Shawn Attwood

[humble soul]

A British guy who spent 5 years in an Arizona prison. For selling drugs.
He tells some frightening stories about his experiences in jail. Enough for me to be well and truly scared stiff of ever ending up there myself.
Cockroaches
Heat
Skin disease/itching
Spiders/tarantulas
Using a toilet in front of other prisoners
Rape
Daily fear of your life
Brutality from everyone including guards

And so on

 

[humble soul]

Who needs the death penalty. When you got prisons like that. It's basically Hell on Earth.
Then there is the business side of it. Prisons are private so cost cuttling means your food will often be substandard.
I honestly think I would suicide. That's a stark admission. But I'm just way too soft. Too old to toughen up now.

 

[humble soul]

Oops did I say that? I'm a Christian. We aren't allowed to even have suicidal thoughts, are we?
Fortunately I think God knows how soft I am , so would never test me like that............would he?
He tested Job, ...dare I compare myself to such a noble figure in the Bible. Obviously I'm not in the same league so God will give me minor suffering like plantar fasciitis and sinusitis. Yeah I'm more suited to low level suffering.

 

[humble soul]

Shaun Attwood - Wikipedia

en.m.wikipedia.org

 

[jasonc]

my wife listens to him

 

[humble soul]

my wife listens to him

Interesting. He must have a lot of American fans too.

 

[jasonc]

Interesting. He must have a lot of American fans too.

annoying voice .

she leans opposite of me .she hates when I remind her of the problems she complains about ,tax issues with trump,also the liberal media has downsized and shipped call centers overseas and avoided taxes legally yet lambast trump over that .

my old job was at one of those ,no,local call center and the paper whare house are either om contract or gone,costs ,it costs ..

pot meet kettle ,new york times prints a paper here and charged over 6 bucks a day and pay up there nyt.

 

[Tessa]

God knows what we are capable of dealing with and will not give us more than we can bear.

 

[humble soul]

God knows what we are capable of dealing with and will not give us more than we can bear.

But he has given me more than I can handle in the past. I almost had a nervous breakdown at age 22. Most of my life is manageable. Just occasionally...

 

[Tessa]

This is it, you dealt with it. I have read so many tragic testimonies here, but God has carried us all through it. He never leaves us. Just trust Him.

 

[humble soul]

This is it, you dealt with it. I have read so many tragic testimonies here, but God has carried us all through it. He never leaves us. Just trust Him.

It was a traumatic time for me. I wasn't coping. God felt very distant.

 

[humble soul]

I think God allows an event that is too challenging for us, to make us wake up. Wake up and realise we are not self sufficient but God dependant . Our. life needs to be based on dependence on him.

 

[Tessa]

In the end you gained the victory. Fo you know the poem Footprints in the Sand? It is one of my favourites.

 

[Tessa]

I think God allows an event that is too challenging for us, to make us wake up. Wake up and realise we are not self sufficient but God dependant . Our. life needs to be based on dependence on him.

Amen , I agree.

 

[humble soul]

I think God allows an event that is too challenging for us, to make us wake up. Wake up and realise we are not self sufficient but God dependant . Our. life needs to be based on dependence on him.

Yet I still think the trauma experienced by victims of sexual abuse, is hard to understand. Hard to understand God's purpose there.

 

[humble soul]

This is it, you dealt with it. I have read so many tragic testimonies here, but God has carried us all through it. He never leaves us. Just trust Him.

Well reading stove's blew me away. That he could recover from such a nightmare childhood, is a miracle. I bet he felt abandoned by God as a child.

 

[Tessa]

Yet I still think the trauma experienced by victims of sexual abuse, is hard to understand. Hard to understand God's purpose there.

But God doesn't cause it. The abuser obeys satan.
I was sexually abused by a member of my family from being a small child. It was someone I loved and trusted. I was even too young to onie what was happening. It was devastating. If i was left in the house by myself i learned to lock myself in the bathroom. God helped me cope, i knew God wouldn"t leave me.
As i got older I realised that we all have weaknesses and I forgave him. I prayed for him.

 

[Tessa]

Well reading stove's blew me away. That he could recover from such a nightmare childhood, is a miracle. I bet he felt abandoned by God as a child.

Jeff is a fabulous witness for God. He is a man of God.

 

[humble soul]

But God doesn't cause it. The abuser obeys satan.
I was sexually abused by a member of my family from being a small child. It was someone I loved and trusted. I was even too young to onie what was happening. It was devastating. If i was left in the house by myself i learned to lock myself in the bathroom. God helped me cope, i knew God wouldn"t leave me.
As i got older I realised that we all have weaknesses and I forgave him. I prayed for him.

Thanks for sharing Tessa. It makes your faith more powerful to me. It's real. I tend to feel self pity sometimes but comparatively speaking I've not suffered at all.

 

[humble soul]

But God doesn't cause it

That is probably the atheist error. They blame God for "allowing" suffering. But He doesn't want to interfere ........too much.