Sun's Laughter

[zay]

You used to tell me, that my smile reminds you of when the sun kisses the clouds above

now my beloved, your smile does
when there's a sunny day, I remember your face
The smile that now kisses the clouds,
and the smile that shines like the glistening sun in the sky

sadness is replaced by the warmth of sun's waves
that lives within my heart everyday

there are still the dark days,
that never seem to end, that seconds seem to last for mere units of eternity

but now, because of you I have peace,
eventhough sadness and pain have still not left,
and still not gone

I miss you, I miss you, more than a fellow human can imagine
my heart still starves for you like I'm in the depression of famine

But with that said, I won't live in remorse
because God still has the thrown, He still runs all of our course

But with that said, my heart still cries
I will always be missing a piece of my heart that you stole
Oh how I remember the one that I can no longer hold

But with that said, I will be with you again,
We will be reunited in the storied halls of Heaven
but for now, I can still remember your smile,
the one I see everytime the sun laughs in the sky
In spite of tears of the heart, your smile becomes mine

Sometimes I can close my eyes, and I can almost see you there
the Hallowed Halls, the mystical gardens, breathe the wondrous air

all of it seems so close to touch within a second
and all laws of logic and reason are defeated
within a second I can see and feel bright light
my journey to get to you I have suceeded

as I look around, I know I've made it
is this bright light the savior?
through accounts of close death they explained it as so
a brilliant presence of mass light, it must be Him, can I ask a favor

I can't see His fae but He lifts His hand,
He points go behind Him, and a sight I did see
it was you loved one, I made it back to thee

But everytime I walk to you, I don't see your face
and everytime I get to reach you, I'm sent back to this place
and that's how the magnificent vision ends
Blessed pain, Beautiful irony, sent back only to try to come back again

eventhough I know I won't reach you, I'll still try
I won't give up the dream that I'll see you again
I'll hear you laugh again, I'll see your smile

But it's this comfort I still have,
that the sun still smiles and still laughs
that the sun's laugh is your smile
when the sun laughs, your smile becomes mine

 

[zuzu_petals]

oh zay,

this was absolutely beautiful, as I wiped away a tear...so heartfelt and sad and yet uplifting all at the same time...you will see her again, God will make sure of that...your words etched a remembrance in my mind I won't soon forget.

blessings,
zuzu_petals

 

[zay]

Hi zuzu, first off thank you for the words, I'm flattered and truly touched. It's always awesome when someone reads your works and they leave feeling touched by them. So thank you, I'm glad that they have ^_^

As far as the person lost in the poem, it's not a girl of my past, but I wrote it for those who lost someone and feel pain. It's just for people that have lost a loved one, whoever it may be. That and other meanings. But a lot of inspiration came from the Hendrick Motorsports family's loss. If you're not familiar with racing, there's a car owner named Rick Hendrick, and 10 of his employees and family members were flying to a race last October. Unfortunately, the plane crashed and all 10 were lost, 4 of which were family members of Rick; his son Ricky, his brother John, and his brother's 2 twin daughters, and 6 other friends and members of the Hendrick family. As well as the NASCAR family.

It was a sad day, and the pain is still felt today. He also lost his father last year, and another team member during the season. Fortunately, Rick is a strong man, and so is the entire Hendrick organization. So they have been able to move on from this with the strength of God, from the entire organization coming together, and the NASCAR community.

But with all of that said, it was written for those who have gone through the pain of losing someone. That and whatever each individual gets from it. But the Hendrick family lost really hit home for me since I've been a fan of theres for years. Them and other things gave me the inspiration to write this, no special someone yet, maybe some day.

 

[zuzu_petals]

thanks, zay, your explanation makes it easier to understand where your words came from, and what inspired you to write this...

zuzu