Christ_empowered
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OK. So, right now, I'm not a whole lot of either, lol. I get disability because I had a major nervous breakdown 6-7 years ago. I'm just now recovering, thanks only to my recent (18months) repentance and Christ's grace.
Recovery means, in my situation, that I get to go to school (online). Awesome! But this raises some questions, the big one being: now that I'm in a position to once again get into the world (mainstream society), how do I avoid becoming of it? Be ye not conformed unto the ways of this world, but be ye transformed by the renewal or your mind...
In a way, I'm (thanks only to Christ) blessed for having gone crazy. Its like an additional line in The Beatitudes: blessed are the mad, for they shall see...if not Christ, then I think truly, severely mentally ill people see how the world really works. Oppression of the poor. Abuse, by perfectly respectable people. The importance of power, prestige, and status to just about everybody.
So...yeah. Honestly, one reason I want to go back to school is to get a job so a) I won't be on disability and b) I won't be so vulnerable and oppressed ever, ever again. That's why I'm looking to start a business degree with a useful cognate/emphasis, so I can get a decent, secure job (God willing), maybe a masters one day (they do those online too, its amazing), and be in a position to help people who find themselves trapped in madness, poverty, oppression, bondage, etc.
The downside is that, if I wasn't a Christian, I'd just get the degree(s), get to work, and be like everybody else, right? The experience of madness and abuse would only make me bitter and work towards not being vulnerable; it wouldn't change who I was, which only Christ can do. And He has!
Back to the original Q. How do you stay in the world--working or whatever, dealing with non-believers day in, day out--and stay not OF the world? I have a cushy deal right now, all things considered. My nominal believer parents take good care of me in their very nice house. I even get to drive one of their very nice cars! Very few people who've had my life experiences get these opportunities.
So, that's the question: how does one stay (or get into) the world and yet remain not of the world?
Recovery means, in my situation, that I get to go to school (online). Awesome! But this raises some questions, the big one being: now that I'm in a position to once again get into the world (mainstream society), how do I avoid becoming of it? Be ye not conformed unto the ways of this world, but be ye transformed by the renewal or your mind...
In a way, I'm (thanks only to Christ) blessed for having gone crazy. Its like an additional line in The Beatitudes: blessed are the mad, for they shall see...if not Christ, then I think truly, severely mentally ill people see how the world really works. Oppression of the poor. Abuse, by perfectly respectable people. The importance of power, prestige, and status to just about everybody.
So...yeah. Honestly, one reason I want to go back to school is to get a job so a) I won't be on disability and b) I won't be so vulnerable and oppressed ever, ever again. That's why I'm looking to start a business degree with a useful cognate/emphasis, so I can get a decent, secure job (God willing), maybe a masters one day (they do those online too, its amazing), and be in a position to help people who find themselves trapped in madness, poverty, oppression, bondage, etc.
The downside is that, if I wasn't a Christian, I'd just get the degree(s), get to work, and be like everybody else, right? The experience of madness and abuse would only make me bitter and work towards not being vulnerable; it wouldn't change who I was, which only Christ can do. And He has!
Back to the original Q. How do you stay in the world--working or whatever, dealing with non-believers day in, day out--and stay not OF the world? I have a cushy deal right now, all things considered. My nominal believer parents take good care of me in their very nice house. I even get to drive one of their very nice cars! Very few people who've had my life experiences get these opportunities.
So, that's the question: how does one stay (or get into) the world and yet remain not of the world?