calistatang said:
I'm 16. I keep feeling like God wants me to go for mission trips. But somehow, I feel like I can't. I'm not good in praying, not good in the bible, not good in many many aspect. Also, i can't tolerate dirty places. If I go for mission trip, I dont know how am I going to survive.
Please pray for me. Or if there is any advice for anything, I would be happy to hear from you.
God bless
I cant tell you what God is actually saying to you, but what I can tell you without reservation is that *IF* God is calling you into some direction then you can trust Him without question.
He sent me in a direction in 2004 that literally put my life in danger because of my medical condition and the rarity of my disease. I moved 500 miles away into a place where I couldnt even get a doctor to take my blood pressure because of insurance issues...no one wanted to take the risk. I cant even find a dentist willing to risk it.
The bad part is that i have frequent smaller attacks that can end up in horrible ones like the one that nearly killed me in 2001.
So I left completely alone and moved because God was leading me to do so. It was the one time in my life where I had to just tell Him I trusted Him and go.
Yes it was scary. I woke up in panic attacks for probably about 6 months or so when I first moved.
Id grab my phone and be ready to dial my uncle who I knew would come and get me, even tho it was a long trip, but I was where God had directed me.
Now, it was no mission field, but you have to understand that for me in that position it was dangerous to say the least. One innocent trip to the hospital and being given something as simple and generic as Benadryl can be the death of me. This disease can hit so fast and so hard that its hard to know what to do if it does, and very few doctors know what NOT to do...which is basically EVERYTHING they would typically do in an emergency situation. The normal rules dont apply because I react negatively to most of the usual drugs and medicines they would give without knowing better. Shoot, *I* dont even really know everything that will harm me. So many household products are lethal that its annoying even going to the store to buy household cleaning products. I was down 4 days one time because I put on a little hairspray.
I say all this to show you the danger I could have been in, especially so far away from everyone (I moved entirely alone to a place Id never lived and had only visited twice) who knew how to help if something went horribly wrong.
But I trusted God. And He took care of me. He took fantastic care of me the entire 4 years I was up there.
If Hes calling you there, you have no fears and will never regret going
