I'm going through some internal turmoil. I'm smoking and drinking energy drinks because I'm being under attack by demons of hatred and can't take it. last night I was scratching myself and rocking back and forth because I couldn't stop thinking of the passage if anyone hates their brother or sister there is no eternal life in them. I'm grieved by my sin and I'm rebelling against the Lord because I feel hopeless. I've done so many salvation prayers but this time it was different. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for me and was resurrected but whether that's in my heart or not is a different matter. I feel love in my heart when I think about it and I believe and I believe its Grace and I don't have to do anything but the devil keeps saying you don't believe it in your heart do it again so I keep doubting my salvation. I feel like giving up and I feel condemned. I feel like God hates me and he hates me for rejecting him by my sin and disobedience. recently I turned down an offer from a man to play guitar with him and invite any more sin in but I'm reading the Bible a lot and praying but I'm not doing enough. am I saved? or is this me mocking Grace of Jesus and not taking salvation seriously? I feel awful today and just want to cry. I want to be God's child and I know the narrow path is hard but I want to be on it . but it says in the Bible some will try and be on the narrow path but won't be able. also it says in the latter times people will have a form of godliness but denying its power. I take pleasure out of looking like a Christian and I am experiencing more love for people but I'm being a pharisee and not sure I can repent or be forgiven. I want to so desperately repent but don't believe ill be forgiven I feel under judgment. I need some honesty and truth because I'm feeling fragile and don't know if ill ever be saved or if I am.
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Hi Bryony
If you have accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior by confessing Him and believing in your heart that He is then yes you are saved, Romans 10:9-10. Now you have to submit your whole self to Him and learn to walk in His ways. Satan will always be there to try and steal your faith as he does all of us, but renounce him in the name of Jesus and he has to flee. Build up your faith in Christ through prayer and studying the word of God and learn who you are in Christ and He in you.
Gal 5:16 This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.
Gal 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
Gal 5:18 But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.
Gal 5:19 Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,
Gal 5:20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,
Gal 5:21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.
Gal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Gal 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
Gal 5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.
Gal 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.
Gal 5:26 Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
If you have accepted Jesus as Lord and Savior by confessing Him and believing in your heart that He is then yes you are saved, Romans 10:9-10. Now you have to submit your whole self to Him and learn to walk in His ways. Satan will always be there to try and steal your faith as he does all of us, but renounce him in the name of Jesus and he has to flee. Build up your faith in Christ through prayer and studying the word of God and learn who you are in Christ and He in you.
Gal 5:16 This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.
Gal 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
Gal 5:18 But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.
Gal 5:19 Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,
Gal 5:20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,
Gal 5:21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.
Gal 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Gal 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.
Gal 5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts.
Gal 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.
Gal 5:26 Let us not be desirous of vain glory, provoking one another, envying one another.
Life can be confusing and tough, may I point you at 1 John1:9 If we confess our sins he ( God ] is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.
How did you become a Christian? Is there a person who you talked with or a church you attended and could you contact them for more personal advice and support.
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I became Christian unofficially 4 years ago through an introduction to Jesus through my ex partner at a mental health rehab. at first I was into witchcraft which I thought was white witchcraft but there's no such thing I was into the new age and was brought up by satanists. right now I'm struggling to come to terms with the past and all my abuse which I usually put to the back of my mind. people say I don't smile enough its because I have to constantly keep wearing myself out with salvation issues. I don't know how to enjoy God if I feel he's a punishing God. so I'm trading scripture and trying to get to know him. I know I love him deep down but I am cautious and anxious by nature and carry a lot of pride. and anxiety comes from pride. not trusting in Jesus. I just pray im released from the bandage of darkness plus I have console games in my room with magic in the themes so I'm binning them. I don't really have a church I can trust they either know nothing about spiritual warfare and casting demons off of you or they are new apostolic reformation and believe the Holy Spirit is female which is heresy. and blasphemy. but I can't talk my walk with God is weak and I only came to faith recently but I don't know if I have because I keep OCD repeating he is my Lord but I believe that in my heart its just im turning faith into works so not sure of my salvation. plus I keep getting sinful thoughts and don't know how to stop. I threw the cigarettes away and being in a mental health hospital its hard not to smoke but its detracting me from important things. I have paranoid schizophrenia and have mind control attacks
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Hello Bryony.
Gods' grace was given to us so that we would see how terrible sin really is and repent of it.
That's what our dear Lord Jesus showed, as the wicked sinned against him by falsely accusing and killing him.
God gives sinners time to repent and live holy.
Hmm, that will ake it hard to walk down the road to church.
