I'm at a point in my life where I have offered others advice, support, prayer, etc, that I feel so alone when I am struggling with things. Sometimes I wonder, if God punishes me for being human (if that makes sense), for having negative thoughts, for getting jealous, for being too anxious.
I honestly don't know what my purpose in life is. My fear is to grow old and look back on my life as a disappointment. My job is what it is . .. a job, and I feel stuck with no where to turn. I feel as though I gave up my dreams a long time ago becuase I had to take care of my family and other obligations and now I'm lost. Then I wonder if God gets angry at me when I complain, or wish that I could have a different life, or do something different--or why are others given better opportunities than myself.
Lately, I have been really depressed and I'm not sure how to get out of this funk. Have I fallen out of favor with God because of my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions? Does God feel that I am not being grateful or content with what I do have and I won't be blessed until I show my gratitude towards him?
I honestly don't know what my purpose in life is. My fear is to grow old and look back on my life as a disappointment. My job is what it is . .. a job, and I feel stuck with no where to turn. I feel as though I gave up my dreams a long time ago becuase I had to take care of my family and other obligations and now I'm lost. Then I wonder if God gets angry at me when I complain, or wish that I could have a different life, or do something different--or why are others given better opportunities than myself.
Lately, I have been really depressed and I'm not sure how to get out of this funk. Have I fallen out of favor with God because of my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions? Does God feel that I am not being grateful or content with what I do have and I won't be blessed until I show my gratitude towards him?