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WLDgirl4ever
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Hi my name is Kayanna and i am 23 years old. I am a christian women wanting to be involved in full time ministry of some kind, just not completly sure which mission field God wants for me. I am plannig on my second trip to Baguio City, Philippines possibly in December of this year for a couple months. I know i am being lead to work with the young people mostly girls school-aged to young adults it is in what way. you see i have been a camp conselor for well now going on 4 years. i could see myself going in the field of camp ministry but i also feel like i need to do overseas missions as well. one hard thing for me right now is trying to figure out how to do full time ministry and being a lesbian. I never want my sexuality to be the focus or anything but i know it is something that will be an issue and i do not know how to deal with it. I am a Christian first and foremost and it is the most important thing top me but i am not going to act like who i might be with one day will not be a factor in jobs or opportunities i may get. I would not mind working with young people on this issue once i am comfortable with it. i am not there yet, i just came out to my family and close friends in early 2008. it was not as hard as i thought it would be.
They definently for were not expecting it and two not comfortable at all with the idea but they still love me. I do have alot of support in the Presbyterian church i attended when i lived in Indiana. They told me that it is no big deal and that God still wants to use me and he planned this path for me. Also my pasto here in PA is supportive and told me that if one day i found a woman i wanted to " marry" and God was the focus and that we allow Him to be in every part of our marriage he would do a cermony for us. who knows if that will happen or not. i am not even worring about that i am single and able to focus more on what God is leading me to next. I have had alot of hard times in my life and it caused me to be in the hospital for four months last year. some of the issues had to deal with molestation,sexual assault, Family isssues and my background (things i did or had done to me) and just general depression. God brought me through all it when it happened by putting some awesome people i my life at just the right time. I just had not let it all go, so it came back at me. i am just fine now, i am stronger because of these battles and i am ready to get back out there and help those who God puts in my path. I really have a true passion for Kids, teens and young adults and i hope i will be able to talk to you all about it and learn about yours too.
They definently for were not expecting it and two not comfortable at all with the idea but they still love me. I do have alot of support in the Presbyterian church i attended when i lived in Indiana. They told me that it is no big deal and that God still wants to use me and he planned this path for me. Also my pasto here in PA is supportive and told me that if one day i found a woman i wanted to " marry" and God was the focus and that we allow Him to be in every part of our marriage he would do a cermony for us. who knows if that will happen or not. i am not even worring about that i am single and able to focus more on what God is leading me to next. I have had alot of hard times in my life and it caused me to be in the hospital for four months last year. some of the issues had to deal with molestation,sexual assault, Family isssues and my background (things i did or had done to me) and just general depression. God brought me through all it when it happened by putting some awesome people i my life at just the right time. I just had not let it all go, so it came back at me. i am just fine now, i am stronger because of these battles and i am ready to get back out there and help those who God puts in my path. I really have a true passion for Kids, teens and young adults and i hope i will be able to talk to you all about it and learn about yours too.