Is there a Chaplin in your hospital, could you ask to meet with him and attend what ever services he does?
If not you could try emailing any churches involved with Christianity Explored Web site to see if they would do a bible study with you.
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If you want to be a godly person, you've got to give God control of you throughout every day. Only God can make you godly and He does so only when you've submitted yourself to Him and remain submitted. When you're sitting on the throne of your heart, all the natural darkness and selfishness that resides in you comes out and grows. God didn't make you to rule your heart. Only He is supposed to be your God and King. When He isn't, well, you get what you're getting.
Salvation isn't a feeling; salvation is a Person: Jesus Christ.
1 John 5:11-13
11 And the testimony is this, that God has given us eternal life, and this life is in His Son.
12 He who has the Son has the life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have the life.
13 These things I have written to you who believe in the name of the Son of God, so that you may know that you have eternal life.
Eternal life is in Jesus. He is our Life. If you have him, you have eternal life, which is to say, you're saved. You can't be saved and not have the eternal life that Jesus is; the two things are one-and-the-same thing.
The apostle John, who wrote the verses above, didn't write that a person can know they have eternal life, that they're saved, because they feel they are. No, a person can know they're saved because of what John wrote. The fact is, if you trust in Christ as your Savior and submit to him as Lord, you are saved - no matter what you may or may not feel.
Many times, people are eager to trust in Christ as their Savior, but they aren't at all keen to have him as Lord over their lives, calling the shots, controlling who they are and what they do. But Jesus is God (Read John 1); you can't have him as your Savior and not have him as your Lord, as your God. If you're going to trust him as your Savior, you must also yield to him as the God over you that he is.
Have you?
The simplest, best way to be confident you're saved is to obey the First and Great Commandment. Do you know what it is? It's to love God with all of your being.
Matthew 22:35-38
35 And one of them, a lawyer, asked him a question to test him.
36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?”
37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.
38 This is the great and first commandment.
When you love God, when you really, truly desire Him, you'll find that your doubt about your salvation is gone.
So? What you feel doesn't shape reality. God loved the world, sending His only Son to die for the world, when all who were in it were sinners deserving of hell. This fact doesn't change just because you feel one way or another. The truth is that God loves you. Period. Believe it.
Romans 5:6-8
6 For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly.
7 For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die—
8 but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Don't mistake me here: God hates sin. He absolutely despises your sin. But you He sent His Son to die for.
The narrow path is impossible - without God. But if you'll let Him have control of you all day, every day, consciously submitting to Him as often as you stray from His will and way, He'll fill you with Himself, with His Spirit, more and more, until one day you'll want Him above everything else. But the basic way things work between you and Him is always that you can only work out in your life what He has first worked into you by His Spirit.
Philippians 2:12-13
12 Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling,
13 for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.
See? You work out your salvation only because God has first worked into you (by His Spirit) both the desire and ability to do His will. And He does this only when you are submitting yourself to His will and way throughout each day.
Romans 6:12-14
12 Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions.
13 Do not present your members to sin as instruments for unrighteousness, but present yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life, and your members to God as instruments for righteousness.
14 For sin will have no dominion over you, since you are not under law but under grace.
How do you "let not sin reign in your mortal body"? By presenting your members (of your body) as instruments of righteousness to God. If you do, sin will have no dominion over you.
Romans 12:1
1 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.
James 4:6-10
6 But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.”
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
8 Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
9 Be wretched and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom.
10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you.
1 Peter 5:6
6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,
When you're submitted to God and He is filling you more and more with Himself, with the Holy Spirit, the Christian life will not be impossible but a delight and joy, lived in God's infinite power. This is the life for which you were made.
Repentance is just a change of your mind, of your thinking. It involves seeing, in the light of God's truth, the lies you've been telling yourself that have brought you into sin and rebellion toward your holy Maker. Until you see the lies for what they are and root them out, taking up God's truth instead, you will just return again and again to your sin. Repentance, then, is not tears, or feeling sorry for what you've done, but simply rejecting lie-filled thinking for truth-filled thinking, throwing off falsehood and anchoring yourself instead in God's word.
You can start this process of repentance by seeing the lie the you can't be forgiven for what it is and believing God when He says in His word that, if we'll confess to Him that our sin is the sin He says it is, He'll forgive us and cleanse us from sin's stain. (1 John 1:9)
Romans 5:20
20 ...where sin increased, grace abounded all the more,
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Let's not put legalistic requirements on the issue of ones' salvation.
To put it bluntly (as I always do) IF you ever met God, YOU would KNOW IT.
