Greetings, Mike760!
We've not met but I was touched by your prayer request and wanted to respond.
A couple thoughts occur to me as I read your words.
It does not please God to deny a man the desire of his heart.
It does not please God to see and not respond to the deep things that He indeed places in us.
That being the case, why would we have to wait?
What possible reason could there be? It's possible that in order for God to give you what you need He will first have to prepare you to receive it. I'm not a young man, but I too have that strong desire and yes, need, for a woman to walk with me and come together with me as we both follow the Lord.
I have recently went before the Lord and told him that He knows how to draw me, how to bring me close to Him and invited Him to help me come closer to Him by His Grace. The "favor" that I didn't and don't deserve is now being given to me. I'm in love. She is more than I could have hoped for and I find myself willing, no -more than willing, to draw close to God for her and my sake now because He's putting it on my heart to learn more about how He wants us to behave toward each other. I want to learn to consider her even as Christ considers the church. The knowledge that I desire is found in the bible too --You've heard it. Husbands are told to "love your wife" and to consider her needs and also admonished not to "Lord it over them." I've heard these things and read these things but going before the Lord earnestly in desire of them to work in me and prepare me for the Gift He is giving me is both a wonder and a blessing.
Now though, let me change the subject a little and tell you about my son. Yes, I was married before and yes, I'm divorced. Did I say that I don't have all the answers? I don't. Jesus does. But the story that I want to tell you is about a time when my son was a very troubled young man. He said, "I want to run away."
Now coincidentally my son's name is also Michael. You might ask me what my response to this nine year old boy was. I simply replied and said, "Oh, I see. You want to run away, right?"
"Yes, I want to run away," he declared.
When I waited, and didn't answer right away, there was a moment, a pause, and I knew that he understood that I was considering his statement. "So, you want to run then," I asked.
"Yes I want to run and run."
"Do you want to run to get away from stuff? was my next question. He needed to tell me about it and it wasn't time for me to do more than listen.
Yes, I want to get away and I'm gonna run and run and run."
The Lord gave me an ear to hear him and I continued to listen. "You want to run and run and run, then?"
"Yes, I want to run and run and run."
He really needed to tell me about what was happening in his life and I knew he might be in danger of making a big mistake. It wasn't the time to confront him about it. "What will you do after you run?" I continued to listen as I prompted him to say on.
"Run some more." He was being frank and honest in his replies. Good. I hadn't "lost" him. Hadn't put my big foot in it and quickly asked the Lord for His continued guidance.
"And then what?" I asked, "What after you run more?"
"Well, I'll want to run even more."
As we spoke I noticed that some of the anxiety that he was feeling had been softened. I asked one more question before he made his last reply. "Okay, you seem to be very troubled about something. You want to run and run and run, is that right?"
"Yes."
It was there that the Lord answered him through his dad. "Well, son. Think on this. Right now you are a troubled young man who wants to run away."
"Yes."
"If you do run and run, you will be a troubled young man who is homeless, won't you?"
I had been fixing a lunch for him as we spoke. It wasn't yet time to respond to the deep troubles that he was experiencing but that moment was a time where the Lord prepared a meal for my son and I to share.
Yes, Mike760, I will ask the Lord of Heaven to meet your every need. I am proud to join with you in this noble request of the Most High. I would also ask you to go before Him and tell him that his son, known as Sparrow does indeed love Him.
~Sparrowhawke