Christ_empowered
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A praise report, at long last.
I've been praying that The Lord will provide what I need to take up my plow and look forward. The Bible says that if I can't do that, I'm not fit for The Kingdom of Heaven. Thing is, I can't do it, not in the flesh. This, I think, is one of those things that is designed to make us realize our fallen nature and turn to Him for what we need to do what we, as Christians, must do. Something like that.
So, its dawned on me, as The Lord has made me more able to move forward and look back less, than He has made good of a lot of horrible, ugly, sinful, nasty things "back there." One good thing about being utterly wretched when you come to Christ, after a worse than wasted life? No glory days to revisit. No wonderful "back then..." to linger in. I'm 32. Not old, but a lot of people I knew from back then who are around my age look back to "back then." I don't. I don't even remember most of "back then," because shock treatment wiped out a lot of that, permanently.
I get to be a new creation in Christ Jesus, and I honestly don't remember a whole lot of who I was, even 3,4 years ago. For me, its better this way. My parents love the new me, I rather enjoy being the new me, and the new me...can be in society, maybe one day even in a j-o-b, which would be very nice (indeed).
I'm beginning to see that my story is kinda like that crazy King in the OT...King Nebuchadnezzar (definitely misspelled)...but with a NT theme running throughout. "The least of these" in many respects, a lot of it due to my own sins, and now...well, work-in-progress, but I have things I haven't had in over 10 years, and I have things I don't think I had before, also.
OK. Praise Report. The Lord has made good of some horrible things in my past, and I've only been genuinely saved 4 years or so. That's huge, both for me and for my (loving, kind, long suffering) parents, who have hoped and prayed for a miracle in my life for 15+/- years now.
Thanks.
I've been praying that The Lord will provide what I need to take up my plow and look forward. The Bible says that if I can't do that, I'm not fit for The Kingdom of Heaven. Thing is, I can't do it, not in the flesh. This, I think, is one of those things that is designed to make us realize our fallen nature and turn to Him for what we need to do what we, as Christians, must do. Something like that.
So, its dawned on me, as The Lord has made me more able to move forward and look back less, than He has made good of a lot of horrible, ugly, sinful, nasty things "back there." One good thing about being utterly wretched when you come to Christ, after a worse than wasted life? No glory days to revisit. No wonderful "back then..." to linger in. I'm 32. Not old, but a lot of people I knew from back then who are around my age look back to "back then." I don't. I don't even remember most of "back then," because shock treatment wiped out a lot of that, permanently.
I get to be a new creation in Christ Jesus, and I honestly don't remember a whole lot of who I was, even 3,4 years ago. For me, its better this way. My parents love the new me, I rather enjoy being the new me, and the new me...can be in society, maybe one day even in a j-o-b, which would be very nice (indeed).
I'm beginning to see that my story is kinda like that crazy King in the OT...King Nebuchadnezzar (definitely misspelled)...but with a NT theme running throughout. "The least of these" in many respects, a lot of it due to my own sins, and now...well, work-in-progress, but I have things I haven't had in over 10 years, and I have things I don't think I had before, also.
OK. Praise Report. The Lord has made good of some horrible things in my past, and I've only been genuinely saved 4 years or so. That's huge, both for me and for my (loving, kind, long suffering) parents, who have hoped and prayed for a miracle in my life for 15+/- years now.
Thanks.
