My parents and I no longer speak to one another. I have recently made two to three attempts to try to mend some of the damage that was done on my part to recieve the cold shoulder all three times. So, I have come to feel in my heart that unless I beg for forgiveness....there will be no hope of a relationship. Even....if I did do this....there is no garauntee that my parents would express anything towards me.
I do not hear from them. My younger siblings are not of age where they can drive to see me. So I hear from two of them on facebook. Otherwise my younger sister that I once provided respite care for, I do not hear from at all.
My father resents me, speaks illy of me, and more or less has made it hard for me to truly want a relationship with him as he not only threatened to call CYFD on me out of spite....but from what I have come to understand continues to speak illy of me to my siblings that still live with him within his home.
My mother.....analyzes me...my husband, and my son. She is always looking for something wrong with us. In addition, she tells one of my older siblings whom I talk with and visit with often...that she wants me to call more often. Yet....the first time I called my mother said to me "Is there a purpose to this call?" Since then she has basically been asking things of me so as to find dirt on me...or at least make me feel this way. My mother has otherwise given excuse after excuse for my father's behavior......and made me feel like the only one they believe to be at fault at all for our falling out is myself and my husband.......
I just do not see light at the end of this tunnel. While I know my original relationship before our falling out with my parents was not healthy for me....I did no want it to come to this. So I am having a hard time adjusting to the fact I do not have a family anymore......
I do not hear from them. My younger siblings are not of age where they can drive to see me. So I hear from two of them on facebook. Otherwise my younger sister that I once provided respite care for, I do not hear from at all.
My father resents me, speaks illy of me, and more or less has made it hard for me to truly want a relationship with him as he not only threatened to call CYFD on me out of spite....but from what I have come to understand continues to speak illy of me to my siblings that still live with him within his home.
My mother.....analyzes me...my husband, and my son. She is always looking for something wrong with us. In addition, she tells one of my older siblings whom I talk with and visit with often...that she wants me to call more often. Yet....the first time I called my mother said to me "Is there a purpose to this call?" Since then she has basically been asking things of me so as to find dirt on me...or at least make me feel this way. My mother has otherwise given excuse after excuse for my father's behavior......and made me feel like the only one they believe to be at fault at all for our falling out is myself and my husband.......
I just do not see light at the end of this tunnel. While I know my original relationship before our falling out with my parents was not healthy for me....I did no want it to come to this. So I am having a hard time adjusting to the fact I do not have a family anymore......