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I want you to know that you will be in my prayers. I do hear from your heart that you believe in The Lord Jesus and you want and need Him. What you are desiring is being born again that Jesus talked about in John 3 and for Him to confirm it?? If so, He is more than willing to do so.
When we are born again our spirit will bear record with His that we our a child of God. We become a new creation in Christ. Please read Romans chapter 8 when you can and as often as you can read a chapter of John. You'll feel a peace as never before. Pray from your heart as if He is standing right in front of you and open your heart in faith. When you pour out your worries and troubles..He will make Himself real to you dear.
Take His hand by faith and begin to walk with Him. He is there.
Praying for you!
When we are born again our spirit will bear record with His that we our a child of God. We become a new creation in Christ. Please read Romans chapter 8 when you can and as often as you can read a chapter of John. You'll feel a peace as never before. Pray from your heart as if He is standing right in front of you and open your heart in faith. When you pour out your worries and troubles..He will make Himself real to you dear.
Take His hand by faith and begin to walk with Him. He is there.
Praying for you!
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Good response.
Bryony, all of this means you are progressing, and if you just keep going the Lord will keep delivering you out, slowly but surely. You will begin to feel more Peace, more Assurance that you are His, so keep spending time with Him and don't listen to the voice of the enemy. Satan is trying to dissuade you, but if you just keep praying to the Lord and seeking to understand and get to know Him better by daily study of scripture, you are going to keep growing into the things of God and away from the world.
The only big mistake you can make at this point is if you stop trying, so that's what the enemy is trying to get you to do, but scripture says that each of us must bear his own burden, and your burden has been a hard one. So keep going. He will deliver you from all of it eventually. You just have to keep trusting Him is all.
God bless.
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hi there. I've been carrying the heavy burden of sinning. I haven't repented yet but I believe I came to faith. I just believed and said Lord Jesus I want to follow you with my whole heart. I don't feel the same animosity towards others anymore but I don't feel like I love them and often find emotions weak. my mother used to keep me up all night as a kid crying and sobbing her heart out about things that didn't even happen as confirmed by the rest of my extended family so find emotions difficult. I do feel tenderness but I also feel like if you dont have love you don't have God. I'm on medication thats stopped me appreciating nature and people I love God and Jesus but not others so much so I'm doubting my salvation. I keep feeling the need to do salvation again but remind myself its grace . however I feel as if I'm boasting a bit because of doing it in my heart but then remind myself its all Jesus. I'm tired and spiritually weary but even if I am not saved I still want to try as tired as I am.Good response.
Bryony, all of this means you are progressing, and if you just keep going the Lord will keep delivering you out, slowly but surely. You will begin to feel more Peace, more Assurance that you are His, so keep spending time with Him and don't listen to the voice of the enemy. Satan is trying to dissuade you, but if you just keep praying to the Lord and seeking to understand and get to know Him better by daily study of scripture, you are going to keep growing into the things of God and away from the world.
The only big mistake you can make at this point is if you stop trying, so that's what the enemy is trying to get you to do, but scripture says that each of us must bear his own burden, and your burden has been a hard one. So keep going. He will deliver you from all of it eventually. You just have to keep trusting Him is all.
God bless.
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Don't wear yourself out, because no matter what some might tell you, your situation is actually very easy.
1. You've been through Hell, and He knows it. He knows about all of it.
2. You are doing your best to give your heart and life to Him, and He knows it.
3. You really just need to trust Him that He sees where you are and knows you are sincere, and just keep asking Him every day to help you and empower you to do the things He asks you to do.
4. Stay in the word and in Prayer, and just keep walking with Him so He can keep making changes in you for the better.
The truth is none of us have it all together, so we all have similar problems only to a lesser degree.
Hi Bryony, My heart goes out to you. If I could, I would give you a big old hug. Let's look at your post:
1. Smoking and drinking energy drinks are not sins. They are not the best things you could do. But they are not sins.
2. Scratching yourself could become a medical issue. So stop doing that.
3. Only believers grieve over the sins they commit. Non-believers have no need to grieve. Sin is a normal part of their lives. So guess what? You are a believer.
4. You feel like you are not doing enough to be saved because you cannot do anything to be saved. Neither can I or anyone else. That is why Jesus had give His life to save us.
5. You are judging yourself. Stop! You have been made free through Christ's sacrifice. You are worthy because Christ is worthy. Don't let Satan steal your joy.
Finally, if you have time to smoke, scratch, and doubt, I would suggest that you have time to serve. Find a mission, whatever your passion is, and volunteer to help others less fortunate than you. Put your faith to work and you will understand how real it is.
