Recent content by sufferingUSMC

Thank you all. Mom is still doing well. She's sick today but her faith never wavers.

Thank you all so very much. I'm sorry I don't reply directly to you. Day 11. The feeling of utter disgust and hatred for myself came hard last night and this morning. Id love nothing more than to feel free and liberated but I feel God is letting me marinate in this feeling of discontent. I...

Thank you all. Day 9. Turned on the Christian radio station just in time to here a sermon on sexual sins. Coincidence? I think not. Glory to God. Lord, please keep me going. I need you.

Thank you. I hope to one day be as concrete in my faith as my mother and father. Even while in the Marines, I've never battled emotions like I have this year. I struggled alone for long enough. Although I don't discuss it much with family and friends, I'm pouring it out here and with God. Tired...

Thank you all. Day 8. Devotional for the day dealt with how God must cleanse us everyday, our thoughts and actions. I will say that the days are going by slow. How great is our God!!? I am spending more time in the word and it feels good. But that feeling of not connecting to him because he's...

Been sitting here in the dark talking to God for quite some time. I feel as though he's given up on me.

Many of you have probably read my prayer request. I thank you all from the bottom of my aching heart. I want to switch gears and go into a story about the start to our 2013. On Christmas Eve 2012, my father called to tell me mom was sick and he was taking her to the hospital. He was 72, she...

You know, regardless of what a fellow Christians struggle is, we are supposed to be able to seek help and support from those within the church. Church was good this morning. Because of work, we hadn't been there in 2 months. I did confide in my pastor and he said " I'm glad you are back, this...

Day 6 Isaiah 55:7 Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will freely pardon.

On another note, my wife and Iwillbe starting daily devotions.

Thank you everyone. About half way through my day today, I happened to turn on Christian radio while driving. The next 3 songs seemed to be all about the feelings I had. I talked to God today and am feeling better. Day 5, no porn. I am on my tablet which has a parental program called k9 which...

Good to be here. I apologize for my first post being a prayer request... but I need it. Anyway, My 2013 brought the first miracle I ever got to witness, I may share that. But for now, I wrestle with my own faith and am looking for God to intervene and people to keep me going.

Ladies and gentlemen, Ive come to the end of my line, Im tired. I need prayers, strong ones. You see, I attended church growing up. I fell away, came back and attend a nice church now. But one thing has remained the same, my addiction. I saw a pornographic film at the age of 8 while staying...