankfully after only a few weeks of taking them I didn't experience withdrawal symptoms, or maybe I was feeling so bad already I didn't notice them. Slowly I'm getting better. I managed to eat almost 1500 calories yesterday and actually felt hungry this morning. Walked the two kilometers uphill road home after church today and didn't need to pause.
But my mood swings are back.
It's so sad, finally having found relief from the emotional pain I was going through, only to have the relief taken away from me shortly afterwards. It's so frustrating. Getting a short taste of how awesome things could be, but then life just decides to say: Haha, not going to happen.
Seems I will have to try a lower dose or see a psychiatrist.

So I can sympathise with what you are going through, only that your medication probably has a lot heavier side effects. Maybe you can manage the upset stomach with the help of the right nutrition and a healthy lifestyle, or other medication. Or maybe you will be lucky and the side effects may subside (if you only recently started taking those meds or had a dosage change your issues may be transitional and the main effect will build up within the next weeks. Anyway, changing doctors is a good idea if you don't trust the one you are seeing.
Seems the American health care provider system is a bit difficult to handle, but I pray you will eventually get the help you need.
 
DarkWalker said:
I need:
* a church home to keep me spiritually grounded.
* a doctor who knows what they're doing when it comes to my medication.
* Christian Brothers I can relate to and speak to in person.
* better health to focus on my ambitions.
* wisdom in a friendship I have begun with a woman, so that I will not expect more than friendship, and so I will respect her as my Sister in Christ.
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Your needs have been met, and my prayer for you DW, is that you might see Gods blessings for your needs.

The church is here, all around you. It is the body of Christ in the world today. You have Christian brothers and sisters.....do not focus on your ambitions. Focus on Gods will. Let that be your ambition. He has a plan for you; for your life that is far better than the plan you have for yourself.

Sometime the hardest thing we have to do is to be still and listen.
 
Thank you all for your prayers. Danus , it can be very hard for me to be still and listen. You have given me many ideas to consider. Thank you.
 
Praying for you, especially that you will get the right meds, as many other things will resolve themselves when you feel better.
 
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