I hope this helps you. May God bless,
Taz
1. Smoking and drinking energy drinks are not sins. They are not the best things you could do. But they are not sins.
2. Scratching yourself could become a medical issue. So stop doing that.
3. Only believers grieve over the sins they commit. Non-believers have no need to grieve. Sin is a normal part of their lives. So guess what? You are a believer.
4. You feel like you are not doing enough to be saved because you cannot do anything to be saved. Neither can I or anyone else. That is why Jesus had give His life to save us.
5. You are judging yourself. Stop! You have been made free through Christ's sacrifice. You are worthy because Christ is worthy. Don't let Satan steal your joy.
Finally, if you have time to smoke, scratch, and doubt, I would suggest that you have time to serve. Find a mission, whatever your passion is, and volunteer to help others less fortunate than you. Put your faith to work and you will understand how real it is.
I hope this helps you. May God bless,
Taz
Hello friend. Your not repenting your sins to God and your outside Gods sanctuary.
Psalm 73:27. Until I went into the sanctuary of God; Then understood I thier end . The wicked and heathen have no future. Those who love and serve God and repent, are inside God's sanctuary.
Psalm chapter 51:13. Then I will teach trangressers your ways, and sinners will return to you. Repent sins to God and be forgiven. There's no sins God can't forgive. Go to the cross and repent.
Luke chapter 11:24 to 11:26. Jesus teaches about unclean spirit. Those who wont study the bible and fill thier minds with Gods word, are prey to evil spirits. Get the picture. If you're repenting sins to God and studying the bible, the evil spirits will distance themselves.
Luke chapter 10:19. .Jesus gave Christian people power over satan and evil spirits, by using Jesus name to order evil spirits away from you. GET BEHIND ME IN THE NAME OF JESUS. Order satan and evil spirits away from you !. You can have piece of mind, by doing it God's way. Study one or two chapters a day to get spirtual growth.
Get into sanctuary of God and pursue Spirtual Growth !!. Get the picture. Psalm chapter 73 and James chapter 1.
Psalm 73:27. Until I went into the sanctuary of God; Then understood I thier end . The wicked and heathen have no future. Those who love and serve God and repent, are inside God's sanctuary.
Psalm chapter 51:13. Then I will teach trangressers your ways, and sinners will return to you. Repent sins to God and be forgiven. There's no sins God can't forgive. Go to the cross and repent.
Luke chapter 11:24 to 11:26. Jesus teaches about unclean spirit. Those who wont study the bible and fill thier minds with Gods word, are prey to evil spirits. Get the picture. If you're repenting sins to God and studying the bible, the evil spirits will distance themselves.
Luke chapter 10:19. .Jesus gave Christian people power over satan and evil spirits, by using Jesus name to order evil spirits away from you. GET BEHIND ME IN THE NAME OF JESUS. Order satan and evil spirits away from you !. You can have piece of mind, by doing it God's way. Study one or two chapters a day to get spirtual growth.
Get into sanctuary of God and pursue Spirtual Growth !!. Get the picture. Psalm chapter 73 and James chapter 1.
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hi there I've been using the blue letter Bible to learn the whole Bible in a year I have also read Ezekiel, Jeremiah, Isiah, (sorry for spelling mistake) revelations the New Testament 5 times, Job, Genesis Exodus and some Psalms. I am wanting to repent and I did last year a massive repentance where I spoke to the Holy Spirit all night but a lot happened since then and I was sectioned into hospital after mind control attacks and attacks from the enemy voices etc. seeing things. I did salvation prayers over 200 times but recently understood salvation now I dedicate my time to getting to know God and Jesus. I know he's coming back but I'm trying to be strong and not worry about tomorrow. its hard. because of my history and my dad who is deceased was a high ranking Satanist involved in royalty Spanish prince etc. Romanian embassy it goes high up I have high ranking demons after me. he cursed me as a kid and said demons will follow me all my life. I was afraid to repent of it because I had an experience with a false ministry that had m renounce Satanism so I have low trust in churches. its been predicted in the end times that churches will be mixed up and not following the true way. so I settle for what I have.
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1 John 4:4
4 Little children, you are from God and have overcome them, for he who is in you is greater than he who is in the world.
1 John 3:8
8 ...The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil.
Hebrews 2:14-15
14 ...Christ himself likewise partook of the same things, that through death he might destroy the one who has the power of death, that is, the devil,
15 and deliver all those who through fear of death were subject to lifelong slavery.
1 Corinthians 15:57-58
57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
58 Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord...
James 4:7
7 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.