[__ Prayer __] Schizophrenia ugh 😑

[Christ_empowered]

Schizophrenia is a rough diagnosis in part because there’s so much over diagnosis and then some people with schizophrenia are diagnosed as other things and then…

Even when one has say a group of 100 people with schizophrenia labels that are valid there’s variation within the group. So…

I probably deal with what is best described as schizophrenia. Schizophrenic with severe depression…was once thought to be a fairly common form of schizophrenia. At some point the emphasis shifted to the psychotic aspect and the need to reduce stigma…

By pretending that schizophrenia is a non stop psychotic disorder caused by a mysterious brain disease. It varies widely among people with schizophrenia. I’m honestly thinking that because most people with schizophrenia don’t work and the minority who do work are often in lower paying jobs…

Psychiatry is not all that interested in our experiences. It’s…the real world or something. I dunno

So my affliction is on an upswing but not a severe one. I’m safe and calm and not a danger to anyone at all….

My issue is how frustrating this is honestly. I’m almost 40. My parents are my support network. To some extent an aunt is supportive…

Now that I don’t need to be in a group home or state hospital . Always a good thing…

Really good actually. When the trauma drama stops and I’m not in need of institutionalizing or anything…

Reality hits. Sobering. I probably should have more and better faith in Jesus Christ. No one deals with reality perfectly. My affliction is minor compared to what many deal with and even compared to what I dealt with in years past…

Frustrating. I pray for my parents my enemies and for faith hope and love.

Thank you

 

[citrus]

Praying

 

[Christ_empowered]

Side note

Just because you’re paranoid doesn’t mean they’re not out to get you. Hahaha or…

Maybe not so lol ?

I’m on effective dose of tranquilizer and…yeah…

I’ve experienced being driven out of small towns. A small city ? I dunno

I’m kinda confused

 

[Who Me]

Sounds like you could do with so eone to hang out with.

 

[Rory]

I too struggle with this. I've been diagnosed with multiple 'variants' of it by many specialists over the years, but in the end it is how you as person deal with 'it'.
Just because someone has put on label on you, doesn't mean you should live that way. Although your struggles won't go away, it might become more acceptable to forget the label and just... accept and live.

I will pray for you

 

[Marianne333]

Frustrating. I pray for my parents my enemies and for faith hope and love.

Thank you

Oh, that's beautiful. (how to pray for my enemies, lol) I will say a prayer for you

 

[Christ_empowered]

Me again

A relative died. It’s strange…parents were coming back from a trip and I was worried that they would die in a car crash. I made sure I had other relatives phone numbers and…

They came home safe and sound. And then a relative died in a car crash. Ugh

Please pray for my parents as they deal with this. It’s not that I don’t care it’s that I barely knew this particular relative so my primary concern is how my parents deal with this situation. I pray for that part of the extended family too…

I’m beginning to put my life into a broader perspective. I’m blessed in ways that offend many people’s sensibilities. Burn out overmedicated too much electroshock etc etc…

Now I’m healthy normal living a decent lifestyle and the schizophrenia label has worked for me in some ways by His grace. It wasn’t my intention but that’s how the cookie crumbles lol

Ok thanks

 

[citrus]

Praying

 

[Christ_empowered]

I have a serious..,class a…misdemeanor on my record. Far from ideal but it was a result of a plea bargain down from a felony so something of a miracle in my life. So…

People keep taunting me saying I have a felony and on and on and..,

I dunno the big difference seems to be that I’m technically not a felon and that’s important in my situation obviously.

The world is so cruel. I’m afraid of what will become of me after my parents pass on..,

But also thankful because I have a decent modest but comfortable life. The slander and ridicule is getting intense. Is it jealousy? General hatred?

I dunno

 

[citrus]

I have a serious..,class a…misdemeanor on my record. Far from ideal but it was a result of a plea bargain down from a felony so something of a miracle in my life. So…

People keep taunting me saying I have a felony and on and on and..,

I dunno the big difference seems to be that I’m technically not a felon and that’s important in my situation obviously.

The world is so cruel. I’m afraid of what will become of me after my parents pass on..,

But also thankful because I have a decent modest but comfortable life. The slander and ridicule is getting intense. Is it jealousy? General hatred?

I dunno

Why? What did you do?

 

[Christ_empowered]

It’s a long story. The original charges carried a maximum of 15 years in prison. I ended up with a class a misdemeanor which in my state carries a maximum of 3 years imprisonment. I was sentenced to probation and I completed probation in 3 years…