daninthelionsden
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Uncovering buried memories has been a most unpleasant and traumatic experience. It's strange how the mind encapsulates, compartmentalizes and quarantines a traumatic event. Then layers other life experiences to vainly try and make the horror go away until a state of total denial sets in and a false reality is erected to protect the mind.
The last memory I had that could not remain suppressed is one where my "dad" took us three boys "hunting". At some point during this time together, at the cabin, my "dad" and older half-brother set up a table and chair. At the far end of the table from the chair was a tree (about 10ft. from the table). On the tree a makeshift target. The target was barely above the level of the table. Sitting at the table with a rifle placed one ate the same height from the ground as the target. Anyone familiar with firearms knows you don't sight-in rifles at 15ft. The normal range for sighting in a rifle is 200 yards, though some prefer 300 or even more with a minimum of 100 yards. I was told to sit at the table and shoot the target, but every time I started to pull the trigger a little head passed by (little half- brother). This happened about 3 times as I sat there. I never heard "dad" or my brother tell my younger half sibling to stay back nor did they restrain him. Instead "dad" kept trying to get me to pull the trigger just as the little guy would pass. I complained "Scotty" was in my way, but I remember "dad" saying "Never mind him, just concentrate on that target". I remember keeping both eyes open so I could see better peripherally, making my shot and making sure all was clear.
The last memory I had that could not remain suppressed is one where my "dad" took us three boys "hunting". At some point during this time together, at the cabin, my "dad" and older half-brother set up a table and chair. At the far end of the table from the chair was a tree (about 10ft. from the table). On the tree a makeshift target. The target was barely above the level of the table. Sitting at the table with a rifle placed one ate the same height from the ground as the target. Anyone familiar with firearms knows you don't sight-in rifles at 15ft. The normal range for sighting in a rifle is 200 yards, though some prefer 300 or even more with a minimum of 100 yards. I was told to sit at the table and shoot the target, but every time I started to pull the trigger a little head passed by (little half- brother). This happened about 3 times as I sat there. I never heard "dad" or my brother tell my younger half sibling to stay back nor did they restrain him. Instead "dad" kept trying to get me to pull the trigger just as the little guy would pass. I complained "Scotty" was in my way, but I remember "dad" saying "Never mind him, just concentrate on that target". I remember keeping both eyes open so I could see better peripherally, making my shot and making sure all was clear.