Christ_empowered
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Clearly, Jesus loves "The least of these," as evidenced by His work in my life. I started out as a 120 IQ "loser" who (apparently...) "didn't know his PLACE," I was destroyed (sin+satan+self+death+the world), and then I was a weakling, big time. And now...
A bit over 5 years into my Walk with The Lord, I"m remarkably....normal. whole, real, etc...and normal. Not "gender non-conforming" (read: flamer), not prematurely aged, sick or sickly, I"m not even short or ugly. And...
I Praise God for His goodness! I also ask for His perfect will for my life. I honestly do -not- know where to go from here. I'm living with my (now, fairly recently) "well-to-do" parents. Mama's retired (Praise God!), I think dad's thinking about 4, 5 more years in his job. And then? I don't know. I cannot complain...I receive disability for "severe mental illness" and my parents also take good care of me. Nothing fancy, nothing lavish, but I live more comfortably, better than probably 99.xyz% of "mental patients," which raises the obvious question: what's with psychiatry? If "treatment" is so helpful and everything, why do most of the "severely mentally ill" end up living in poverty, dying younger than "normal" controls, and why is the suicide rate in Bipolar I and Schizophrenia so high? Is it the "illness," is it "treatment," is it society? I dunno, honestly.
I just...I'd like to work, but if I work I might lose disability. If I lose disability and lose the job, then I'd be totally dependent on my parents, again. If I continue not working and receiving disability, then I'll be spared the pressure of a job, but then I'll just get older, with less and less probability of ever getting into a job. God is good! As "Schizophrenics" go, I live comfortably, in safety, and I Have a lot of freedom. I've even managed to grow up a whole lot since getting saved, and that alone is something of a miracle.
Know Jesus, Know Change. I saw that on a bumper sticker once, before my so-called "spiritual awakening" (its what shrinks call it when Jesus saves somebody, apparently). And...its true, isn't it? "You must die to be born again." I'm thankful.
OK. Thanks, as always, for reading. Replies, prayers, etc....always appreciated.
A bit over 5 years into my Walk with The Lord, I"m remarkably....normal. whole, real, etc...and normal. Not "gender non-conforming" (read: flamer), not prematurely aged, sick or sickly, I"m not even short or ugly. And...
I Praise God for His goodness! I also ask for His perfect will for my life. I honestly do -not- know where to go from here. I'm living with my (now, fairly recently) "well-to-do" parents. Mama's retired (Praise God!), I think dad's thinking about 4, 5 more years in his job. And then? I don't know. I cannot complain...I receive disability for "severe mental illness" and my parents also take good care of me. Nothing fancy, nothing lavish, but I live more comfortably, better than probably 99.xyz% of "mental patients," which raises the obvious question: what's with psychiatry? If "treatment" is so helpful and everything, why do most of the "severely mentally ill" end up living in poverty, dying younger than "normal" controls, and why is the suicide rate in Bipolar I and Schizophrenia so high? Is it the "illness," is it "treatment," is it society? I dunno, honestly.
I just...I'd like to work, but if I work I might lose disability. If I lose disability and lose the job, then I'd be totally dependent on my parents, again. If I continue not working and receiving disability, then I'll be spared the pressure of a job, but then I'll just get older, with less and less probability of ever getting into a job. God is good! As "Schizophrenics" go, I live comfortably, in safety, and I Have a lot of freedom. I've even managed to grow up a whole lot since getting saved, and that alone is something of a miracle.
Know Jesus, Know Change. I saw that on a bumper sticker once, before my so-called "spiritual awakening" (its what shrinks call it when Jesus saves somebody, apparently). And...its true, isn't it? "You must die to be born again." I'm thankful.
OK. Thanks, as always, for reading. Replies, prayers, etc....always appreciated.
