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Like a lot of people, I'm looking for a job, and I'm extremely discouraged.
Let me explain...
After graduating from college, my parents only gave me 3 months to find a job that paid enough to support myself. Since I wasn't having any luck and my time was running out, I did what the Bible said and "sought wise counsel". I asked anyone and everyone who know me at all for suggestions and they all pretty much said the same thing, "You need to be a teacher." One pastor even went as far as to say, "God wants you to teach. You need to do this."
The words made me cringe. I absolutely love kids, but teaching full time just didn't appeal to me at all, and I didn't think I was very good at it. Still, I told God if that's what he wanted me to do I'd do it.
I applied to a teaching program, and at that time nobody - absolutely NOBODY - got in the first time they applied. The program was so impacted we were told if we were an absolutely top notch teacher we could expect to get in within 2 years. I knew many people who were still trying to get in after 4 years, and they had been teaching full time...and they were amazing!
Well, I got in, the first and only time I applied. I was placed on the waiting list at first, then a professor pulled me into her office and said, "I want you on my team." She called the Dean of Education and, after a long discussion, she hung up and told me I was in. This was an impacted program, mind you, that was already full. There wasn't any room for me, but they broke the rules to let me in.
I told her I felt guilty since so many people wanted in and teaching really wasn't a dream of mine. She looked me straight in the eye and said, "They didn't get in because they don't have what it takes. You do. I'd be crazy to let you walk away." I still didn't really agree.
So here's my problem...
Since then, I've had a terrible time finding a job, and I still don't really like teaching. I've been working at a Christian school, with no benefits and that pays less than half of what I would be making at a public school. Since enrollment dropped, I'm out of a job. Since the school was not accredited (which I didn't know mattered) my time there won't count most places, which means it's like starting over again. I'm in my late 30's and living with my parents because I don't make enough to support myself. Needless to say, I'm not loving it.
I've applied to almost 50 places, and heard only from 2..still no job.
So why would God pretty much push me into teaching and then not provide a job for me? I've been praying like crazy, but still don't know what to do.
Any thoughts or advice would be much appreciated. Thanks!
Let me explain...
After graduating from college, my parents only gave me 3 months to find a job that paid enough to support myself. Since I wasn't having any luck and my time was running out, I did what the Bible said and "sought wise counsel". I asked anyone and everyone who know me at all for suggestions and they all pretty much said the same thing, "You need to be a teacher." One pastor even went as far as to say, "God wants you to teach. You need to do this."
The words made me cringe. I absolutely love kids, but teaching full time just didn't appeal to me at all, and I didn't think I was very good at it. Still, I told God if that's what he wanted me to do I'd do it.
I applied to a teaching program, and at that time nobody - absolutely NOBODY - got in the first time they applied. The program was so impacted we were told if we were an absolutely top notch teacher we could expect to get in within 2 years. I knew many people who were still trying to get in after 4 years, and they had been teaching full time...and they were amazing!
Well, I got in, the first and only time I applied. I was placed on the waiting list at first, then a professor pulled me into her office and said, "I want you on my team." She called the Dean of Education and, after a long discussion, she hung up and told me I was in. This was an impacted program, mind you, that was already full. There wasn't any room for me, but they broke the rules to let me in.
I told her I felt guilty since so many people wanted in and teaching really wasn't a dream of mine. She looked me straight in the eye and said, "They didn't get in because they don't have what it takes. You do. I'd be crazy to let you walk away." I still didn't really agree.
So here's my problem...
Since then, I've had a terrible time finding a job, and I still don't really like teaching. I've been working at a Christian school, with no benefits and that pays less than half of what I would be making at a public school. Since enrollment dropped, I'm out of a job. Since the school was not accredited (which I didn't know mattered) my time there won't count most places, which means it's like starting over again. I'm in my late 30's and living with my parents because I don't make enough to support myself. Needless to say, I'm not loving it.
I've applied to almost 50 places, and heard only from 2..still no job.
So why would God pretty much push me into teaching and then not provide a job for me? I've been praying like crazy, but still don't know what to do.
Any thoughts or advice would be much appreciated. Thanks!