Hi all,
I would like to start out by saying that I recently began believing in God and Jesus again. I became an athiest about a year and 6 months ago.
I walked away from my faith because I was going through a lot of different things and seeing lots of my loved ones going through hard times as well. I couldn't make sense of it all. I loved God and Jesus with all my heart. I remember the first day I came to him. It was my choice to go to church and I was never forced to attend. I loved that feeling of feeling him around me. I was really depressed everyday and I just couldn't explain it, but I after that first day when I really felt him it felt like bad times were gone from my future. I pursued my religious studies with passion. Learning from the bible and just staying on track and focused with God. Throughout this whole time, I had my girlfriend by my side. We were both introduced to god around the same time and have been together since 8th grade and we are now in college.
Up until last year of my first year of college things just started to change. I started seeing bad things still happening to my loved ones. I just grew apart from God and I just walked away. Thats when I became an atheist. I started to read works from Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, etc..I started studying religions of the past and christianity seemed to follow their examples in story like Zoroastrianism, Judaism, egyptian gods. I just thought christianity seemed to be all a lie. But something just always stuck in my mind through this whole time, was I right in leaving God? There are many reasons then bad circumstances for me denying God, but I started to process things in my head.Also to add my girlfriend and I had started having problems and well as you can all imagine we had major differences in opinion. We finally broke up and well we didn't talk for awhile and we finally talked and I started to explain to her why I had left the church and religion. I spoke so negatively of religion and referring to it as a delusion and such. During the conversation somethings just stroke a cord in my head and it was not Christianity had failed me or Jesus, it was the fake christians that I was around and gave it a bad image. They preached the bible and said they loved Jesus, but they never followed it in their daily lives. It just seemed that they were devout at church. I realized they turned me away. It was one of my dissatisfactions with religion. So I was talking to my girlfriend I just said I want to give God a chance and to be a student of Jesus. She was really skeptical because she thought I was saying that only to be with her. I really feel God around me and want to learn from him. I don't know how to make her believe me. If any of you have heard the song Never be the same by Red, it kind of puts into words how i felt. I want to be with my girlfriend again and well I want to love Jesus too. I hear people all the time saying that we cannot do that because we are to young. Their reason being that I would put Jesus second and my relationship first. I don't feel that way however. I feel like I would be able to love Jesus and know hes top priority and be able to be in a relationship the same time. I put into practice what I learn from the bible and use that to strengthen my relationship.
I would very much appreciate some input on my situation. I'm sorry for the long text, but I didn't know how else to write it. I just want everything to be ok
I would like to start out by saying that I recently began believing in God and Jesus again. I became an athiest about a year and 6 months ago.
I walked away from my faith because I was going through a lot of different things and seeing lots of my loved ones going through hard times as well. I couldn't make sense of it all. I loved God and Jesus with all my heart. I remember the first day I came to him. It was my choice to go to church and I was never forced to attend. I loved that feeling of feeling him around me. I was really depressed everyday and I just couldn't explain it, but I after that first day when I really felt him it felt like bad times were gone from my future. I pursued my religious studies with passion. Learning from the bible and just staying on track and focused with God. Throughout this whole time, I had my girlfriend by my side. We were both introduced to god around the same time and have been together since 8th grade and we are now in college. Up until last year of my first year of college things just started to change. I started seeing bad things still happening to my loved ones. I just grew apart from God and I just walked away. Thats when I became an atheist. I started to read works from Richard Dawkins, Christopher Hitchens, etc..I started studying religions of the past and christianity seemed to follow their examples in story like Zoroastrianism, Judaism, egyptian gods. I just thought christianity seemed to be all a lie. But something just always stuck in my mind through this whole time, was I right in leaving God? There are many reasons then bad circumstances for me denying God, but I started to process things in my head.Also to add my girlfriend and I had started having problems and well as you can all imagine we had major differences in opinion. We finally broke up and well we didn't talk for awhile and we finally talked and I started to explain to her why I had left the church and religion. I spoke so negatively of religion and referring to it as a delusion and such. During the conversation somethings just stroke a cord in my head and it was not Christianity had failed me or Jesus, it was the fake christians that I was around and gave it a bad image. They preached the bible and said they loved Jesus, but they never followed it in their daily lives. It just seemed that they were devout at church. I realized they turned me away. It was one of my dissatisfactions with religion. So I was talking to my girlfriend I just said I want to give God a chance and to be a student of Jesus. She was really skeptical because she thought I was saying that only to be with her. I really feel God around me and want to learn from him. I don't know how to make her believe me. If any of you have heard the song Never be the same by Red, it kind of puts into words how i felt. I want to be with my girlfriend again and well I want to love Jesus too. I hear people all the time saying that we cannot do that because we are to young. Their reason being that I would put Jesus second and my relationship first. I don't feel that way however. I feel like I would be able to love Jesus and know hes top priority and be able to be in a relationship the same time. I put into practice what I learn from the bible and use that to strengthen my relationship.
I would very much appreciate some input on my situation. I'm sorry for the long text, but I didn't know how else to write it. I just want everything to be ok
