[__ Prayer __] thank you God for being faithful to me

[addonai]

thank you God for being faithful to me !
even though I battled and still battle doubts how it will go, thank you for Your care.
Help me to come at righteoussnes in You. To rekindle relationship with parents, on this short time we have with them, until I need to move out.
I've always wanted to get out of parents and be independent. But now, when it's time, and there's finally real possibility of it, I don't want to leave them and never talk to them again.
I did despised them, because they act really wrongly. But I want to forgive, and I forgive them, for their past mistakes, even those that truly made my life miserable and hard. I want them to change their ways, and allow us to cherish all moments we have together.

If possible, help me to not shy away from going together on vacation with them. And at least, to cherish moments I can have with them.
And remember me God in Your kingdom !

 

[addonai]

I want to take care of my parents in their old age. To do it lovingly. In same way they cared for me when I was kid, and they gave their everything so we could have. And finally we have it now. And now they're older.

sadly, I'm still single, I don't know when I'm going to find my soulmate as well, and be more sociable. But worldly things don't fulfil me, there's not same peace .

 

[addonai]

and after all, I've choose life.
I've chosen to stay alive, and not kill myself in my most desperate times. Which was every day in college.

Every day in college was desperation. And only time, I felt "okay" was when I had to learn, and study something. And had to remember and recollect it.

I want to work in this job for 6 months, please, help me get money for those things I need to fix.
Help me to save up wisely.


And make everything I have still last long.


At least I don't have to go by the streets doing nothing. I can do that on 2 days off in week.
So I can keep it in perspective why I'm doing it...


I've choose life, because I want to see eternity as well, and didn't wanted temporary troubles to cut me out of parents, life, and peace of heaven.
And I now know how much I would hurt my parents if I had killed myself. And I would close eternal life as well.


I would never abuse authority figure, and help me not to ever. Because, our time is soo short, and we need to make it as pleasurable as possible for others, so we're not obstacle to others.

 

[PopaSodinski]

Heavenly Father, we pray you will guide, empower and fill Addonnai with your Holy Spirit, in the Name of Jesus. Amen and Amen.

 

[addonai]

Heavenly Father, we pray you will guide, empower and fill Addonnai with your Holy Spirit, in the Name of Jesus. Amen and Amen.

I feel better now. Filled with Spirit, with it's wisdom, and by His side.
Peace God offers is more worth then being on mercy of people, or trying to please people.
Peace with God is priceless, and many people are intertwined in wrong choices, but I didn't and don't want to make same mistakes. I want to glorify God with my life. And have this peace He offers.

I will buy my parents plushy toy, and thank them for all their sacrifices for us, and I greatly appreciate all they gave for us. I want to be nicer. But still not shy-spoken, still to have energy.

First time, I've also decided, " I don't want to curse anymore". Even I though cursing will make me more "adult". It didn't. It just make me more negative, and make me blind to good things and things I should be thankful for, and make me miss hearing Holy Spirit in my life. And I can't feel that same peace. But now, I know, and want to be of great energy, but still, there's absolutely no need for cursing, or crude jokes even.
It doesn't really lead to anywhere.
At end of the day, I don't want to attract low morals people, I don't want worldly woman who will never be happy.


At least, I can now work and just earn. And after I clock out, I can go do my coding, or something I like. Because I can do this job half asleep. And hopefully, I don't have to move too much this time either..