[__ Prayer __] Burned out at times

[jasonc]

BurNed out of life on some days,today was one of those.

 

[reba]

 

[jasonc]

Sorry, an old issue of my past will at times show its head.i have grown accustomed to feeling isolated as often few are able in mind to understanding my eccentricity let alone tolerate it.it doesn't help I feed that cycle and also shield my self.it has been hard to relate to the group as often you appear to be connected via common grounds of children and church.

Of these I lack and felt left out,thus why I am quiet most if the time as either I'm pondering a debate,historical reading research ,photography. I can no longer be this way. Oddly with vets I'm more open .old and reflexive habit.i apologize if I have come across as cold,rude .I also hate to lose.this also has me loathing,church fellowship time.i because of my limited time don't have close friends.the vets are close to me but even then I guard my pain from them.there is deep cynicism that runs in.me that I can feed if I want to.

I have sent this to two others.there's alot of brokeness in my life .I could say more to them ,but I have learned to hide what is often deeply bothersome. I'm not sure why I felt the need to hide it.

 

[Pegasus]

Sorry, an old issue of my past will at times show its head.i have grown accustomed to feeling isolated as often few are able in mind to understanding my eccentricity let alone tolerate it.it doesn't help I feed that cycle and also shield my self.it has been hard to relate to the group as often you appear to be connected via common grounds of children and church.

Of these I lack and felt left out,thus why I am quiet most if the time as either I'm pondering a debate,historical reading research ,photography. I can no longer be this way. Oddly with vets I'm more open .old and reflexive habit.i apologize if I have come across as cold,rude .I also hate to lose.this also has me loathing,church fellowship time.i because of my limited time don't have close friends.the vets are close to me but even then I guard my pain from them.there is deep cynicism that runs in.me that I can feed if I want to.

I have sent this to two others.there's alot of brokeness in my life .I could say more to them ,but I have learned to hide what is often deeply bothersome. I'm not sure why I felt the need to hide it.

Praying for you Bro.

When we hit rock bottom we can be assured the Rock we rest on is the One the builders rejected. He will lift us up. Praise Him. So rock bottom sometimes means all we have is Christ and that is actually a good place to be. Hope this is a comfort.

 

[jasonc]

I have ,those who saw my post on fb,recieved support. A response given to the text.

Rather too emotional to post that.not that's bad.a friend locally called me.smoke session to relief stress.that's great and needed.

 

[reba]

Jason your words have helped me for almost 7 years now... Your qualities are many... Hang in there through the tough times.. A Jaci time might be a good idea..

 

[jasonc]

Jason your words have helped me for almost 7 years now... Your qualities are many... Hang in there through the tough times.. A Jaci time might be a good idea..

There is some mixed news about her.

Her dad who threatened monica with a gun is in jail for posession of a firearms as a felon.he is also being treated for a possible mental condition.

Monica has fled that part of nc with jaci.jaci must not fully understand but I dint like her dad ,but if jaci does finally have a dad and its her biological one.I'm grateful.

Plans are to have her here in the summer.jaci doesn't remember much of the things we did but knows who we are.

 

[reba]

A repeat of many of those things will blossom them again ... in her heart

 

[jasonc]

A repeat of many of those things will blossom them again ... in her heart

All beyond my control and my wife.

My wife will visit in December.

 

[Christ_empowered]

praying for you and your family, jasonc.

 

[jasonc]

praying for you and your family, jasonc.

Took the day off,when I get down I can get too tired to safely drive and fall asleep at the wheel.

 

[jasonc]

Ah,I need to copy and paste my statement on fb.