Not sure where to start.... so sorry if it gets a bit incoherent
Short version: Please pray that I get a job that I can do well.
Long version / rant :
I have two educations: I am a (literally translated) child - and youth - worker / tutor, and I have a bachelor in "Information Systems". The latter education seemed to try to touch upon a bit of everything but not in - depth of anything.
When I finished school, I applied for 150- 160 jobs, and barely got any responses at all. Eventually I ended up in Scotland doing tech support for three years. The management was dreadful, the concessioners lied to the customers and us, which in turn made the customers angry... and so forth.... three years was all I could take... I had to leave, I was barely able to remain professional.
I went without any work for six months. I now have a temporary job, which is only for the summer season.
I desperately need a job .... I am applying for anything and everything I am qualified for (and a some jobs I am NOT qualified for, asking if they have the capacity to teach me what skills I lack while i work.)
All the jobs related to child care have literally hundreds of applicants for each position....
All the IT jobs ask for / demand 1-5 years of relevant experience + knowledge of 5 - 10 IT concepts. Most of the time I know 1-3 of them. I don't have any relevant experience as they all demand experience. Ironic, huh?
I feel like I wasted my time in school... because it seems my education is already outdated and not "thorough" enough. I also have a very low confidence... been that was as long as I can remember. I feel like doing my best is never good enough, because my best is mediocre of below whatever standard the companies have.
Also, I struggle to trust God. He seems.... to not care. Being neither "good" nor "evil" , just .... not present. I know a mile- long list of bible verses saying otherwise. I've quoted them myself to others. .... but I still can't trust it. I know so many Christians who say "God told me ...." "God showed me ....". Never in my life have I had an experience where God said something to me in a way to make it clear to me He was talking to me. I have prayed for guidance before switching educations... before getting the previous job .... before quitting it .... and I never, ever get an answer that I can notice.
Please pray that I get a job.... one where I KNOW I am being useful, rather than being the one they have to spend resources on to get up to scratch.... one where I WANT to go to work rather than fear it .... and that I may trust God again....
Thanks guys
Short version: Please pray that I get a job that I can do well.
Long version / rant :
I have two educations: I am a (literally translated) child - and youth - worker / tutor, and I have a bachelor in "Information Systems". The latter education seemed to try to touch upon a bit of everything but not in - depth of anything.
When I finished school, I applied for 150- 160 jobs, and barely got any responses at all. Eventually I ended up in Scotland doing tech support for three years. The management was dreadful, the concessioners lied to the customers and us, which in turn made the customers angry... and so forth.... three years was all I could take... I had to leave, I was barely able to remain professional.
I went without any work for six months. I now have a temporary job, which is only for the summer season.
I desperately need a job .... I am applying for anything and everything I am qualified for (and a some jobs I am NOT qualified for, asking if they have the capacity to teach me what skills I lack while i work.)
All the jobs related to child care have literally hundreds of applicants for each position....
All the IT jobs ask for / demand 1-5 years of relevant experience + knowledge of 5 - 10 IT concepts. Most of the time I know 1-3 of them. I don't have any relevant experience as they all demand experience. Ironic, huh?
I feel like I wasted my time in school... because it seems my education is already outdated and not "thorough" enough. I also have a very low confidence... been that was as long as I can remember. I feel like doing my best is never good enough, because my best is mediocre of below whatever standard the companies have.
Also, I struggle to trust God. He seems.... to not care. Being neither "good" nor "evil" , just .... not present. I know a mile- long list of bible verses saying otherwise. I've quoted them myself to others. .... but I still can't trust it. I know so many Christians who say "God told me ...." "God showed me ....". Never in my life have I had an experience where God said something to me in a way to make it clear to me He was talking to me. I have prayed for guidance before switching educations... before getting the previous job .... before quitting it .... and I never, ever get an answer that I can notice.
Please pray that I get a job.... one where I KNOW I am being useful, rather than being the one they have to spend resources on to get up to scratch.... one where I WANT to go to work rather than fear it .... and that I may trust God again....
Thanks guys